to let down my window-blind. The consequence was, that when the
moon, which was full and bright (for the night was fine), came in
her course to that space in the sky opposite my casement, and looked
in at me through the unveiled panes, her glorious gaze roused me.
Awaking in the dead of night, I opened my eyes on her disk-
silver-white and crystal clear. It was beautiful, but too solemn: I
half rose, and stretched my arm to draw the curtain.
Good God! What a cry!
The night- its silence- its rest, was rent in twain by a savage,
a sharp, a shrilly sound that ran from end to end of Thornfield Hall.
My pulse stopped: my heart stood still; my stretched arm was
paralysed. The cry died, and was not renewed. Indeed, whatever being
uttered that fearful shriek could not soon repeat it: not the
widest-winged condor on the Andes could, twice in succession, send out
such a yell from the cloud shrouding his eyrie. The thing delivering
such utterance must rest ere it could repeat the effort.
It came out of the third storey; for it passed overhead. And
overhead- yes, in the room just above my chamber-ceiling- I now
heard a struggle: a deadly one it seemed from the noise; and a
half-smothered voice shouted-
'Help! help! help!' three times rapidly.
'Will no one come?' it cried; and then, while the staggering and
stamping went on wildly, I distinguished through plank and plaster:-
'Rochester! Rochester! for God's sake, come!'
A chamber-door opened: some one ran, or rushed, along the
gallery. Another step stamped on the flooring above and something
fell; and there was silence.
I had put on some clothes, though horror shook all my limbs; I
issued from my apartment. The sleepers were all aroused: ejaculations,
terrified murmurs sounded in every room; door after door unclosed; one
looked out and another looked out; the gallery filled. Gentlemen and
ladies alike had quitted their beds; and 'Oh! what is it?'- 'Who is
hurt?'- 'What has happened?'- 'Fetch a light!'- 'Is it fire?'- 'Are
there robbers?'- 'Where shall we run?' was demanded confusedly on
all hands. But for the moon-light they would have been in complete
darkness. They ran to and fro; they crowded together: some sobbed,
some stumbled: the confusion was inextricable.
'Where the devil is Rochester?' cried Colonel Dent. 'I cannot
find him in his bed.'
'Here! here!' was shouted in return. 'Be composed, all of you:
I'm coming.'
And the door at the end of the gallery opened, and Mr. Rochester
advanced with a candle: he had just descended from the upper storey.
One of the ladies ran to him directly; she seized his arm: it was Miss
Ingram.
'What awful event has taken place?' said she. 'Speak! let us know
the worst at once!'
'But don't pull me down or strangle me,' he replied: for the Misses
Eshton were clinging about him now; and the two dowagers, in vast
white wrappers, were bearing down on him like ships in full sail.
'All's right!- all's right!' he cried. 'It's a mere rehearsal of
Much Ado about Nothing. Ladies, keep off, or I shall wax dangerous.'
And dangerous he looked: his black eyes darted sparks. Calming
himself by an effort, he added-
'A servant has had the nightmare; that is all. She's an
excitable, nervous person: she construed her dream into an apparition,
or something of that sort, no doubt; and has taken a fit with
fright. Now, then, I must see you all back into your rooms; for,
till the house is settled, she cannot be looked after. Gentlemen, have
the goodness to set the ladies the example. Miss Ingram, I am sure you
will not fail in evincing superiority to idle terrors. Amy and Louisa,
return to your nests like a pair of doves, as you are. Mesdames' (to
the dowagers), 'you will take cold to a dead certainty, if you stay in
this chill gallery any longer.'
And so, by dint of alternate coaxing and commanding, he contrived
to get them all once more enclosed in their separate dormitories. I
did not wait to be ordered back to mine, but retreated unnoticed, as
unnoticed I had left it.
Not, however, to go to bed: on the contrary, I began and dressed
myself carefully. The sounds I had heard after the scream, and the
words that had been uttered, had probably been heard only by me; for
they had proceeded from the room above mine: but they assured me
that it was not a servant's dream which had thus struck horror through
the house; and that the explanation Mr. Rochester had given was merely
an invention framed to pacify his guests. I dressed, then, to be ready
for emergencies. When dressed, I sat a long time by the window looking
out over the silent grounds and silvered fields and waiting for I knew
not what. It seemed to me that some event must follow the strange cry,
struggle, and call.
No: stillness returned: each murmur and movement ceased
gradually, and in about an hour Thornfield Hall was again as hushed as
a desert. It seemed that sleep and night had resumed their empire.
Meantime the moon declined: she was about to set. Not liking to sit in
the cold and darkness, I thought I would lie down on my bed, dressed
as I was. I left the window, and moved with little noise across the
carpet; as I stooped to take off my shoes, a cautious hand tapped
low at the door.
'Am I wanted?' I asked.
'Are you up?' asked the voice I expected to hear, viz., my
master's.
'Yes, sir.'
'And dressed?'
'Yes.'
'Come out, then, quietly.'
I obeyed. Mr. Rochester stood in the gallery holding a light.
'I want you,' he said: 'come this way: take your time, and make
no noise.'
My slippers were thin: I could walk the matted floor as softly as a
cat. He glided up the gallery and up the stairs, and stopped in the
dark, low corridor of the fateful third storey: I had followed and
stood at his side.
'Have you a sponge in your room?' he asked in a whisper.
'Yes, sir.'
'Have you any salts- volatile salts?'
'Yes.'
'Go back and fetch both.'
I returned, sought the sponge on the washstand, the salts in my
drawer, and once more retraced my steps. He still waited; he held a
key in his hand: approaching one of the small, black doors, he put
it in the lock; he paused, and addressed me again.
'You don't turn sick at the sight of blood?'
'I think I shall not: I have never been tried yet.'
I felt a thrill while I answered him; but no coldness, and no
faintness.
'Just give me your hand,' he said: 'it will not do to risk a
fainting fit.'
I put my fingers into his. 'Warm and steady,' was his remark: he
turned the key and opened the door.
I saw a room I remembered to have seen before, the day Mrs. Fairfax
showed me over the house: it was hung with tapestry; but the
tapestry was now looped up in one part, and there was a door apparent,
which had then been concealed. This door was open; a light shone out
of the room within: I heard thence a snarling, snatching sound, almost
like a dog quarrelling. Mr. Rochester, putting down his candle, said
to me, 'Wait a minute,' and he went forward to the inner apartment.
A shout of laughter greeted his entrance; noisy at first, and
terminating in Grace Poole's own goblin ha! ha! She then was there. He
made some sort of arrangement without speaking, though I heard a low
voice address him: he came out and closed the door behind him.
'Here, Jane!' he said; and I walked round to the other side of a
large bed, which with its drawn curtains concealed a considerable
portion of the chamber. An easy-chair was near the bed-head: a man sat
in it, dressed with the exception of his coat; he was still; his
head leant back; his eyes were closed. Mr. Rochester held the candle
over him; I recognised in his pale and seeminglylifeless face- the
stranger, Mason: I saw too that his linen on one side and one arm, was
almost soaked in blood.
'Hold the candle,' said Mr. Rochester, and I took it: he fetched
a basin of water from the washstand: 'Hold that,' said he. I obeyed.
He took the sponge, dipped it in, and moistened the corpse-like
face; he asked for my smelling-bottle, and applied it to the nostrils.
Mr. Mason shortly unclosed his eyes; he groaned. Mr. Rochester
opened the shirt of the wounded man, whose arm and shoulder were
bandaged: he sponged away blood, trickling fast down.
'Is there immediate danger?' murmured Mr. Mason.
'Pooh! No- a mere scratch. Don't be so overcome, man: bear up! I'll
fetch a surgeon for you now, myself: you'll be able to be removed by
morning, I hope. Jane,' he continued.
'Sir?'
'I shall have to leave you in this room with this gentleman, for an
hour, or perhaps two hours: you will sponge the blood as I do when
it returns: if he feels faint, you will put the glass of water on that
stand to his lips, and your salts to his nose. You will not speak to
him on any pretext- and- Richard, it will be at the peril of your life
if you speak to her: open your lips- agitate yourself- and I'll not
answer for the consequences.'
Again the poor man groaned; he looked as if he dared not move;
fear, either of death or of something else, appeared almost to
paralyse him. Mr. Rochester put the now bloody sponge into my hand,
and I proceeded to use it as he had done. He watched me a second, then
saying, 'Remember!- No conversation,' he left the room. I
experienced a strange feeling as the key grated in the lock, and the
sound of his retreating step ceased to be heard.
Here then I was in the third storey, fastened into one of its
mystic cells; night around me; a pale and bloody spectacle under my
eyes and hands; a murderess hardly separated from me by a single door:
yes- that was appalling- the rest I could bear; but I shuddered at the
thought of Grace Poole bursting out upon me.
I must keep to my post, however. I must watch this ghastly
countenance- these blue, still lips forbidden to unclose- these eyes
now shut, now opening, now wandering through the room, now fixing on
me, and ever glazed with the dulness of horror. I must dip my hand
again and again in the basin of blood and water, and wipe away the
trickling gore. I must see the light of the unsnuffed candle wane on
my employment; the shadows darken on the wrought, antiquetapestry
round me, and grow black under the hangings of the vast old bed, and
quiver strangely over the doors of a great cabinet opposite- whose
front, divided into twelve panels, bore, in grim design, the heads
of the twelve apostles, each enclosed in its separate panel as in a
frame; while above them at the top rose an ebon crucifix and a dying
Christ.
According as the shifting obscurity and flickering gleam hovered
here or glanced there, it was now the bearded physician, Luke, that
bent his brow; now St. John's long hair that waved; and anon the
devilish face of Judas, that grew out of the panel, and seemed
gathering life and threatening a revelation of the arch-traitor- of
Satan himself- in his subordinate's form.
Amidst all this, I had to listen as well as watch: to listen for
the movements of the wild beast or the fiend in yonder side den. But
since Mr. Rochester's visit it seemed spellbound: all the night I
heard but three sounds at three long intervals,- a step creak, a
momentary renewal of the snarling, canine noise, and a deep human
groan.
Then my own thoughts worried me. What crime was this, that lived
incarnate in this sequestered mansion, and could neither be expelled
nor subdued by the owner?- what mystery, that broke out now in fire
and now in blood, at the deadest hours of night? What creature was it,
that, masked in an ordinary woman's face and shape, uttered the voice,
now of a mocking demon, and anon of a carrion-seeking bird of prey?
And this man I bent over- this commonplace, quiet stranger- how had
he become involved in the web of horror? and why had the Fury flown at
him? What made him seek this quarter of the house at an untimely
season, when he should have been asleep in bed? I had heard Mr.
Rochester assign him an apartment below- what brought him here? And
why, now, was he so tame under the violence or treachery done him? Why
did he so quietly submit to the concealment Mr. Rochester enforced?
Why did Mr. Rochester enforce this concealment? His guest had been
outraged, his own life on a former occasion had been hideously plotted
against; and both attempts he smothered in secrecy and sank in
oblivion! Lastly, I saw Mr. Mason was submissive to Mr. Rochester;
that the impetuous will of the latter held complete sway over the
inertness of the former: the few words which had passed between them
assured me of this. It was evident that in their former intercourse,
the passive disposition of the one had been habitually influenced by
the active energy of the other: whence then had arisen Mr. Rochester's
dismay when he heard of Mr. Mason's arrival? Why had the mere name
of this unresisting individual- whom his word now sufficed to
control like a child- fallen on him, a few hours since, as a
thunderbolt might fall on an oak?
Oh! I could not forget his look and his paleness when he whispered:
'Jane, I have got a blow- I have got a blow, Jane.' I could not forget
how the arm had trembled which he rested on my shoulder: and it was no
light matter which could thus bow the resolute spirit and thrill the
vigorous frame of Fairfax Rochester.
'When will he come? When will he come?' I cried inwardly, as the
night lingered and lingered- as my bleeding patient drooped, moaned,
sickened: and neither day nor aid arrived. I had, again and again,
held the water to Mason's white lips; again and again offered him
the stimulating salts: my efforts seemed ineffectual: either bodily or
mental suffering, or loss of blood, or all three combined, were fast
prostrating his strength. He moaned so, and looked so weak, wild,
and lost, I feared he was dying; and I might not even speak to him.
The candle, wasted at last, went out; as it expired, I perceived
streaks of grey light edging the window curtains: dawn was then
approaching. Presently I heard Pilot bark far below, out of his
distant kennel in the courtyard: hope revived. Nor was it unwarranted:
in five minutes more the grating key, the yielding lock, warned me
my watch was relieved. It could not have lasted more than two hours:
many a week has seemed shorter.
Mr. Rochester entered, and with him the surgeon he had been to
fetch.
'Now, Carter, be on the alert,' he said to this last: 'I give you
but half an hour for dressing the wound, fastening the bandages,
getting the patient downstairs and all.'
'But is he fit to move, sir?'
'No doubt of it; it is nothing serious; he is nervous, his
spirits must be kept up. Come, set to work.'
Mr. Rochester drew back the thick curtain, drew up the holland
blind, let in all the daylight he could; and I was surprised and
cheered to see how far dawn was advanced: what rosy streaks were
beginning to brighten the east. Then he approached Mason, whom the
surgeon was already handling.
'Now, my good fellow, how are you?' he asked.
'She's done for me, I fear,' was the faint reply.
'Not a whit!- courage! This day fortnight you'll hardly be a pin
the worse of it: you've lost a little blood; that's all. Carter,
assure him there's no danger.'
'I can do that conscientiously,' said Carter, who had now undone
the bandages; 'only I wish I could have got here sooner: he would
not have bled so much- but how is this? The flesh on the shoulder is
torn as well as cut. This wound was not done with a knife: there
have been teeth here!'
'She bit me,' he murmured. 'She worried me like a tigress, when
Rochester got the knife from her.'
'You should not have yielded: you should have grappled with her
at once,' said Mr. Rochester.
'But under such circumstances, what could one do?' returned
Mason. 'Oh, it was frightful!' he added, shuddering. 'And I did not
expect it: she looked so quiet at first.'
'I warned you,' was his friend's answer; 'I said- be on your
guard when you go near her. Besides, you might have waited till
to-morrow, and had me with you: it was mere folly to attempt the
interview to-night, and alone.'
'I thought I could have done some good.'
'You thought! you thought! Yes, it makes me impatient to hear
you: but, however, you have suffered, and are likely to suffer
enough for not taking my advice; so I'll say no more. Carter-
hurry!- hurry! The sun will soon rise, and I must have him off.'
'Directly, sir; the shoulder is just bandaged. I must look to
this other wound in the arm: she has had her teeth here too, I think.'
'She sucked the blood: she said she'd drain my heart,' said Mason.
I saw Mr. Rochester shudder: a singularly marked expression of
disgust, horror, hatred, warped his countenance almost to
distortion, but he only said-
'Come, be silent, Richard, and never mind her gibberish: don't
repeat it.'
'I wish I could forget it,' was the answer.
'You will when you are out of the country: when you get back to
Spanish Town, you may think of her as dead and buried- or rather,
you need not think of her at all.'
'Impossible to forget this night!'
'It is not impossible: have some energy, man. You thought you
were as dead as a herring two hours since, and you are all alive and
talking now. There!- Carter has done with you or nearly so; I'll
make you decent in a trice. Jane' (he turned to me for the first
time since his re-entrance), 'take this key: go down into my
bedroom, and walk straight forward into my dressing-room: open the top
drawer of the wardrobe and take out a clean shirt and
neck-handkerchief: bring them here; and be nimble.'
I went; sought the repository he had mentioned, found the
articles named, and returned with them.
'Now,' said he, 'go to the other side of the bed while I order
his toilet; but don't leave the room: you may be wanted again.'
I retired as directed.
'Was anybody stirring below when you went down, Jane?' inquired Mr.
Rochester presently.
'No, sir; all was very still.'
'We shall get you off cannily, Dick: and it will be better, both
for your sake, and for that of the poor creature in yonder. I have
striven long to avoid exposure, and I should not like it to come at
last. Here, Carter, help him on with his waistcoat. Where did you
leave your furred cloak? You can't travel a mile without that, I know,
in this damned cold climate. In your room?- Jane, run down to Mr.
Mason's room,- the one next mine,- and fetch a cloak you will see
there.'
Again I ran, and again returned, bearing an immense mantle lined
and edged with fur.
'Now, I've another errand for you,' said my untiring master; you
must away to my room again. What a mercy you are shod with velvet,
Jane!- a clod-hopping messenger would never do at this juncture. You
must open the middle drawer of my toilet-table and take out a little
phial and a little glass you will find there,- quick!'