And stood, the centre of a
clearing, hemmed
By hurdle-yards, and ancients of the blacks;
These moped about their lazy fires, and sang
Wild ditties of the old days, with a sound
Of sorrow, like an
everlasting wind,
Which mingled with the echoes of the noon,
And moaned
amongst the noises of the night.
From
thence a cattle track, with link to link,
Ran off against the fish-pools, to the gap
Which sets you face to face with gleaming miles
Of broad Orara, winding in
amongstBlack,
barren ridges, where the
nether spurs
Are fenced about by cotton scrub, and grass
Blue-bitten with the salt of many droughts.
'Twas here the
shepherd housed him every night,
And faced the
prospect like a patient soul;
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Borne up by some vague hope of better days,
And God's fine
blessing in his
faithful wife,
Until the
humour of his malady
Took
cunning changes from the good to bad,
And laid him
lastly on a bed of death.
Two months
thereafter, when the summer heat
Had roused the
serpent from his
rotten lair,
And made a noise of locusts in the boughs,
It came to this, that as the blood-red sun
Of one
fierce day of many slanted down
Obliquely past the
nether jags of peaks
And gulfs of mist, the tardy night came vexed
By belted clouds, and scuds that wheeled and whirled
To left and right about the
brazen clifts
Of ridges, rigid with a leaden gloom.
Then took the cattle to the forest camps
With
vacantterror, and the hustled sheep
Stood dumb against the hurdles, even like
A fallen patch of shadowed mountain snow;
And ever through the curlew's call afar
The storm grew on, while round the stinted slabs
Sharp snaps and hisses came, and went, and came,
The huddled tokens of a
mighty blast
Which ran with an
exceeding bitter cry
Across the tumbled fragments of the hills,
And through the sluices of the gorge and glen.
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So,
therefore, all about the
shepherd's hut
That space was mute, save when the fastened dog,
Without a
kennel, caught a passing glimpse
Of firelight moving through the lighted chinks;
For then he knew the hints of
warmth within,
And stood and set his great
pathetic eyes,
In wind and wet, imploring to be loosed.
Not often now the watcher left the couch
Of him she watched; since in his fitful sleep
His lips would stir to
wayward themes, and close
With bodeful catches. Once she moved away,
Half-deafened by
terrific claps, and stooped,
And looked without; to see a
pillar dim
Of gathered gusts and fiery rain.
Anon
The sick man woke, and, startled by the noise,
Stared round the room, with dull delirious sight,
At this wild thing and that; for through his eyes
The place took
fearful shapes, and fever showed
Strange crosswise lights about his pillow-head.
He, catching there at some phantasmic help,
Sat
upright on the bolster with a cry
Of ``Where is Jesus? It is bitter cold!''
And then, because the thundercalls outside
Were mixed for him with slanders of the Past,
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He called his
weeping wife by name, and said,
``Come closer, darling! We shall speed away
Across the seas, and seek some mountain home,
Shut in from liars, and the
wicked words
That track us day and night and night and day.''
So waned the sad
refrain. And those poor lips,
Whose latest phrases were for peace, grew mute,
And into
everlasting silence passed.
As fares a
swimmer who hath lost his breath
In 'wildering seas afar from any help -
Who, fronting Death, can never realise
The
dreadful Presence, but is prone to clutch
At every weed upon the weltering wave;
So fared the watcher, poring o'er the last
Of him she loved, with dazed and
stupid stare;
Half
conscious of the sudden loss and lack
Of all that bound her life, but yet without
The power to take her
mighty sorrow in.
Then came a patch or two of
starry sky;
And through a reef of cloven thunder-cloud
The soft moon looked: a patient face beyond
The
fierceimpatient shadows of the slopes,
And the harsh voices of the broken hills!
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A patient face, and one which came and wrought
A lovely silence, like a silver mist,
Across the rainy relics of the storm.
For in the breaks and pauses of her light
The gale died out in gusts: yet,
evermoreAbout the roof-tree on the dripping eaves,
The damp wind loitered; and a fitful drift
Sloped through the silent curtains, and athwart
The dead.
There, when the glare had dropped behind
A
mighty ridge of gloom, the woman turned
And sat in darkness, face to face with God,
And said, ``I know,'' she said, ``that Thou art wise;
That when we build and hope, and hope and build,
And see our best things fall, it comes to pass
For
evermore that we must turn to Thee!
And
therefore, now, because I cannot find
The faintest token of Divinity
In this my latest sorrow, let Thy light
Inform mine eyes, so I may learn to look
On something past the sight which shuts, and blinds
And seems to drive me
wholly, Lord, from Thee.''
Now waned the moon beyond complaining depths;
And as the dawn looked forth from showery woods
(Whereon had dropped a hint of red and gold),
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There went about the
crooked cavern-eaves
Low flute-like echoes, with a noise of wings,
And waters flying down far-hidden fells.
Then might be seen the
solitary owl,
Perched in the clefts, scared at the coming light,
And staring
outward (like a sea-shelled thing
Chased to his cover by some bright,
fierce foe),
As at a
monster in the middle waste.
At last the great kingfisher came, and called
Across the hollows, loud with early whips,
And lighted, laughing, on the
shepherd's hut,
And roused the widow from a swoon like death.
This day, and after it was noised abroad,
By blacks, and straggling horsemen on the roads,
That he was dead ``who had been sick so long'',
There flocked a troop from far-surrounding runs,
To see their neighbour, and to bury him.
And men who had forgotten how to cry
(Rough, flinty fellows of the native bush)
Now
learned the bitter way, beholding there
The wasted shadow of an iron frame
Brought down so low by years of
fearful pain,
And marking, too, the woman's gentle face,
And all the pathos in her moaned reply
Of ``Masters, we have lived in better days.''
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One stooped - a stockman from the nearer hills -
To loose his wallet-strings, from
whence he took
A bag of tea, and laid it on her lap;
Then sobbing, ``God will help you,
missus, yet,''
He sought his horse, with most bewildered eyes,
And, spurring
swiftly, galloped down the glen.
Where black Orara
nightly chafes his brink,
Midway between lamenting lines of oak
And Warra's Gap, the
shepherd's grave was built.
And there the wild dog pauses, in the midst
Of moonless watches, howling through the gloom
At
hopeless shadows flitting to and fro,
What time the East Wind hums his darkest hymn,
And rains beat heavy on the ruined leaf.
There, while the Autumn in the cedar trees
Sat cooped about by cloudy evergreens,
The widow sojourned on the silent road,
And mutely faced the
barren mound, and plucked
A straggling shrub from
thence, and passed away,
Heart-broken on to Sydney, where she took
Her passage in an English
vessel bound
To London, for her home of other years.
At rest! Not near, with Sorrow on his grave,
And roses quickened into beauty - wrapt
In all the pathos of
perennial bloom;
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But far from these, beneath the
fretful clay
Of lands within the lone
perpetual cry
Of
hermit plovers and the night-like oaks,
All moaning for the peace which never comes.
At rest! And she who sits and waits behind
Is in the shadows; but her faith is sure,
And one fine promise of the coming days
Is breaking, like a
blessed morning, far
On hills that ``slope through darkness up to God.''
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A SPANISH LOVE SONG
FROM Andalusian gardens
I bring the rose and rue,
And leaves of subtle odour,
To weave a gift for you.
You'll know the reason wherefore
The sad is with the sweet!
My flowers may lie, as I would,
A
carpet for your feet.
The heart - the heart is constant!
It holds its secret, Dear!
But often in the night time
I keep awake for fear.
I have no hope to whisper,
I have no prayer to send,
God save you from such passion!
God help you from such end!
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You first, you last, you false love!