careful choice of language betokens, far more often than not, a
corresponding
delicacy of mind. Landor saw it as a
ridiculous trait
that English people were so mealy-mouthed in
speaking of their
bodies; De Quincey,
taking him to task for this remark, declared it
a proof of blunted sensibility due to long
residence in Italy; and,
whether the particular
explanation held good or not, as regards the
question at issue, De Quincey was
perfectly right. It is very good
to be mealy-mouthed with respect to everything that reminds us of
the animal in man. Verbal
delicacy in itself will not prove an
advanced
civilization, but
civilization, as it advances, assuredly
tends that way.
XXIII
All through the morning, the air was held in an
ominous stillness.
Sitting over my books, I seemed to feel the silence; when I turned
my look to the window, I saw nothing but the broad, grey sky, a
featureless
expanse, cold,
melancholy. Later, just as I was
bestirring myself to go out for an afternoon walk, something white
fell
softly across my
vision. A few minutes more, and all was
hidden with a descending veil of silent snow.
It is a
disappointment. Yesterday I half believed that the winter
drew to its end; the
breath of the hills was soft; spaces of limpid
azure shone amid slow-drifting clouds, and seemed the promise of
spring. Idle by the
fireside, in the
gathering dusk, I began to
long for the days of light and
warmth. My fancy wandered, leading
me far and wide in a dream of summer England. . . .
This is the
valley of the Blythe. The
stream ripples and glances
over its brown bed warmed with sunbeams; by its bank the green flags
wave and
rustle, and, all about, the meadows shine in pure gold of
buttercups. The
hawthorn hedges are a mass of gleaming blossom,
which scents the
breeze. There above rises the heath, yellow-
mantled with gorse, and beyond, if I walk for an hour or two, I
shall come out upon the sandy cliffs of Suffolk, and look over the
northern sea. . . .
I am in Wensleydale, climbing from the rocky river that leaps amid
broad
pastures up to the rolling moor. Up and up, till my feet
brush through
heather, and the
grouse whirrs away before me. Under
a glowing sky of summer, this air of the uplands has still a life
which spurs to
movement, which makes the heart bound. The dale is
hidden; I see only the brown and
purplewilderness, cutting against
the blue with great round shoulders, and, far away to the west, an
horizon of sombre heights. . . .
I
ramble through a village in Gloucestershire, a village which seems
forsaken in this
drowsywarmth of the afternoon. The houses of grey
stone are old and beautiful, telling of a time when Englishmen knew
how to build whether for rich or poor; the gardens glow with
flowers, and the air is
delicately sweet. At the village end, I
come into a lane, which winds
upwards between
grassy slopes, to turf
and bracken and woods of noble beech. Here I am upon a spur of the
Cotswolds, and before me spreads the wide vale of Evesham, with its
ripening crops, its fruiting orchards, watered by
sacred Avon.
Beyond,
softly blue, the hills of Malvern. On the branch hard by
warbles a little bird, glad in his leafy
solitude. A
rabbit jumps
through the fern. There sounds the laugh of a
woodpecker from the
copse in yonder hollow. . . .
In the falling of a summer night, I walk by Ullswater. The sky is
still warm with the afterglow of
sunset, a dusky
crimson smouldering
above the dark mountain line. Below me spreads a long reach of the
lake, steel-grey between its dim
colourless shores. In the profound
stillness, the trotting of a horse beyond the water sounds strangely
near; it serves only to make more
sensible the
repose of Nature in
this her
sanctuary. I feel a
solitude unutterable, yet nothing akin
to
desolation; the heart of the land I love seems to beat in the
silent night
gathering around me; amid things
eternal, I touch the
familiar and the kindly earth. Moving, I step
softly, as though my
footfall were an irreverence. A turn in the road, and there is
wafted to me a faint
perfume, that of meadow-sweet. Then I see a
light glimmering in the
farmhouse window--a little ray against the
blackness of the great
hillside, below which the water sleeps. . . .
A
pathway leads me by the winding of the river Ouse. Far on every
side stretches a
homelylandscape, tilth and
pasture, hedgerow and
clustered trees, to where the sky rests upon the gentle hills.
Slow, silent, the river lapses between its daisied banks, its grey-
green osier beds. Yonder is the little town of St. Neots. In all
England no simpler bit of rural
scenery; in all the world nothing of
its kind more beautiful. Cattle are lowing amid the rich meadows.
Here one may
loiter and dream in utter restfulness,
whilst the great
white clouds mirror themselves in the water as they pass above. . .
.
I am walking upon the South Downs. In the
valleys, the sun lies
hot, but here sings a
breeze which freshens the
forehead and fills
the heart with
gladness. My foot upon the short, soft turf has an
unwearied lightness; I feel
capable of walking on and on, even to
that
farthesthorizon where the white cloud casts its floating
shadow. Below me, but far off, is the summer sea, still, silent,
its ever-changing blue and green dimmed at the long limit with
luminous
noontide mist. Inland spreads the undulant vastness of the
sheep-spotted downs, beyond them the tillage and the woods of Sussex
weald, coloured like to the pure sky above them, but in deeper tint.
Near by, all but
hidden among trees in yon lovely hollow, lies an
old, old
hamlet, its brown roofs decked with golden
lichen; I see
the low church-tower, and the little graveyard about it. Meanwhile,
high in the heaven, a lark is singing. It descends; it drops to its
nest, and I could dream that half the happiness of its exultant song
was love of England. . . .
It is all but dark. For a quarter of an hour I must have been
writing by a glow of firelight reflected on to my desk; it seemed to
me the sun of summer. Snow is still falling. I see its ghostly
glimmer against the vanishing sky. To-
morrow it will be thick upon
my garden, and
perchance for several days. But when it melts, when
it melts, it will leave the snowdrop. The crocus, too, is
waiting,
down there under the white
mantle which warms the earth.
XXIV
Time is money--says the vulgarest saw known to any age or people.
Turn it round about, and you get a precious truth--money is time. I
think of it on these dark, mist-blinded mornings, as I come down to
find a
glorious fire crackling and leaping in my study. Suppose I
were so poor that I could not afford that heartsome blaze, how
different the whole day would be! Have I not lost many and many a
day of my life for lack of the material comfort which was necessary
to put my mind in tune? Money is time. With money I buy for
cheerful use the hours which
otherwise would not in any sense be
mine; nay, which would make me their
miserable bondsman. Money is
time, and, heaven be thanked, there needs so little of it for this
sort of purchase. He who has overmuch is wont to be as badly off in
regard to the true use of money, as he who has not enough. What are
we doing all our lives but purchasing, or
trying to purchase, time?
And most of us, having grasped it with one hand, throw it away with
the other.
XXV
The dark days are
drawing to an end. Soon it will be spring once
more; I shall go out into the fields, and shake away these thoughts
of
discouragement and fear which have
lately too much
haunted my
fireside. For me, it is a
virtue to be self-centred; I am much
better employed, from every point of view, when I live
solely for my
own
satisfaction, than when I begin to worry about the world. The
world frightens me, and a frightened man is no good for anything. I
know only one way in which I could have played a meritorious part as
an active citizen--by becoming a
schoolmaster in some little country
town, and teaching half a dozen teachable boys to love study for its
own sake. That I could have done, I daresay. Yet, no; for I must
have had as a young man the same mind that I have in age,
devoid of
idle ambitions,
undisturbed by unattainable ideals. Living as I do
now, I
deserve better of my country than at any time in my working
life; better, I
suspect, than most of those who are praised for busy
patriotism.
Not that I regard my life as an example for any one else; all I say
is, that it is good for me, and in so far an
advantage to the world.
To live in quiet content is surely a piece of good
citizenship. If
you can do more, do it, and God-speed! I know myself for an
exception. And I ever find it a good antidote to
gloomy thoughts to
bring before my
imagination the lives of men, utterly
unlike me in
their minds and circumstances, who give themselves with glad and
hopefulenergy to the plain duties that lie before them. However