without him. The most she will probably do is to suggest a lozenge,
and even that in a tone implying that it is the noise more than
anything else she is
anxious to get rid of.
Poor little Angelina, too, sheds silent tears, for Edwin has given up
carrying her old
handkerchief in the inside pocket of his waistcoat.
Both are astonished at the falling off in the other one, but neither
sees their own change. If they did they would not suffer as they do.
They would look for the cause in the right quarter--in the littleness
of poor human nature--join hands over their common failing, and start
building their house anew on a more
earthly and
enduring foundation.
But we are so blind to our own shortcomings, so wide awake to those of
others. Everything that happens to us is always the other person's
fault. Angelina would have gone on
loving Edwin forever and ever and
ever if only Edwin had not grown so strange and different. Edwin
would have adored Angelina through
eternity if Angelina had only
remained the same as when he first adored her.
It is a cheerless hour for you both when the lamp of love has gone out
and the fire of
affection is not yet lit, and you have to grope about
in the cold, raw dawn of life to
kindle it. God grant it catches
light before the day is too far spent. Many sit shivering by the dead
coals till night come.
But, there, of what use is it to
preach? Who that feels the rush of
young love through his veins can think it will ever flow
feeble and
slow! To the boy of twenty it seems impossible that he will not love
as wildly at sixty as he does then. He cannot call to mind any
middle-aged or
elderly gentleman of his
acquaintance who is known to
exhibit symptoms of
franticattachment, but that does not
interfere in
his
belief in himself. His love will never fall,
whoever else's may.
Nobody ever loved as he loves, and so, of course, the rest of the
world's experience can be no guide in his case. Alas! alas! ere
thirty he has joined the ranks of the sneerers. It is not his fault.
Our
passions, both the good and bad, cease with our blushes. We do
not hate, nor
grieve, nor joy, nor
despair in our thirties like we did
in our teens. Disappointment does not suggest
suicide, and we quaff
success without intoxication.
We take all things in a minor key as we grow older. There are few
majestic passages in the later acts of life's opera. Ambition takes a
less
ambitious aim. Honor becomes more
reasonable and conveniently
adapts itself to circumstances. And love--love dies. "Irreverence
for the dreams of youth" soon creeps like a killing frost upon our
hearts. The tender shoots and the expanding flowers are nipped and
withered, and of a vine that yearned to stretch its tendrils round the
world there is left but a sapless stump.
My fair friends will deem all this rank
heresy, I know. So far from a
man's not
loving after he has passed
boyhood, it is not till there is
a good deal of gray in his hair that they think his protestations at
all
worthy of attention. Young ladies take their notions of our sex
from the novels written by their own, and compared with the
monstrosities that
masquerade for men in the pages of that nightmare
literature, Pythagoras' plucked bird and Frankenstein's demon were
fair average specimens of humanity.
In these
so-called books, the chief lover, or Greek god, as he is
admiringly referred to--by the way, they do not say which "Greek god"
it is that the gentleman bears such a
strikinglikeness to; it might
be hump-backed Vulcan, or double-faced Janus, or even driveling
Silenus, the god of abstruse mysteries. He resembles the whole family
of them, however, in being a blackguard, and perhaps this is what is
meant. To even the little manliness his
classical prototypes
possessed, though, he can lay no claim
whatever, being a listless
effeminate noodle, on the shady side of forty. But oh! the depth and
strength of this
elderly party's
emotion for some bread-and-butter
school-girl! Hide your heads, ye young Romeos and Leanders! this
_blase_ old beau loves with an
hysterical fervor that requires four
adjectives to every noun to
properly describe.
It is well, dear ladies, for us old sinners that you study only books.
Did you read mankind, you would know that the lad's shy stammering
tells a truer tale than our bold
eloquence. A boy's love comes from a