silent, protecting presence, whose eyes had a sort of commanding
sweetness; and I also remember the great
gathering of all the
relations from near and far, and the grey heads of the family
friends paying her the
homage of respect and love in the house of
her favourite brother who, a few years later, was to take the
place for me of both my parents.
I did not understand the
tragicsignificance of it all at the
time, though indeed I remember that doctors also came. There
were no signs of invalidism about her--but I think that already
they had
pronounced her doom unless perhaps the change to a
southern
climate could re-establish her declining strength. For
me it seems the very happiest period of my
existence. There was
my cousin, a
delightful quick-tempered little girl, some months
younger than myself, whose life,
lovingly watched over, as if she
were a royal
princess, came to an end with her fifteenth year.
There were other children, too, many of whom are dead now, and
not a few whose very names I have forgotten. Over all this hung
the
oppressive shadow of the great Russian Empire--the shadow
lowering with the darkness of a new-born national
hatred fostered
by the Moscow school of journalists against the Poles after the
ill-omened rising of 1863.
This is a far cry back from the MS. of "Almayer's Folly," but the
public record of these formative impressions is not the whim of
an
uneasy egotism. These, too, are things human, already distant
in their
appeal. It is meet that something more should be left
for the novelist's children than the colours and figures of his
own hard-won
creation. That which in their
grown-up years may
appear to the world about them as the most enigmatic side of
their natures and perhaps must remain for ever obscure even to
themselves, will be their
unconsciousresponse to the still voice
of that inexorable past from which his work of
fiction and their
personalities are remotely derived.
Only in men's
imagination does every truth find an
effective and
undeniable
existence. Imagination, not
invention, is the supreme
master of art as of life. An
imaginative and exact rendering of
authentic memories may serve worthily that spirit of piety
towards all things human which sanctions the conceptions of a
writer of tales, and the emotions of the man
reviewing his own
experience.
Chapter II.
As I have said, I was unpacking my
luggage after a journey from
London into Ukraine. The MS. of "Almayer's Folly"--my
companionalready for some three years or more, and then in the ninth
chapter of its age--was deposited unostentatiously on the
writing-table placed between two windows. It didn't occur to me
to put it away in the
drawer the table was fitted with, but my
eye was attracted by the good form of the same
drawer's brass
handles. Two candelabra with four candles each lighted up
festally the room which had waited so many years for the
wandering
nephew. The blinds were down.
Within five hundred yards of the chair on which I sat stood the
first
peasant hut of the village--part of my maternal
grandfather's
estate, the only part remaining in the possession
of a member of the family; and beyond the village in the
limitless
blackness of a winter's night there lay the great
unfenced fields--not a flat and
severe plain, but a kindly bread-
giving land of low rounded ridges, all white now, with the black
patches of
timber nestling in the hollows. The road by which I
had come ran through the village with a turn just outside the
gates closing the short drive. Somebody was
abroad on the deep
snowtrack; a quick
tinkle of bells stole gradually into the
stillness of the room like a tuneful whisper.
My unpacking had been watched over by the servant who had come to
help me, and, for the most part, had been
standingattentive but
unnecessary at the door of the room. I did not want him in the
least, but I did not like to tell him to go away. He was a young
fellow, certainly more than ten years younger than myself; I had
not been--I won't say in that place but within sixty miles of it,
ever since the year '67; yet his guileless physiognomy of the
open
peasant type seemed
strangely familiar. It was quite
possible that he might have been a
descendant, a son or even a