For want of exercising in nature's own way the activity bestowed upon
women, and yet impelled to spend it in some way or other, Mademoiselle
Gamard had acquired the habit of using it in petty intrigues,
provincial cabals, and those self-seeking schemes which occupy, sooner
or later, the lives of all old maids. Birotteau, unhappily, had
developed in Sophie Gamard the only
sentiments which it was possible
for that poor creature to feel,--those of
hatred; a
passion hitherto
latent under the
calmness and
monotony of
provincial life, but which
was now to become the more
intense because it was spent on petty
things and in the midst of a narrow
sphere. Birotteau was one of those
beings who are predestined to suffer because, being
unable to see
things, they cannot avoid them; to them the worst happens.
"Yes, it will be a fine day," replied the canon, after a pause,
apparently issuing from a revery and wishing to
conform to the rules
of politeness.
Birotteau, frightened at the length of time which had elapsed between
the question and the answer,--for he had, for the first time in his
life, taken his coffee without uttering a word,--now left the dining-
room where his heart was squeezed as if in a vise. Feeling that the
coffee lay heavy on his
stomach, he went to walk in a sad mood among
the narrow, box-edged garden paths which outlined a star in the little
garden. As he turned after making the first round, he saw Mademoiselle
Gamard and the Abbe Troubert
standing stock-still and silent on the
threshold of the door,--he with his arms folded and
motionless like a
statue on a tomb; she leaning against the blind door. Both seemed to
be gazing at him and counting his steps. Nothing is so embarrassing to
a creature naturally timid as to feel itself the object of a close
examination, and if that is made by the eyes of
hatred, the sort of
suffering it causes is changed into
intolerable martyrdom.
Presently Birotteau fancied he was preventing Mademoiselle Gamard and
the abbe from walking in the narrow path. That idea, inspired equally
by fear and kindness, became so strong that he left the garden and
went to the church, thinking no longer of his canonry, so absorbed was
he by the disheartening
tyranny of the old maid. Luckily for him he
happened to find much to do at Saint-Gatien,--several funerals, a
marriage, and two baptisms. Thus employed he forgot his griefs. When
his
stomach told him that dinner was ready he drew out his watch and
saw, not without alarm, that it was some minutes after four. Being
well aware of Mademoiselle Gamard's punctuality, he
hurried back to
the house.
He saw at once on passing the kitchen door that the first course had
been removed. When he reached the dining-room the old maid said, with
a tone of voice in which were mingled sour
rebuke and joy at being
able to blame him:--
"It is half-past four, Monsieur Birotteau. You know we are not to wait
for you."
The vicar looked at the clock in the dining-room, and saw at once, by
the way the gauze which protected it from dust had been moved, that
his
landlady had opened the face of the dial and set the hands in
advance of the clock of the
cathedral. He could make no remark. Had he
uttered his
suspicion it would only have caused and apparently
justified one of those
fierce and
eloquent expositions to which
Mademoiselle Gamard, like other women of her class, knew very well how
to give vent in particular cases. The thousand and one annoyances
which a servant will sometimes make her master bear, or a woman her
husband, were
instinctively divined by Mademoiselle Gamard and used
upon Birotteau. The way in which she
delighted in plotting against the
poor vicar's
domestic comfort bore all the marks of what we must call
a
profoundlymalignantgenius. Yet she so managed that she was never,
so far as eye could see, in the wrong.
III
Eight days after the date on which this history began, the new
arrangements of the household and the relations which grew up between
the Abbe Birotteau and Mademoiselle Gamard revealed to the former the
existence of a plot which had been hatching for the last six months.
As long as the old maid exercised her
vengeance in an underhand way,
and the vicar was able to shut his eyes to it and refuse to believe in
her malevolent
intentions, the moral effect upon him was slight. But
since the affair of the
candlestick and the altered clock, Birotteau
would doubt no longer that he was under an eye of
hatred turned fully
upon him. From that moment he fell into
despair,
seeing everywhere the
skinny, clawlike fingers of Mademoiselle Gamard ready to hook into his
heart. The old maid, happy in a
sentiment as
fruitful of emotions as
that of
vengeance, enjoyed circling and swooping above the vicar as a
bird of prey hovers and swoops above a field-mouse before pouncing
down upon it and devouring it. She had long since laid a plan which
the poor dumbfounded
priest was quite
incapable of imagining, and
which she now proceeded to
unfold with that
genius for little things
often shown by
solitary persons, whose souls,
incapable of feeling the
grandeur of true piety, fling themselves into the details of outward
devotion.
The petty nature of his troubles prevented Birotteau, always effusive
and
liking to be pitied and consoled, from enjoying the soothing
pleasure of
taking his friends into his confidence,--a last but cruel
aggravation of his
misery. The little
amount of tact which he derived
from his timidity made him fear to seem
ridiculous in concerning
himself with such pettiness. And yet those petty things made up the
sum of his
existence,--that cherished
existence, full of busyness
about nothings, and of nothingness in its business; a colorless barren
life in which strong feelings were misfortunes, and the
absence of
emotion happiness. The poor
priest's
paradise was changed, in a
moment, into hell. His sufferings became
intolerable. The
terror he
felt at the
prospect of a
discussion with Mademoiselle Gamard
increased day by day; the secret
distress which blighted his life
began to
injure his health. One morning, as he put on his mottled blue
stockings, he noticed a marked dimunition in the
circumference of his
calves. Horrified by so cruel and undeniable a
symptom, he
resolved to
make an effort and
appeal to the Abbe Troubert, requesting him to
intervene,
officially, between Mademoiselle Gamard and himself.
When he found himself in presence of the
imposing canon, who, in order
to receive his
visitor in a bare and cheerless room, had hastily
quitted a study full of papers, where he worked
incessantly, and where
no one was ever admitted, the vicar felt half
ashamed at
speaking of
Mademoiselle Gamard's provocations to a man who appeared to be so
gravely occupied. But after going through the agony of the mental
deliberations which all
humble, un
decided, and
feeble persons endure
about things of even no importance, he
decided, not without much
swelling and
beating of the heart, to explain his position to the Abbe
Troubert.
The canon listened in a cold, grave manner,
trying, but in vain, to
repress an
occasional smile which to more
intelligent eyes than those
of the vicar might have betrayed the emotions of a secret
satisfaction. A flame seemed to dart from his eyelids when Birotteau
pictured with the
eloquence of
genuine feeling the
constant bitterness
he was made to
swallow; but Troubert laid his hand above those lids
with a
gesture very common to thinkers, maintaining the dignified
demeanor which was usual with him. When the vicar had ceased to speak
he would indeed have been puzzled had he sought on Troubert's face,
marbled with yellow blotches even more yellow than his usually bilious
skin, for any trace of the feelings he must have excited in that
mysterious
priest.
After a moment's silence the canon made one of those answers which
required long study before their meaning could be thoroughly
perceived, though later they proved to reflecting persons the
astonishing depths of his spirit and the power of his mind. He simply
crushed Birotteau by telling him that "these things amazed him all the
more because he should never have suspected their
existence were it
not for his brother's
confession. He attributed such stupidity on his
part to the
gravity of his occupations, his labors, the
absorption in
which his mind was held by certain elevated thoughts which prevented
his
taking due notice of the petty details of life." He made the vicar
observe, but without appearing to
censure the conduct of a man whose
age and connections deserved all respect, that "in former days,
recluses thought little about their food and
lodging in the solitude
of their
retreats, where they were lost in holy contemplations," and
that "in our days,
priests could make a
retreat for themselves in the
solitude of their own hearts." Then, reverting to Birotteau's affairs,
he added that "such dis
agreements were a
novelty to him. For twelve