outdoor creatures in our neighbourhood, that we have escaped out of
the Bastille of civilisation, and are become, for the time being, a
mere kindly animal and a sheep of Nature's flock.
When that hour came to me among the pines, I wakened thirsty. My
tin was
standing by me half full of water. I emptied it at a
draught; and feeling broad awake after this
internal cold
aspersion, sat
upright to make a cigarette. The stars were clear,
coloured, and jewel-like, but not
frosty. A faint
silvery vapour
stood for the Milky Way. All around me the black fir-points stood
upright and stock-still. By the whiteness of the pack-saddle, I
could see Modestine walking round and round at the length of her
tether; I could hear her
steadily munching at the sward; but there
was not another sound, save the
indescribable quiet talk of the
runnel over the stones. I lay
lazily smoking and studying the
colour of the sky, as we call the void of space, from where it
showed a
reddish grey behind the pines to where it showed a glossy
blue-black between the stars. As if to be more like a
pedlar, I
wear a silver ring. This I could see
faintly shining as I raised
or lowered the cigarette; and at each whiff the inside of my hand
was illuminated, and became for a second the highest light in the
landscape.
A faint wind, more like a moving
coolness than a
stream of air,
passed down the glade from time to time; so that even in my great
chamber the air was being renewed all night long. I thought with
horror of the inn at Chasserades and the congregated nightcaps;
with
horror of the nocturnal prowesses of clerks and students, of
hot theatres and pass-keys and close rooms. I have not often
enjoyed a more
serene possession of myself, nor felt more
independent of material aids. The outer world, from which we cower
into our houses, seemed after all a gentle habitable place; and
night after night a man's bed, it seemed, was laid and
waiting for
him in the fields, where God keeps an open house. I thought I had
rediscovered one of those truths which are revealed to savages and
hid from political economists: at the least, I had discovered a
new pleasure for myself. And yet even while I was exulting in my
solitude I became aware of a strange lack. I wished a
companion to
lie near me in the
starlight, silent and not moving, but ever
within touch. For there is a
fellowship more quiet even than
solitude, and which,
rightly understood, is
solitude made perfect.
And to live out of doors with the woman a man loves is of all lives
the most complete and free.
As I thus lay, between content and
longing, a faint noise stole
towards me through the pines. I thought, at first, it was the
crowing of cocks or the barking of dogs at some very distant farm;
but
steadily and gradually it took
articulate shape in my ears,
until I became aware that a passenger was going by upon the high-
road in the
valley, and singing loudly as he went. There was more
of good-will than grace in his
performance; but he trolled with
ample lungs; and the sound of his voice took hold upon the
hillsideand set the air shaking in the leafy glens. I have heard people
passing by night in
sleeping cities; some of them sang; one, I
remember, played loudly on the bagpipes. I have heard the rattle
of a cart or
carriage spring up suddenly after hours of stillness,
and pass, for some minutes, within the range of my
hearing as I lay
abed. There is a
romance about all who are
abroad in the black
hours, and with something of a
thrill we try to guess their
business. But here the
romance was double: first, this glad
passenger, lit
internally with wine, who sent up his voice in music
through the night; and then I, on the other hand, buckled into my
sack, and smoking alone in the pine-woods between four and five
thousand feet towards the stars.
When I awoke again (Sunday, 29th September), many of the stars had
disappeared; only the stronger
companions of the night still burned
visibly
overhead; and away towards the east I saw a faint haze of
light upon the
horizon, such as had been the Milky Way when I was
last awake. Day was at hand. I lit my
lantern, and by its glow-
worm light put on my boots and gaiters; then I broke up some bread
for Modestine, filled my can at the water-tap, and lit my spirit-
lamp to boil myself some chocolate. The blue darkness lay long in
the glade where I had so
sweetlyslumbered; but soon there was a
broad
streak of orange melting into gold along the mountain-tops of