roved successively to the handsome tall clock, the
bureau, curtains,
chairs,
carpets, to the
stately bed, the basin of holy-water, the
crucifix, to a Virgin by Valentin, a Christ by Lebrun,--in short, to
all the accessories of this cherished room, while his face expressed
the
anguish of the tenderest
farewell that a lover ever took of his
first
mistress, or an old man of his
lately planted trees. The vicar
had just
perceived, somewhat late it is true, the signs of a dumb
persecution instituted against him for the last three months by
Mademoiselle Gamard, whose evil intentions would
doubtless have been
fathomed much sooner by a more
intelligent man. Old maids have a
special
talent for accentuating the words and actions which their
dislikes suggest to them. They
scratch like cats. They not only wound
but they take pleasure in wounding, and in making their
victim see
that he is wounded. A man of the world would never have allowed
himself to be
scratched twice; the good abbe, on the
contrary, had
taken several blows from those sharp claws before he could be brought
to believe in any evil intention.
But when he did
perceive it, he set to work, with the inquisitorial
sagacity which
priests
acquire by directing consciences and burrowing
into the nothings of the confessional, to establish, as though it were
a matter of religious
controversy, the following proposition:
"Admitting that Mademoiselle Gamard did not remember it was Madame de
Listomere's evening, and that Marianne did think I was home, and did
really forget to make my fire, it is impossible,
inasmuch as I myself
took down my
candlestick this morning, that Mademoiselle Gamard,
seeing it in her salon, could have
supposed I had gone to bed. Ergo,
Mademoiselle Gamard intended that I should stand out in the rain, and,
by carrying my
candlestickupstairs, she meant to make me understand
it. What does it all mean?" he said aloud, roused by the
gravity of
these circumstances, and rising as he spoke to take off his damp
clothes, get into his dressing-gown, and do up his head for the night.
Then he returned from the bed to the
fireplace, gesticulating, and
launching forth in various tones the following sentences, all of which
ended in a high falsetto key, like notes of interjection:
"What the deuce have I done to her? Why is she angry with me? Marianne
did NOT forget my fire! Mademoiselle told her not to light it! I must
be a child if I can't see, from the tone and manner she has been
taking to me, that I've done something to
displease her. Nothing like
it ever happened to Chapeloud! I can't live in the midst of such
torments as--At my age--"
He went to bed hoping that the
morrow might
enlighten him on the
causes of the
dislike which threatened to destroy forever the
happiness he had now enjoyed two years after wishing for it so long.
Alas! the secret reasons for the inimical feelings Mademoiselle Gamard
bore to the luckless abbe were fated to remain
eternally unknown to
him,--not that they were difficult to
fathom, but simply because he
lacked the good faith and candor by which great souls and scoundrels
look within and judge themselves. A man of
genius or a trickster says
to himself, "I did wrong." Self-interest and native
talent are the
only
infallible and lucid guides. Now the Abbe Birotteau, whose
goodness amounted to stupidity, whose knowledge was only, as it were,
plastered on him by dint of study, who had no experience
whatever of
the world and its ways, who lived between the mass and the
confessional,
chiefly occupied in
dealing the most
trivial matters of
conscience in his
capacity of confessor to all the schools in town and
to a few noble souls who
rightly appreciated him,--the Abbe Birotteau
must be regarded as a great child, to whom most of the practices of
social life were utterly unknown. And yet, the natural
selfishness of
all human beings, reinforced by the
selfishnesspeculiar to the
priesthood and that of the narrow life of the provinces had
insensibly, and unknown to himself, developed within him. If any one
had felt enough interest in the good man to probe his spirit and prove
to him that in the numerous petty details of his life and in the
minute duties of his daily
existence he was
essentiallylacking in the
self-sacrifice he professed, he would have punished and mortified