CHAPTER XVIII YEAR 1777
This may well be called the year of the heavy heart, for we had sad
tidings of the lads that went away as soldiers to America. First,
there was a boding in the minds of all their friends that they were
never to see them more; and their
sadness, like a mist spreading
from the waters and covering the fields, darkened the spirit of the
neighbours. Secondly, a sound was bruited about that the king's
forces would have a hot and a sore struggle before the rebels were
put down, if they were ever put down. Then came the cruel truth of
all that the poor lads' friends had feared. But it is fit and
proper that I should
relate at length, under their several heads,
the sorrows and afflictions as they came to pass.
One evening, as I was
taking my walk alone, meditating my
discoursefor the next Sabbath--it was
shortly after Candlemas--it was a fine
clear
frosty evening, just as the sun was
setting. Taking my walk
alone, and thinking of the dreadfulness of Almighty power, and how
that, if it was not
tempered and restrained by
infinite goodness,
and
wisdom, and mercy, the
miserablesinner, man, and all things
that live, would be in a woeful state, I drew near the beild where
old Widow Mirkland lived by herself, who was grand-mother to Jock
Hempy, the ramplor lad, that was the second who took on for a
soldier. I did mind of this at the time; but, passing the house, I
heard the croon, as it were, of a laden soul busy with the Lord,
and, not to
disturb the holy
workings of grace, I paused and
listened. It was old Mizy Mirkland herself, sitting at the gable of
the house, looking at the sun
setting in all his glory behind the
Arran hills; but she was not praying--only moaning to herself--an
oozing out, as it might be called, of the spirit from her heart,
then grievously oppressed with sorrow, and heavy bodements of grey
hairs and poverty.--"Yonder it slips awa'," she was
saying, "and my
poor bairn, that's o'er the seas in America, is maybe looking on its
bright face, thinking of his hame, and aiblins of me, that did my
best to breed him up in the fear of the Lord; but I couldna warsle
wi' what was ordained. Ay, Jock! as ye look at the sun gaun down,
as many a time, when ye were a wee
innocent laddie at my knee here,
I hae bade ye look at him as a type of your Maker, ye will hae a
sore heart; for ye hae left me in my need, when ye should hae been
near at hand to help me, for the hard labour and industry with which
I brought you up. But it's the Lord's will. Blessed be the name of
the Lord, that makes us to thole the tribulations of this world, and
will
reward us, through the mediation of Jesus, hereafter." She
wept
bitterly as she said this, for her heart was tried, but the
blessing of a religious
contentment was shed upon her; and I stepped
up to her, and asked about her concerns, for, saving as a
parishioner, and a
decent old woman, I knew little of her. Brief
was her story; but it was one of misfortune.--"But I will not
complain," she said, "of the
measure that has been meted unto me. I
was left myself an
orphan; when I grew up, and was married to my
gude-man, I had known but scant and want. Our days of
felicity were
few; and he was ta'en awa' from me
shortly after my Mary was born.
A wailing baby, and a widow's heart, was a' he left me. I nursed
her with my salt tears, and bred her in straits; but the favour of
God was with us, and she grew up to womanhood as lovely as the rose,
and as
blameless as the lily. In her time she was married to a
farming lad. There never was a brawer pair in the kirk, than on
that day when they gaed there first as man and wife. My heart was
proud, and it pleased the Lord to
chastise my pride--to nip my
happiness, even in the bud. The very next day he got his arm
crushed. It never got well again; and he fell into a decay, and
died in the winter, leaving my Mary far on in the road to be a
mother.
"When her time drew near, we both happened to be
working in the
yard. She was delving to plant potatoes, and I told her it would do
her hurt; but she was eager to provide something, as she said, for
what might happen. Oh! it was an ill-omened word. The same night
her trouble came on, and before the morning she was a cauld corpse,
and another wee wee fatherless baby was greeting at my bosom--it was
him that's noo awa' in America. He grew up to be a fine bairn, with
a warm heart, but a light head, and,
wanting the rein of a father's
power upon him, was no sa douce as I could have wished; but he was
no man's foe save his own. I thought, and hoped, as he grew to
years of
discretion, he would have sobered, and been a
consolation