opaline mist was often
repeated at Bessborough Gardens on account
of the nearness to the river.
There is no reason why I should remember that effect more on that
day than on any other day, except that I stood for a long time
looking out of the window after the landlady's daughter was gone
with her spoil of cups and saucers. I heard her put the tray
down in the passage and finally shut the door; and still I
remained smoking with my back to the room. It is very clear that
I was in no haste to take the
plunge into my
writing life, if as
plunge this first attempt may be described. My whole being was
steeped deep in the indolence of a sailor away from the sea, the
scene of never-ending labour and of unceasing duty. For utter
surrender to indolence you cannot beat a sailor
ashore when that
mood is on him, the mood of
absolute irresponsibility tasted to
the full. It seems to me that I thought of nothing
whatever, but
this is an
impression which is hardly to be believed at this
distance of years. What I am certain of is, that I was very far
from thinking of
writing a story, though it is possible and even
likely that I was thinking of the man Almayer.
I had seen him for the first time some four years before from the
bridge of a
steamer moored to a rickety little wharf forty miles
up, more or less, a Bornean river. It was very early morning and
a slight mist, an opaline mist as in Bessborough Gardens only
without the fiery flicks on roof and chimney-pot from the rays of
the red London sun, promised to turn
presently into a woolly fog.
Barring a small dug-out canoe on the river there was nothing
moving within sight. I had just come up yawning from my cabin.
The serang and the Malay crew were overhauling the cargo chains
and
trying the winches; their voices sounded subdued on the deck
below and their movements were
languid. That
tropical daybreak
was
chilly. The Malay quartermaster, coming up to get something
from the lockers on the
bridge, shivered visibly. The forests
above and below and on the opposite bank looked black and dank;
wet dripped from the rigging upon the
tightly stretched deck
awnings, and it was in the middle of a shuddering yawn that I
caught sight of Almayer. He was moving across a patch of burnt
grass, a blurred
shadowy shape with the blurred bulk of a house
behind him, a low house of mats, bamboos and palm-leaves with a
high-pitched roof of grass.
He stepped upon the jetty. He was clad simply in flapping
pyjamas of cretonne pattern (enormous flowers with yellow petals
on a
disagreeable blue ground) and a thin cotton singlet with
short sleeves. His arms, bare to the elbow, were crossed on his
chest. His black hair looked as if it had not been cut for a
very long time and a curly wisp of it strayed across his
forehead. I had heard of him at Singapore; I had heard of him on
board; I had heard of him early in the morning and late at night;
I had heard of him at tiffin and at dinner; I had heard of him in
a place called Pulo Laut from a half-caste gentleman there, who
described himself as the
manager of a coal-mine; which sounded
civilised and
progressive till you heard that the mine could not
be worked at present because it was
haunted by some particulary
atrocious ghosts. I had heard of him in a place called Dongola,
in the Island of Celebes, when the Rajah of that little-known
seaport (you can get no
anchorage there in less than fifteen
fathom, which is
extremely inconvenient) came on board in a
friendly way with only two attendants, and drank bottle after
bottle of soda-water on the after-skylight with my good friend
and
commander, Captain C--. At least I heard his name distinctly
pronounced several times in a lot of talk in Malay language. Oh
yes, I heard it quite distinctly--Almayer, Almayer--and saw
Captain C-- smile while the fat dingy Rajah laughed audibly. To
hear a Malay Rajah laugh outright is a rare experience I can
assure you. And I
overhead more of Almayer's name
amongst our
deck passengers (mostly wandering traders of good repute) as they
sat all over the ship--each man fenced round with bundles and
boxes--on mats, on pillows, on quilts, on billets of wood,