well as to lay him up in bed? That
incident had damaged two people at
least, the unknown vanquished
combatant in his
bodilywelfare, and me in
my
character as an upstanding man in the
fiercefeminineestimation of
Miss La Heu; but this
injury it was my
intention to set right; my
confession to the girl behind the
counter was merely delayed. As I sat
with Shakespeare open in my lap, I added to my store of
reasoning one
little new straw of
argument in favor of my opinion that John Mayrant was
no longer at ease or happy about his love affair. I had never before met
any young man in whose manner nature was so
finely tempered with good
bringing-up; forwardness and shyness were alike
absent from him, and his
bearing had a sort of polished un
consciousness as far removed from raw
diffidence as it was from raw
conceit; it was
altogether a rare and
charming address in a youth of such true youthfulness, but it had failed
him upon two occasions which I have already mentioned. Both times that he
had come to the Exchange he had stumbled in his usually
prompt speech,
lost his
habitual ease, and betrayed, in short, all the signs of being
disconcerted. The matter seemed suddenly quite plain to me: it was the
nature of his errands to the Exchange. The first time he had been
ordering the cake for his own
wedding, and to-day it was something about
the
wedding again. Evidently the high mettle of his
delicacy and breeding
made him
painfullyconscious of the view which others must take of the
part that Miss Rieppe was playing in all this--a view from which it was
out of his power to
shield her; and it was this
consciousness that
destroyed his
composure. From what I was soon to learn of his fine and
unmoved
disregard for unfavorable opinion when he felt his course to be
the right one, I know that it was no thought at all of his own scarcely
heroic role during these days, but only the
perception that outsiders
must
detect in his affianced lady some of those very same qualities which
had chilled his too
precipitatepassion for her, and left him alone,
without
romance, without family
sympathy, without social acclamations,
with nothing indeed save his high-strung notion of honor to help him
bravely face the
wedding march. How
appalling must the
wedding march
sound to a
waitingbridegroom who sees the bride, that he no longer
looks at except with distaste and estrangement, coming nearer and nearer
to him up the aisle! A
funeral march would be gayer than that music, I
should think! The thought came to me to break out
bluntly and say to him:
"Countermand the cake! She's only playing with you while that yachtsman
is making up his mind." But there could be but one
outcome of such advice
to John Mayrant: two people, instead of one, would be in bed suffering
from contusions. As I mused on the boy and his
attractive and appealing
character, I became more rejoiced than ever that he had thrashed
somebody, I cared not very much who nor yet very much why, so long as
such thrashing had been
thorough, which seemed quite
evidently and
happily the case. He stood now in my eyes, in some way that is too
obscure for me to be able to explain to you, saved from some
reproachwhose
subtletylikewise eludes my powers of analysis.
It was already five minutes after three o'clock, my dinner hour, when he
at length appeared in the Library; and possibly I put some
reproach into
my greeting: "Won't you walk along with me to Mrs. Trevise's?" (That was
my boarding house.)
"I could not get away from the Custom House sooner," he explained; and
into his eyes there came for a moment that look of
unrest and pre-
occupation which I had observed at times while we had discussed Newport
and
alcoholic girls. The two subjects seemed certainly far enough apart!
But he immediately began upon a conversation
briskly enough--so
brisklythat I suspected at once he had got his subject ready in advance; he
didn't want me to speak first, lest I turn the talk into channels
embarrassing, such as bruised
foreheads or
wedding cake. Well, this
should not prevent me from dropping in his cup the
wholesome bitters
which I had prepared.
"Well, sir! Well, sir!" such was his
heartypreface. "I wonder if you're
feeling
ashamed of yourself?"
"Never when I read Shakespeare," I answered restoring the plume to its
place.
He looked at the title. "Which one?"
"One of the unsuitable love affairs that was prevented in time."
"Romeo and Juliet?"
"No; Bottom and Titania--and Romeo and JuIiet were not prevented in time.
They had their bliss once and to the full, and died before they caused
each other anything but
ecstasy. No
weariness of
routine, no tears of
disenchantment; complete love, completely realized--and finis!
It's the happiest
ending of all the plays."
He looked at me hard. "Sometimes I believe you're ironic!
I smiled at him. "A sign of the highest
civilization, then. But please to
think of Juliet after ten years of Romeo and his pin-headed intelligence
and his preordained infidelities. Do you imagine that her predecessor,
Rosamond, would have had no successors? Juliet would have been compelled
to
divorce Romeo, if only for the children's sake.
"The children!" cried John Mayrant. "Why, it's for their sake deserted
women
abstain from
divorce!"
"Juliet would see deeper than such mothers. She could not have her little
sons and daughters grow up and
comprehend their father's absences, and
see their mother's
submission to his returns for such discovery would
scorch the
marrow of any hearts they had."
At this, as we came out of the Library, he made an
astonishing rejoinder,
and one which I cannot in the least
account for: "South Carolina does not
allow
divorce."
"Then I should think," I said to him, "that all you people here would be
doubly careful as to what manner of husbands and wives you chose for
yourselves."
Such a remark was sailing, you may say, almost within three points of the
wind; and his own
accidentalallusion to Romeo had brought it about with
an aptness and a celerity which were better for my purpose than anything
I had
privately developed from the text of Bottom and Titania; none the
less, however, did I intend to press into my service that fond couple
also as basis for a moral, in spite of the sharp turn which those last
words of mine now caused him at once to give to our conversation. His
quick reversion to the
beginning of the talk seemed like a dodging of
remarks that hit too near home for him to
relishhearing pursued.
"Well, sir," he resumed with the same
initial briskness, "I was
ashamedif you were not."
"I still don't make out what impropriety we have jointly committed."
"What do you think of the views you expressed about our country?"
"Oh! When we sat on the gravestones."
"What do you think about it to-day?"
I turned to him as we slowly walked toward Worship Street. "Did you say
anything then that you would take back now?"
He pondered, wrinkling his
forehead. "Well, but all the same, didn't we
give the present hour a pretty black eye?"
"The present hour deserves a black eye, and two of them!"
He surveyed me
squarely. "I believe you're a pessimist!"
"That is the first trashy thing I've heard you say."
"Thank you! At least admit you're scarcely an optimist."
"Optimist! Pessimist! Why, you're talking just like a newspaper!"
He laughed. "Oh, don't compare a gentleman to a newspaper."
"Then keep your
vocabulary clean of bargain-
counter words. A while ago
the
journalists had a
furious run upon the
adjective 'un-American.'
Anybody or anything that displeased them was 'un-American.' They ran it
into the ground, and in its place they have
lately set up 'pessimist,'
which certainly has a threatening appearance. They don't know its
meaning, and in their mouths it merely signifies that what a man says
snakes them feel
personallyuncomfortable. The word has become a dusty
rag of slang. The arrested
burglar very likely calls the
policeman a
pessimist; and,
speaking reverently and with no
intention to shock you,
the scribes and Pharisees would
undoubtedly have called Christ a
pessimist when He called them hypocrites, had they been acquainted with
the word."
Once more my remarks drew from the boy an
unexpected rejoinder. We had
turned into Worship Street, and, as we passed the
churchyard, he stopped
and laid his hand upon the
railing of the pate.
"You don't shock me," he said; and then: "But you would shock my aunts."
He paused, gazing into the
churchyard, before he continued more slowly:
"And so should I--if they knew it--shock them."
"If they knew what?" I asked.
His hand indicated a sculptured crucifix near by.
"Do you believe everything still?" he answered. "Can you?"
As he looked at me, I suppose that he read negation in my eyes.
"No more can I," he murmured. Again he looked in among the tombstones and
flowers, where the old custodian saw us and took off his hat. "Howdy,