"I have met him somewhere," mused the Colonel, "I'll swear I've met
him somewhere. I wish to
goodness he would go."
A hundred things a day the Colonel wanted to say to Mrs. Devine, a
hundred things a day Mrs. Devine would have liked to observe to the
Colonel. But by the time the opportunity occurred--when nobody else
was by to hear--all interest in
saying them was gone.
"Women will be women," was the
sentiment with which the Colonel
consoled himself. "A man must bear with them--must never forget that
he is a gentleman."
"Oh, well, I suppose they're all alike," laughed Mrs. Devine to
herself, having arrived at that stage of
despair when one seeks refuge
in
cheerfulness. "What's the use of putting oneself out--it does no
good, and only upsets one." There is a certain
satisfaction in
feeling you are
bearing with
heroicresignation the irritating follies
of others. Colonel and Mrs. Devine came to enjoy the
luxury of much
self-approbation.
But the person
seriously annoyed by the stranger's bigoted
belief in
the innate
goodness of
everyone he came across was the languid,
handsome Miss Devine. The stranger would have it that Miss Devine was
a noble-souled, high-minded young woman, something
midway between a
Flora Macdonald and a Joan of Arc. Miss Devine, on the
contrary, knew
herself to be a sleek,
luxury-loving animal, quite
willing to sell
herself to the bidder who could offer her the finest clothes, the
richest foods, the most
sumptuous surroundings. Such a bidder was to
hand in the person of a
retiredbookmaker, a somewhat
greasy old
gentleman, but
exceedingly rich and
undoubtedly fond of her.
Miss Devine, having made up her mind that the thing had got to be
done, was
anxious that it should be done quickly. And here it was
that the stranger's
ridiculous opinion of her not only irritated but
inconvenienced her. Under the very eyes of a person--however
foolish--convinced that you are possessed of all the highest
attributes of your sex, it is difficult to
behave as though actuated
by only the basest motives. A dozen times had Miss Devine determined
to end the matter by
formalacceptance of her
elderly admirer's large
and flabby hand, and a dozen times--the
vision intervening of the
stranger's grave, believing eyes--had Miss Devine refused decided
answer. The stranger would one day depart. Indeed, he had told her
himself, he was but a passing traveller. When he was gone it would be
easier. So she thought at the time.
One afternoon the stranger entered the room where she was
standing by
the window, looking out upon the bare branches of the trees in
Bloomsbury Square. She remembered afterwards, it was just such
another foggy afternoon as the afternoon of the stranger's arrival
three months before. No one else was in the room. The stranger
closed the door, and came towards her with that curious, quick-leaping
step of his. His long coat was
tightly buttoned, and in his hands he
carried his old felt hat and the
massive knotted stick that was almost
a staff.
"I have come to say good-bye," explained the stranger. "I am going."
"I shall not see you again?" asked the girl.
"I cannot say," replied the stranger. "But you will think of me?"
"Yes," she answered with a smile, "I can promise that."
"And I shall always remember you," promised the stranger, "and I wish
you every joy--the joy of love, the joy of a happy marriage."
The girl winced. "Love and marriage are not always the same thing,"
she said.
"Not always," agreed the stranger, "but in your case they will be
one."
She looked at him.
"Do you think I have not noticed?" smiled the stranger, "a gallant,
handsome lad, and clever. You love him and he loves you. I could not
have gone away without
knowing it was well with you."
Her gaze wandered towards the fading light.
"Ah, yes, I love him," she answered petulantly. "Your eyes can see
clearly enough, when they want to. But one does not live on love, in
our world. I will tell you the man I am going to marry if you care to
know." She would not meet his eyes. She kept her gaze still fixed
upon the dingy trees, the mist beyond, and spoke rapidly and
vehemently: "The man who can give me all my soul's desire--money and
the things that money can buy. You think me a woman, I'm only a pig.
He is moist, and breathes like a porpoise; with
cunning in place of a
brain, and the rest of him mere
stomach. But he is good enough for
me."
She hoped this would shock the stranger and that now, perhaps, he
would go. It irritated her to hear him only laugh.
"No," he said, "you will not marry him."
"Who will stop me?" she cried angrily.
"Your Better Self."
His voice had a strange ring of authority, compelling her to turn and
look upon his face. Yes, it was true, the fancy that from the very
first had
haunted her. She had met him, talked to him--in silent
country roads, in
crowded city streets, where was it? And always in
talking with him her spirit had been lifted up: she had been--what he
had always thought her.
"There are those," continued the stranger (and for the first time she
saw that he was of a noble presence, that his gentle, child-like eyes
could also command), "whose Better Self lies slain by their own hand
and troubles them no more. But yours, my child, you have let grow too
strong; it will ever be your master. You must obey. Flee from it and
it will follow you; you cannot escape it. Insult it and it will
chastise you with burning shame, with stinging self-reproach from day
to day." The sternness faded from the beautiful face, the tenderness
crept back. He laid his hand upon the young girl's shoulder. "You
will marry your lover," he smiled. "With him you will walk the way of
sunlight and of shadow."
And the girl, looking up into the strong, calm face, knew that it
would be so, that the power of resisting her Better Self had passed
away from her for ever.
"Now," said the stranger, "come to the door with me. Leave-takings
are but wasted
sadness. Let me pass out quietly. Close the door
softly behind me."
She thought that perhaps he would turn his face again, but she saw no
more of him than the odd roundness of his back under the
tightlybuttoned coat, before he faded into the
gathering fog.
Then
softly she closed the door.
End