all lives, that woman is ever woman . . . that in great decisive
moments woman does not reason but feels; that the last
sanctuary and
innermost pulse to conduct is in woman's heart and not in woman's
head.
Miriam misunderstood my silence, for her body moved
softly within my
arms as she added, as if in afterthought:
"Take two spare horses, Lodbrog. I shall ride the other . . . with
you . . . with you, away over the world,
wherever you may ride."
It was a bribe of kings; it was an act, paltry and contemptible,
that was demanded of me in return. Still I did not speak. It was
not that I was in
confusion or in any doubt. I was merely sad--
greatly and suddenly sad, in that I knew I held in my arms what I
would never hold again.
"There is but one man in Jerusalem this day who can save Him," she
urged, "and that man is you, Lodbrog."
Because I did not immediately reply she shook me, as if in impulse
to clarify wits she considered addled. She shook me till my
harnessrattled.
"Speak, Lodbrog, speak!" she commanded. "You are strong and
unafraid. You are all man. I know you
despise the vermin who would
destroy Him. You, you alone can save Him. You have but to say the
word and the thing is done; and I will well love you and always love
you for the thing you have done."
"I am a Roman," I said slowly,
knowing full well that with the words
I gave up all hope of her.
"You are a man-slave of Tiberius, a hound of Rome," she flamed, "but
you owe Rome nothing, for you are not a Roman. You yellow giants of
the north are not Romans."
"The Romans are the elder brothers of us younglings of the north," I
answered. "Also, I wear the
harness and I eat the bread of Rome."
Gently I added: "But why all this fuss and fury for a mere man's
life? All men must die. Simple and easy it is to die. To-day, or
a hundred years, it little matters. Sure we are, all of us, of the
same event in the end."
Quick she was, and alive with
passion to save as she thrilled within
my arms.
"You do not understand, Lodbrog. This is no mere man. I tell you
this is a man beyond men--a living God, not of men, but over men."
I held her closely and knew that I was renouncing all the sweet
woman of her as I said:
"We are man and woman, you and I. Our life is of this world. Of
these other worlds is all a
madness. Let these mad dreamers go the
way of their dreaming. Deny them not what they desire above all
things, above meat and wine, above song and battle, even above love
of woman. Deny them not their hearts' desires that draw them across
the dark of the grave to their dreams of lives beyond this world.
Let them pass. But you and I abide here in all the sweet we have
discovered of each other. Quickly enough will come the dark, and
you depart for your coasts of sun and flowers, and I for the roaring
table of Valhalla."
"No! no!" she cried, half-tearing herself away. "You do not
understand. All of
greatness, all of
goodness, all of God are in
this man who is more than man; and it is a
shameful death to die.
Only slaves and
thieves so die. He is neither slave nor thief. He
is an
immortal. He is God. Truly I tell you He is God."
"He is
immortal you say," I contended. "Then to die to-day on
Golgotha will not
shorten his
immortality by a hair's
breadth in the
span of time. He is a god you say. Gods cannot die. From all I
have been told of them, it is certain that gods cannot die."
"Oh!" she cried. "You will not understand. You are only a great
giant thing of flesh."
"Is it not said that this event was prophesied of old time?" I
queried, for I had been
learning from the Jews what I deemed their
subtleties of thinking.
"Yes, yes," she agreed, "the Messianic prophecies. This is the
Messiah."
"Then who am I," I asked, "to make liars of the prophets? to make of
the Messiah a false Messiah? Is the
prophecy of your people so
feeble a thing that I, a
stupid stranger, a yellow northling in the
Roman
harness, can give the lie to
prophecy and compel to be
unfulfilled--the very thing willed by the gods and
foretold by the
wise men?"
"You do not understand," she repeated.
"I understand too well," I replied. "Am I greater than the gods
that I may
thwart the will of the gods? Then are gods vain things
and the playthings of men. I am a man. I, too, bow to the gods, to