Then there was a great farming section, extending north and south
for hundreds of miles in some part of the
temperate regions, with a
climate and flora and fauna largely resembling those of California.
Not once, nor twice, but thousands of different times I journeyed
through this dream-region. The point I desire to call attention to
was that it was always the same region. No
essential feature of it
ever differed in the different dreams. Thus it was always an eight-
hour drive behind mountain horses from the
alfalfa meadows (where I
kept many Jersey cows) to the straggly village beside the big dry
creek, where I caught the little narrow-gauge train. Every land-
mark in that eight-hour drive in the mountain buckboard, every tree,
every mountain, every ford and
bridge, every ridge and eroded
hillside was ever the same.
In this coherent,
rational farm-region of my strait-
jacket dreams
the minor details, according to season and to the labour of men, did
change. Thus on the
upland pastures behind my
alfalfa meadows I
developed a new farm with the aid of Angora goats. Here I marked
the changes with every dream-visit, and the changes were in
accordance with the time that elapsed between visits.
Oh, those brush-covered slopes! How I can see them now just as when
the goats were first introduced. And how I remembered the
consequent changes--the paths
beginning to form as the goats
literally ate their way through the dense thickets; the
disappearance of the younger, smaller bushes that were not too tall
for total browsing; the vistas that formed in all directions through
the older, taller bushes, as the goats browsed as high as they could
stand and reach on their hind legs; the driftage of the pasture
grasses that followed in the wake of the
clearing by the goats.
Yes, the continuity of such dreaming was its charm. Came the day
when the men with axes chopped down all the taller brush so as to
give the goats
access to the leaves and buds and bark. Came the
day, in winter weather, when the dry denuded skeletons of all these
bushes were gathered into heaps and burned. Came the day when I
moved my goats on to other brush-impregnable hillsides, with
following in their wake my cattle, pasturing knee-deep in the
succulent grasses that grew where before had been only brush. And
came the day when I moved my cattle on, and my plough-men went back
and forth across the slopes' contour--ploughing the rich sod under
to rot to live and crawling humous in which to bed my seeds of crops
to be.
Yes, and in my dreams, often, I got off the little narrow-gauge
train where the straggly village stood beside the big dry creek, and
got into the buck-board behind my mountain horses, and drove hour by
hour past all the old familiar landmarks of my
alfalfa meadows, and
on to my
upland pastures where my rotated crops of corn and barley
and
clover were ripe for
harvesting and where I watched my men
engaged in the
harvest, while beyond, ever climbing, my goats
browsed the higher slopes of brush into cleared, tilled fields.
But these were dreams, frank dreams, fancied adventures of my
deductive subconscious mind. Quite
unlike them, as you shall see,
were my other adventures when I passed through the gates of the
living death and relived the
reality of the other lives that had
been mine in other days.
In the long hours of waking in the
jacket I found that I dwelt a
great deal on Cecil Winwood, the poet-forger who had wantonly put
all this
torment on me, and who was even then at liberty out in the
free world again. No; I did not hate him. The word is too weak.
There is no word in the language strong enough to describe my
feelings. I can say only that I knew the gnawing of a desire for
vengeance on him that was a pain in itself and that exceeded all the
bounds of language. I shall not tell you of the hours I
devoted to
plans of
torture on him, nor of the diabolical means and devices of
torture that I invented for him. Just one example. I was enamoured
of the ancient trick
whereby an iron basin, containing a rat, is
fastened to a man's body. The only way out for the rat is through
the man himself. As I say, I was enamoured of this until I realized
that such a death was too quick,
whereupon I dwelt long and
favourably on the Moorish trick of--but no, I promised to
relate no
further of this matter. Let it
suffice that many of my pain-
maddening waking hours were
devoted to dreams of
vengeance on Cecil
Winwood.
CHAPTER IX
One thing of great value I
learned in the long, pain-weary hours of
waking--namely, the
mastery of the body by the mind. I
learned to
suffer passively, as,
undoubtedly, all men have
learned who have
passed through the post-graduate courses of strait-
jacketing. Oh,