as an
amiable faddist. A special favourite with both of us
was William Stirling of Keir. His great work on the Spanish
painters, and his 'Cloister Life of Charles the Fifth,'
excited our unbounded
admiration, while his BONHOMIE and
radiant
humour were a delight we were always eager to
welcome.
George Cayley and I now entered at Lincoln's Inn. At the end
of three years he was duly called to the Bar. I was not; for
alas, as usual, something 'turned up,' which drew me in
another direction. For a couple of years, however, I 'ate'
my terms - not unfrequently with William Harcourt, with whom
Cayley had a Yorkshire
intimacy even before our Cambridge
days.
Old Mr. Cayley, though not the least strait-laced, was a
religious man. A Unitarian by birth and
conviction, he began
and ended the day with family prayers. On Sundays he would
always read to us, or make us read to him, a
sermon of
Channing's, or of Theodore Parker's, or what we all liked
better, one of Frederick Robertson's. He was
essentially a
good man. He had been in Parliament all his life, and was a
broad-minded,
tolerant,
philosophical man-of-the-world. He
had a keen sense of
humour, and was rather sarcastical; but,
for all that, he was sensitively
earnest, and conscientious.
I had the warmest
affection and respect for him. Such a
character exercised no small influence upon our conduct and
our opinions, especially as his
approval or dis
approval of
these visibly
affected his own happiness.
He was never easy unless he was
actively engaged in some
benevolent
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promotion of some
charity, or in what
he considered his
parliamentary duties, which he contrived to
make very burdensome to his
conscience. As his health was
bad, these self-imposed obligations were all the more
onerous; but he never spared himself, or his somewhat scanty
means. Amongst other minor tasks, he used to teach at the
Sunday-school of St. John's, Westminster; in this he
persuaded me to join him. The only other
volunteer, not a
clergyman, was Page Wood - a great friend of Mr. Cayley's -
afterwards Lord Chancellor Hatherley. In spite of Mr.
Cayley's Unitarianism, like Frederick the Great, he was all
for letting people 'go to Heaven in their own way,' and was
moreover quite ready to help them in their own way. So that
he had no difficulty in
hearing the boys repeat the day's
collect, or the Creed, even if Athanasian, in
accordance with
the prescribed
routine of the
clerical teachers.
This was right, at all events for him, if he thought it
right. My spirit of nonconformity did not permit me to
follow his example. Instead thereof, my teaching was purely
secular. I used to take a
volume of Mrs. Marcet's
'Conversations' in my pocket; and with the aid of the
diagrams, explain the
application of the
mechanical forces, -
the inclined plane, the screw, the pulley, the wedge, and the
lever. After two or three Sundays my class was largely
increased, for the children
keenly enjoyed their competitive
examinations. I would also give them bits of
poetry to get
by heart for the following Sunday - lines from Gray's
'Elegy,' from Wordsworth, from Pope's 'Essay on Man' - such
in short as had a moral rather than a religious tendency.
After some weeks of this, the boys becoming
clamorous in
their zeal to correct one another, one of the curates left
his class to hear what was going on in mine. We happened at
the moment to be
dealing with
geography. The curate,
evidently shocked, went away and brought another curate.
Then the two together
departed, and brought back the
rector -
Dr. Jennings, one of the Westminster Canons - a most kind and
excellent man. I went on as if
unconscious of the
censorship, the boys exerting themselves all the more eagerly
for the sake of the 'gallery.' When the hour was up, Canon
Jennings took me aside, and in the most
polite manner thanked
me for my 'valuable assistance,' but did not think that the
'Essay on Man,' or especially
geography, was suited for the
teaching in a Sunday-school. I told him I knew it was
useless to
contend with so high a canonical authority;
personally I did not see the impiety of
geography, but then,
as he already knew, I was a confirmed latitudinarian. He
clearly did not see the joke, but intimated that my services
would
henceforth be dispensed with.
Of course I was wrong, though I did not know it then, for it
must be borne in mind that there were no Board Schools in
those days, and general education,
amongst the poor, was
deplorably deficient. At first, my idea was to give the
children (they were all boys) a taste for the 'humanities,'
which might afterwards lead to their further
pursuit. I
assumed that on the Sunday they would be thinking of the
baked meats awaiting them when church was over, or of their
week-day tops and tipcats; but I was
equally sure that a time
would come when these would be forgotten, and the other
things remembered. The success was greater from the
beginning than could be looked for; and some years afterwards
I had reason to hope that the
forecast was not
altogether too
sanguine.
While the Victoria Tower was being built, I stopped one day
to watch the masons chiselling the blocks of stone.
Presently one of them, in a
flanneljacket and a paper cap,
came and held out his hand to me. He was a handsome young
fellow with a big black beard and moustache, both powdered
with his chippings.
'You don't remember me, sir, do you?'
'Did I ever see you before?'
'My name is Richards; don't you remember, sir? I was one of
the boys you used to teach at the Sunday-school. It gave me
a turn for
mechanics, which I followed up; and that's how I
took to this trade. I'm a master mason now, sir; and the
whole of this lot is under me.'
'I wonder what you would have been,' said I, 'if we'd stuck
to the collects?'
'I don't think I should have had a hand in this little job,'
he answered, looking up with pride at the
mighty tower, as
though he had a
creative share in its construction.
All this while I was
working hard at my own education, and
trying to make up for the years I had wasted (so I thought of
them), by knocking about the world. I spent
laborious days
and nights in
reading, dabbling in geology, chemistry,
physiology, metaphysics, and what not. On the score of
dogmatic religion I was as
restless as ever. I had an
insatiable
thirst for knowledge; but was without
guidance. I
wanted to learn everything; and, not
knowing in what
direction to
concentrate my efforts,
learnt next to nothing.
All knowledge seemed to me
equally important, for all bore
alike upon the great problems of
belief and of existence.
But what to
pursue, what to
relinquish, appeared to me an
unanswerable
riddle. Difficult as this
puzzle was, I did not
know then that a long life's experience would hardly make it
simpler. The man who has to earn his bread must fain resolve
to adapt his studies to that end. His choice not often rests
with him. But the
unfortunate being cursed in youth with the
means of
idleness, yet without
genius, without
talents even,
is
terribly handicapped and perplexed.
And now, with life behind me, how should I
advise another in
such a
plight? When a young lady, thus embarrassed, wrote to
Carlyle for
counsel, he sympathetically bade her 'put her
drawers in order.'
Here is the truth to be faced at the outset: 'Man has but
the choice to go a little way in many paths, or a great way
in only one.' 'Tis thus John Mill puts it. Which will he,
which should he, choose? Both courses lead alike to
incompleteness. The
universal man is no
specialist, and has
to generalise without his details. The
specialist sees only
through his
microscope, and knows about as much of cosmology