the love of a young man of twenty-three for an old maid of forty.
And yet his
passion was real;
whatever may seem false about such a
love
elsewhere, it can be realized as a fact in the provinces, where,
manners and morals being without change or chance or
movement or
mystery, marriage becomes a necessity of life. No family will accept a
young man of dissolute habits. However natural the liaison of a young
man, like Athanase, with a handsome girl, like Suzanne, for instance,
might seem in a capital, it alarms
provincial parents, and destroys
the hopes of marriage of a poor young man when possibly the fortune of
a rich one might cause such an
unfortunate antecedent to be
overlooked. Between the depravity of certain liaisons and a sincere
love, a man of honor and no fortune will not
hesitate: he prefers the
misfortunes of
virtue to the evils of vice. But in the provinces women
with whom a young man call fall in love are rare. A rich young girl he
cannot
obtain in a region where all is
calculation; a poor young girl
he is prevented from
loving; it would be, as
provincials say, marrying
hunger and
thirst. Such monkish
solitude is, however, dangerous to
youth.
These
reflections explain why
provincial life is so
firmly based on
marriage. Thus we find that
ardent and
vigorousgenius, forced to rely
on the
independence of its own
poverty, quits these cold regions where
thought is persecuted by
brutalindifference, where no woman is
willing to be a sister of
charity to a man of
talent, of art, of
science.
Who will really understand Athanase Granson's love for Mademoiselle
Cormon? Certainly neither rich men--those sultans of society who fill
their harems--nor
middle-class men, who follow the well-beaten high-
road of prejudices; nor women who, not choosing to understand the
passions of artists,
impose the yoke of their
virtues upon men of
genius, imagining that the two sexes are governed by the same laws.
Here, perhaps, we should
appeal to those young men who suffer from the
repression of their first desires at the moment when all their forces
are developing; to artists sick of their own
genius smothering under
the
pressure of
poverty; to men of
talent, persecuted and without
influence, often without friends at the start, who have ended by
triumphing over that double
anguish,
equally agonizing, of soul and
body. Such men will well understand the lancinating pains of the
cancer which was now consuming Athanase; they have gone through those
long and bitter deliberations made in presence of some grandiose
purpose they had not the means to carry out; they have endured those
secret miscarriages in which the fructifying seed of
genius falls on
arid soil. Such men know that the
grandeur of desires is in proportion
to the
height and
breadth of the
imagination. The higher they spring,
the lower they fall; and how can it be that ties and bonds should not
be broken by such a fall? Their
piercing eye has seen--as did Athanase
--the
brilliant future which awaited them, and from which they fancied
that only a thin gauze parted them; but that gauze through which their
eyes could see is changed by Society into a wall of iron. Impelled by
a
vocation, by a
sentiment of art, they endeavor again and again to
live by
sentiments which society as
incessantly materializes. Alas!
the provinces calculate and arrange marriage with the one view of
material comfort, and a poor artist or man of science is
forbidden to
double its purpose and make it the
saviour of his
genius by securing
to him the means of subsistence!
Moved by such ideas, Athanase Granson first thought of marriage with
Mademoiselle Cormon as a means of
obtaining a
livelihood which would
be
permanent. Thence he could rise to fame, and make his mother happy,
knowing at the same time that he was
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faithfullyloving his
wife. But soon his own will created, although he did not know it, a
genuine
passion. He began to study the old maid, and, by dint of the
charm which habit gives, he ended by
seeing only her beauties and
ignoring her defects.
In a young man of twenty-three the senses count for much in love;
their fire produces a sort of prism between his eyes and the woman.
From this point of view the clasp with which Beaumarchis' Cherubin
seizes Marceline is a stroke of
genius. But when we
reflect that in
the utter
isolation to which
poverty condemned poor Athanase,
Mademoiselle Cormon was the only figure presented to his gaze, that
she attracted his eye
incessantly, that all the light he had was
concentrated on her, surely his love may be considered natural.
This
sentiment, so carefully
hidden, increased from day to day.
Desires, sufferings, hopes, and meditations swelled in quietness and
silence the lake widening ever in the young man's breast, as hour by
hour added its drop of water to the
volume. And the wider this inward
circle, drawn by the
imagination, aided by the senses, grew, the more
imposing Mademoiselle Cormon appeared to Athanase, and the more his
own timidity increased.
The mother had divined the truth. Like all
provincial mothers, she
calculated candidly in her own mind the advantages of the match. She
told herself that Mademoiselle Cormon would be very lucky to secure a
husband in a young man of twenty-three, full of
talent, who would
always be an honor to his family and the
neighborhood; at the same
time the obstacles which her son's want of fortune and Mademoiselle
Cormon's age presented to the marriage seemed to her almost
insurmountable; she could think of nothing but
patience as being able
to
vanquish them. Like du Bousquier, like the Chevalier de Valois, she
had a
policy of her own; she was on the watch for circumstances,
awaiting the propitious moment for a move with the shrewdness of
maternal
instinct. Madame Granson had no fears at all as to the
chevalier, but she did suppose that du Bousquier, although refused,
retained certain hopes. As an able and underhand enemy to the latter,
she did him much secret harm in the interests of her son; from whom,
by the bye, she carefully concealed all such proceedings.
After this
explanation it is easy to understand the importance which
Suzanne's lie, confided to Madame Granson, was about to
acquire. What
a
weapon put into the hands of this
charitable lady, the treasurer of
the Maternity Society! How she would
gently and demurely spread the
news while collecting
assistance for the
chaste Suzanne!
At the present moment Athanase, leaning pensively on his elbow at the
breakfast table, was twirling his spoon in his empty cup and
contemplating with a
preoccupied eye the poor room with its red brick
floor, its straw chairs, its painted
woodenbuffet, its pink and white
curtains chequered like a backgammon board, which communicated with
the kitchen through a glass door. As his back was to the chimney which
his mother faced, and as the chimney was opposite to the door, his
pallid face,
strongly lighted from the window, framed in beautiful
black hair, the eyes gleaming with
despair and fiery with morning
thoughts, was the first object which met the eyes of the incoming
Suzanne. The grisette, who belonged to a class which certainly has the
instinct of
misery and the sufferings of the heart, suddenly felt that
electric spark, darting from Heaven knows where, which can never be
explained, which some strong minds deny, but the
sympathetic stroke of
which has been felt by many men and many women. It is at once a light
which lightens the darkness of the future, a pre
sentiment of the
sacred joys of a shared love, the
certainty of
mutual comprehension.
Above all, it is like the touch of a firm and able hand on the
keyboard of the senses. The eyes are fascinated by an irresistible
attraction; the heart is stirred; the melodies of happiness echo in
the soul and in the ears; a voice cries out, "It is he!" Often
reflection casts a douche of cold water on this boiling
emotion, and
all is over.
In a moment, as rapid as the flash of the
lightning, Suzanne received
the broadside of this
emotion in her heart. The flame of a real love
burned up the evil weeds fostered by a libertine and dissipated life.
She saw how much she was losing of
decency and value by accusing
herself falsely. What had seemed to her a joke the night before became
to her eyes a serious
charge against herself. She recoiled at her own
success. But the
impossibility of any result; the
poverty of the young
man; a vague hope of enriching herself, of going to Paris, and
returning with full hands to say, "I love you! here are the means of
happiness!" or mere fate, if you will have it so, dried up the next
moment this beneficent dew.
The
ambitious grisette asked with a timid air for a moment's interview
with Madame Granson, who took her at once into her bedchamber. When
Suzanne came out she looked again at Athanase; he was still in the
same position, and the tears came into her eyes. As for Madame