O pious reader!
standing by,
Learn like this gentle one to die.
The grass doth grow and fade away,
And time runs out by night and day;
The King of Terrors has command
To strike us with his dart in hand.
Go where we will by flood or field,
He will
pursue and make us yield.
But though to him we must resign
The vesture of our part divine,
There is a jewel in our trust,
That will not
perish in the dust,
A pearl of price, a precious gem,
Ordained for Jesus' diadem;
Therefore, be holy while you can,
And think upon the doom of man.
Repent in time and sin no more,
That when the
strife of life is o'er,
On wings of love your soul may rise,
To dwell with angels in the skies,
Where psalms are sung eternally,
And martyrs ne'er again shall die;
But with the saints still bask in bliss,
And drink the cup of blessedness.
This was greatly thought of at the time, and Mr Lorimore, who had a
nerve for poesy himself in his younger years, was of opinion that it
was so much to the purpose, and
suitablewithal, that he made his
scholars write it out for their
examination copies, at the reading
whereof before the heritors, when the
examination of the school came
round, the tear came into my eye, and every one present sympathized
with me in my great
affliction for the loss of the first Mrs
Balwhidder.
Andrew Langshaw, as I have recorded, having come from the Glasgow
College to the burial of his sister, my wife that was, stayed with
me a month to keep me company; and staying with me, he was a great
cordial, for the weather was wet and sleety, and the nights were
stormy, so that I could go little out, and few of the elders came
in, they being at that time old men in a feckless condition, not at
all qualified to warsle with the blasts of winter. But when Andrew
left me to go back to his classes, I was eerie and
lonesome; and but
for the getting of the
monument ready, which was a blessed
entertainment to me in those
dreary nights, with
consulting anent
the shape of it with John Truel, and meditating on the verse for the
epitaph, I might have gone
altogether demented. However, it pleased
Him, who is the surety of the
sinner, to help me through the Slough
of Despond, and to set my feet on firm land, establishing my way
thereon.
But the work of the
monument, and the
epitaph, could not
endure for
a
constancy, and after it was done, I was again in great danger of
sinking into the hypochonderies a second time. However, I was
enabled to fight with my
affliction, and by-and-by, as the spring
began to open her green lattice, and to set out her flower-pots to
the
sunshine, and the time of the singing of birds was come, I
became more
composed, and like myself, so I often walked in the
fields, and held
communion with nature, and wondered at the
mysteries thereof.
On one of these occasions, as I was sauntering along the edge of
Eaglesham-wood, looking at the
industrious bee going from flower to
flower, and the idle
butterfly, that layeth up no store, but
perisheth ere it is winter, I felt as it were a spirit from on high
descending upon me, a throb at my heart, and a
thrill in my brain,
and I was transported out of myself, and seized with the notion of
writing a book--but what it should be about, I could not settle to
my
satisfaction. Sometimes I thought of an
orthodox poem, like
PARADISE LOST, by John Milton,
wherein I proposed to treat more at
large of Original Sin, and the great
mystery of Redemption; at
others, I fancied that a connect
treatise on the efficacy of Free
Grace would be more
taking; but although I made
divers beginnings in
both subjects, some new thought ever came into my head, and the