must take her my last look; you must tell her that you were the last
man whose hand I pressed. Oh, she'll love you, the poor woman! you, my
last friend. Here," he said, after a moment's silence, during which he
was
overcome by the weight of his recollections, "all, officers and
soldiers, are unknown to me; I am an object of
horror to them. If it
were not for you my
innocence would be a secret between God and
myself."
I swore to sacredly
fulfil his last wishes. My words, the
emotion I
showed touched him. Soon after that the soldiers came to take him
again before the council of war. He was condemned to death. I am
ignorant of the formalities that followed or accompanied this
judgment, nor do I know whether the young
surgeon defended his life or
not; but he expected to be executed on the following day, and he spent
the night in
writing to his mother.
"We shall both be free to-day," he said, smiling, when I went to see
him the next morning. "I am told that the general has signed your
pardon."
I was silent, and looked at him closely so as to carve his features,
as it were, on my memory. Presently an expression of
disgust crossed
his face.
"I have been very
cowardly," he said. "During all last night I begged
for mercy of these walls," and he
pointed to the sides of his dungeon.
"Yes, yes, I howled with
despair, I rebelled, I suffered the most
awful moral agony--I was alone! Now I think of what others will say of
me. Courage is a
garment to put on. I desire to go decently to death,
therefore--"
A DOUBLE RETRIBUTION
"Oh, stop! stop!" cried the young lady who had asked for this history,
interrupting the narrator suddenly. "Say no more; let me remain in
uncertainty and believe that he was saved. If I hear now that he was
shot I shall not sleep all night. To-morrow you shall tell me the
rest."
We rose from table. My neighbor in accepting Monsieur Hermann's arm,
said to him--
"I suppose he was shot, was he not?"
"Yes. I was present at the execution."
"Oh!
monsieur," she said, "how could you--"
"He desired it, madame. There was something really
dreadful in
following the
funeral of a living man, a man my heart cared for, an
innocent man! The poor young fellow never ceased to look at me. He
seemed to live only in me. He wanted, he said, that I should carry to
his mother his last sigh."
"And did you?"
"At the peace of Amiens I went to France, for the purpose of
taking to
the mother those
blessed words, 'He was innocent.' I religiously
undertook that
pilgrimage. But Madame Magnan had died of consumption.
It was not without deep
emotion that I burned the letter of which I
was the
bearer. You will perhaps smile at my German
imagination, but I
see a drama of sad sublimity in the
eternalsecrecy which engulfed
those
parting words cast between two graves, unknown to all creation,
like the cry uttered in a desert by some
lonely traveller whom a lion
seizes."
"And if," I said, interrupting him, "you were brought face to face
with a man now in this room, and were told, 'This is the
murderer!'
would not that be another drama? And what would you do?"
Monsieur Hermann looked for his hat and went away.
"You are behaving like a young man, and very heedlessly," said my
neighbor. "Look at Taillefer!--there, seated on that sofa at the
corner of the
fireplace. Mademoiselle Fanny is
offering him a cup of
coffee. He smiles. Would a
murderer to whom that tale must have been
torture, present so calm a face? Isn't his whole air patriarchal?"
"Yes; but go and ask him if he went to the war in Germany," I said.
"Why not?"
And with that
audacity which is seldom
lacking to women when some
action attracts them, or their minds are impelled by
curiosity, my
neighbor went up to the purveyor.
"Were you ever in Germany?" she asked.
Taillefer came near dropping his cup and saucer.
"I, madame? No, never."
"What are you talking about, Taillefer"; said our host, interrupting
him. "Were you not in the commissariat during the
campaign of Wagram?"
"Ah, true!" replied Taillefer, "I was there at that time."
"You are mistaken," said my neighbor, returning to my side; "that's a
good man."
"Well," I cried, "before the end of this evening, I will hunt that
murderer out of the slough in which he is hiding."
Every day, before our eyes, a moral
phenomenon of
amazing profundity
takes place which is,
nevertheless, so simple as never to be noticed.
If two men meet in a salon, one of whom has the right to hate or
despise the other, whether from a knowledge of some private and latent
fact which degrades him, or of a secret condition, or even of a coming
revenge, those two men
divine each other's souls, and are able to
measure the gulf which separates or ought to separate them. They
observe each other
unconsciously; their minds are
preoccupied by
themselves; through their looks, their gestures, an indefinable
emanation of their thought transpires; there's a
magnet between them.
I don't know which has the strongest power of
attraction,
vengeance or
crime,
hatred or
insult. Like a
priest who cannot
consecrate the host
in presence of an evil spirit, each is ill at ease and distrustful;
one is
polite, the other surly, but I know not which; one colors or
turns pale, the other trembles. Often the avenger is as
cowardly as
the
victim. Few men have the courage to
invoke an evil, even when just
or necessary, and men are silent or
forgive a wrong from
hatred of
uproar or fear of some
tragic ending.
This introsusception of our souls and our sentiments created a
mysterious struggle between Taillefer and myself. Since the first
inquiry I had put to him during Monsieur Hermann's
narrative, he had
steadily avoided my eye. Possibly he avoided those of all the other
guests. He talked with the
youthful,
inexperienced daughter of the
banker, feeling, no doubt, like many other criminals, a need of
drawing near to
innocence, hoping to find rest there. But, though I
was a long distance from him, I heard him, and my
piercing eye
fascinated his. When he thought he could watch me
unobserved our eyes
met, and his eyelids dropped immediately.
Weary of this
torture, Taillefer seemed determined to put an end to it
by sitting down at a card-table. I at once went to bet on his
adversary; hoping to lose my money. The wish was granted; the player
left the table and I took his place, face to face with the
murderer.
"Monsieur," I said, while he dealt the cards, "may I ask if you are
Monsieur Frederic Taillefer, whose family I know very well at
Beauvais?"
"Yes,
monsieur," he answered.
He dropped the cards, turned pale, put his hands to his head and rose,
asking one of the bettors to take his hand.
"It is too hot here," he cried; "I fear--"
He did not end the
sentence. His face expressed
intolerablesuffering,
and he went out
hastily. The master of the house followed him and
seemed to take an
anxious interest in his condition. My neighbor and I
looked at each other, but I saw a tinge of bitter
sadness or reproach
upon her countenance.
"Do you think your conduct is merciful?" she asked,
drawing me to the
embrasure of a window just as I was leaving the card-table, having
lost all my money. "Would you accept the power of
reading hearts? Why
not leave things to human justice or
divine justice? We may escape one
but we cannot escape the other. Do you think the
privilege of a judge
of the court of assizes so much to be envied? You have almost done the
work of an executioner."
"After sharing and stimulating my
curiosity, why are you now lecturing
me on morality?"
"You have made me reflect," she answered.
"So, then, peace to villains, war to the
sorrowful, and let's deify
gold! However, we will drop the subject," I added, laughing. "Do you
see that young girl who is just entering the salon?"