grief, yours and mine, is killing me. You would rather I lived than
died?"
Madame Granson looked at her son with a
haggard eye.
"So this is what you have been brooding?" she said. "They told me
right. Do you really mean to go?"
"Yes."
"You will not go without telling me; without
warning me? You must have
an
outfit and money. I have some louis sewn into my
petticoat; I shall
give them to you."
Athanase wept.
"That's all I wanted to tell you," he said. "Now I'll take you to the
du Roncerets'. Come."
The mother and the son went out. Athanase left his mother at the door
of the house where she intended to pass the evening. He looked long at
the light which came through the shutters; he clung closely to the
wall, and a frenzied joy came over him when he
presently heard his
mother say, "He has great
independence of heart."
"Poor mother! I have
deceived her," he cried, as he made his way to
the Sarthe.
He reached the noble
poplar beneath which he had meditated so much for
the last forty days, and where he had placed two heavy stones on which
he now sat down. He contemplated that beautiful nature lighted by the
moon; he reviewed once more the
glorious future he had longed for; he
passed through towns that were stirred by his name; he heard the
applauding crowds; he breathed the
incense of his fame; he adored that
life long dreamed of;
radiant, he
sprang to
radiant triumphs; he
raised his
stature; he evoked his illusions to bid them
farewell in a
last Olympic feast. The magic had been
potent for a moment; but now it
vanished forever. In that awful hour he clung to the beautiful tree to
which, as to a friend, he had attached himself; then he put the two
stones into the pockets of his
overcoat, which he buttoned across his
breast. He had come intentionally without a hat. He now went to the
deep pool he had long selected, and glided into it
resolutely,
tryingto make as little noise as possible, and, in fact, making scarcely
any.
When, at half-past nine o'clock, Madame Granson returned home, her
servant said nothing of Athanase, but gave her a letter. She opened it
and read these few words,--
"My good mother, I have
departed; don't be angry with me."
"A pretty trick he has played me!" she thought. "And his linen! and
the money! Well, he will write to me, and then I'll follow him. These
poor children think they are so much cleverer than their fathers and
mothers."
And she went to bed in peace.
During the
preceding morning the Sarthe had risen to a
height foreseen
by the
fisherman. These sudden rises of muddy water brought eels from
their various runlets. It so happened that a
fisherman had spread his
net at the very place where poor Athanase had flung himself, believing
that no one would ever find him. About six o'clock in the morning the
man drew in his net, and with it the young body. The few friends of
the poor mother took every
precaution in preparing her to receive the
dreadful remains. The news of this
suicide made, as may well be
supposed, a great
excitement in Alencon. The poor young man of genius
had no
protector the night before, but on the
morrow of his death a
thousand voices cried aloud, "I would have helped him." It is so easy
and
convenient to be
charitable gratis!
The
suicide was explained by the Chevalier de Valois. He revealed, in
a spirit of
revenge, the artless,
sincere, and
genuine love of
Athanase for Mademoiselle Cormon. Madame Granson, enlightened by the
chevalier, remembered a thousand little circumstances which confirmed
the chevalier's statement. The story then became
touching, and many
women wept over it. Madame Granson's grief was silent, concentrated,
and little understood. There are two forms of
mourning for mothers.
- observation [,ɔbzə´veiʃən] n.观测;注意;意义 (初中英语单词)
- victory [´viktəri] n.胜利,战胜 (初中英语单词)
- monsieur [mə´sjə:] n.先生 (初中英语单词)
- hatred [´heitrid] n.憎恨,敌意 (初中英语单词)
- astonishment [ə´stɔniʃmənt] n.吃惊;惊异 (初中英语单词)
- assist [ə´sist] v.协助;援助;搀扶 (初中英语单词)
- horrible [´hɔrəbəl] a.可怕的;恐怖的 (初中英语单词)
- magnificent [mæg´nifisənt] a.壮丽的;豪华的 (初中英语单词)
- possibility [,pɔsə´biliti] n.可能(性);希望;前途 (初中英语单词)
- luxury [´lʌkʃəri] n.奢侈(品);享受 (初中英语单词)
- curiosity [,kjuəri´ɔsiti] n.好奇;奇事;珍品 (初中英语单词)
- economy [i´kɔnəmi] n.经济;机制;组织 (初中英语单词)
- circle [´sə:kəl] n.圆圈 v.环绕;盘旋 (初中英语单词)
- wealth [welθ] n.财富,财产 (初中英语单词)
- dreadful [´dredful] a.可怕的;讨厌的 (初中英语单词)
- beginning [bi´giniŋ] n.开始,开端;起源 (初中英语单词)
- acquire [ə´kwaiə] vt.求得,获得,学得 (初中英语单词)
- opening [´əupəniŋ] n.开放;开端 a.开始的 (初中英语单词)
- wedding [´wediŋ] n.婚礼,结婚 (初中英语单词)
- terror [´terə] n.恐怖;惊骇 (初中英语单词)
- administration [əd,minis´treiʃən] n.管理(事务等);经营 (初中英语单词)
- aspect [´æspekt] n.面貌;神色;方向 (初中英语单词)
- ceremony [´seriməni] n.典礼;礼仪;客气 (初中英语单词)
- accustom [ə´kʌstəm] vt.使习惯于 (初中英语单词)
- welcome [´welkəm] a.受欢迎的;可喜的 (初中英语单词)
- childhood [´tʃaildhud] n.幼年(时代);早期 (初中英语单词)
- supreme [su:´pri:m, sju:-] a.最高的,无上的 (初中英语单词)
- poverty [´pɔvəti] n.贫穷(乏,瘠);不足 (初中英语单词)
- illness [´ilnis] n.生病,不健康,疾病 (初中英语单词)
- punish [´pʌniʃ] vt.(惩)罚;痛击;折磨 (初中英语单词)
- forehead [´fɔrid] n.额,前部 (初中英语单词)
- sacred [´seikrid] a.神圣的;庄严的 (初中英语单词)
- wherever [weər´evə] conj.无论在哪里 (初中英语单词)
- deceive [di´si:v] vt.欺骗,欺诈 (初中英语单词)
- resolution [,rezə´lu:ʃən] n.决心;坚决;果断 (初中英语单词)
- misery [´mizəri] n.痛苦;悲惨;穷困 (初中英语单词)
- proudly [´praudli] ad.骄傲地;傲慢地 (初中英语单词)
- injure [´indʒə] vt.伤害,损害,毁坏 (初中英语单词)
- nevertheless [,nevəðə´les] conj.&ad.然而;不过 (初中英语单词)
- presently [´prezəntli] ad.不久;目前 (初中英语单词)
- independence [,indi´pendəns] n.独立,自主,自立 (初中英语单词)
- glorious [´glɔ:riəs] a.光荣的;辉煌的 (初中英语单词)
- sprang [spræŋ] spring 的过去式 (初中英语单词)
- farewell [feə´wel] int.再见 n.&a.告别 (初中英语单词)
- height [hait] n.高度;顶点;卓越 (初中英语单词)
- fisherman [´fiʃəmən] n.渔民,渔夫,打鱼人 (初中英语单词)
- excitement [ik´saitmənt] n.兴奋;骚动;煽动 (初中英语单词)
- convenient [kən´vi:niənt] a.方便的 (初中英语单词)
- revenge [ri´vendʒ] vt.报复 n.报仇;报复 (初中英语单词)
- sincere [sin´siə] a.真挚的;直率的 (初中英语单词)
- mourning [´mɔ:niŋ] n.悲伤;治丧;戴孝 (初中英语单词)
- refusal [ri´fju:zəl] n.拒绝;优先取舍权 (高中英语单词)
- concerned [kən´sə:nd] a.有关的;担心的 (高中英语单词)
- solely [´səulli] ad.唯一;单独;完全 (高中英语单词)
- gossip [´gɔsip] n.&vi.说闲话;聊天 (高中英语单词)
- bearing [´beəriŋ] n.举止;忍耐;关系 (高中英语单词)
- parish [´pæriʃ] n.教区(的全体居民) (高中英语单词)
- secretly [´si:kritli] ad.秘密地;隐蔽地 (高中英语单词)
- species [´spi:ʃi:z] n.(生物的)种,类 (高中英语单词)
- invasion [in´veiʒən] n.入侵;侵害;侵犯 (高中英语单词)
- inspection [in´spekʃən] n.检查;视察;参观 (高中英语单词)
- reasoning [´ri:zəniŋ] n.推理,评理 a.推理的 (高中英语单词)
- formula [´fɔ:mjulə] n.公式;配方;原则 (高中英语单词)
- community [kə´mju:niti] n.团体;社区;公众 (高中英语单词)
- decided [di´saidid] a.明显的;决定的 (高中英语单词)
- melancholy [´melənkəli] n.忧郁 a.忧郁的 (高中英语单词)
- motion [´məuʃən] n.手势 vt.打手势 (高中英语单词)
- anguish [´æŋgwiʃ] n.(极度的)痛苦;苦恼 (高中英语单词)
- outfit [´aut,fit] n.装备 vt.供给;装备 (高中英语单词)
- incense [´insens, in´sens] n.香(气) vt.激怒 (高中英语单词)
- radiant [´reidiənt] a.发光的 n.光源(体) (高中英语单词)
- overcoat [´əuvəkəut] n.大衣 (高中英语单词)
- precaution [pri´kɔ:ʃən] n.预防 vt.预先警告 (高中英语单词)
- suicide [´su:isaid, ´sju:-] n.&a.自杀(者)(的) (高中英语单词)
- genuine [´dʒenjuin] a.真正的;真诚的 (高中英语单词)
- calamity [kə´læmiti] n.灾害,大灾难 (英语四级单词)
- parisian [pə´riziən] n.&a.巴黎人(的) (英语四级单词)
- vehicle [´vi:ikəl] n.车辆;媒介物 (英语四级单词)
- provincial [prə´vinʃəl] a.省的 n.外省人 (英语四级单词)
- bridegroom [´braidgru:m] n.新郎 (英语四级单词)
- livery [´livəri] a.有肝病征象的 (英语四级单词)
- inasmuch [,inəz´mʌtʃ] conj.因为;鉴于 (英语四级单词)
- trying [´traiiŋ] a.难堪的;费劲的 (英语四级单词)
- haggard [´hægəd] a.憔悴的 (英语四级单词)
- warning [´wɔ:niŋ] n.警告;前兆 a.预告的 (英语四级单词)
- petticoat [´petikəut] n.裙子 a.女性的 (英语四级单词)
- poplar [´pɔplə] n.白杨;杨木 (英语四级单词)
- stature [´stætʃə] n.身高;身材 (英语四级单词)
- potent [´pəutənt] a.有(势)力的;烈性的 (英语四级单词)
- preceding [pri(:)´si:diŋ] a.在先的;前面的 (英语四级单词)
- protector [prə´tektə] n.保护者;防御者 (英语四级单词)
- morrow [´mɔrəu] n.翌日 (英语四级单词)
- charitable [´tʃæritəbəl] a.仁爱的;慈善的 (英语四级单词)
- touching [´tʌtʃiŋ] a.动人的 prep.提到 (英语四级单词)
- depressed [di´prest] a.消沉的;萧条的 (英语六级单词)
- incredulous [in´kredjuləs] a.不(轻易)相信的 (英语六级单词)
- mademoiselle [,mædəmə´zel] n.小姐;法国女教师 (英语六级单词)
- anonymous [ə´nɔniməs] a.不具名的;匿名的 (英语六级单词)
- decency [´di:sənsi] n.正派;体面 (英语六级单词)
- retired [ri´taiəd] a.退休的;通职的 (英语六级单词)
- sumptuous [´sʌmptʃuəs] a.奢侈的;豪华的 (英语六级单词)
- sterile [´sterail] a.不育的;无结果的 (英语六级单词)
- departed [di´pɑ:tid] a.已往的;已故的 (英语六级单词)
- abandoned [ə´bændənd] a.被抛弃的;无约束的 (英语六级单词)
- harmonize [´hɑ:mənaiz] vt.&vi.(使)协调 (英语六级单词)
- applied [ə´plaid] a.实用的,应用的 (英语六级单词)
- resolutely [´rezəlju:tli] ad.坚决地;果断地 (英语六级单词)