been the
chamber of
inquisition and the scene of punishment;
but it stuck so rigorously in his mind that he must instantly
approach the door and prove its untruth. As he went, he
struck upon a
drawer left open in the business table. It was
the money-
drawer, a
measure of his father's disarray: the
money-
drawer - perhaps a pointing
providence! Who is to
decide, when even divines
differ between a
providence and a
temptation? or who, sitting
calmly under his own vine, is to
pass a judgment on the
doings of a poor, hunted dog,
slavishly afraid, slavishly
rebellious, like John Nicholson
on that particular Sunday? His hand was in the
drawer,
almost before his mind had conceived the hope; and rising to
his new situation, he wrote, sitting in his father's chair
and using his father's blotting-pad, his
pitifulapology and
farewell:-
'MY DEAR FATHER, - I have taken the money, but I will pay it
back as soon as I am able. You will never hear of me again.
I did not mean any harm by anything, so I hope you will try
and
forgive me. I wish you would say good-bye to Alexander
and Maria, but not if you don't want to. I could not wait to
see you, really. Please try to
forgive me. Your
affectionate son,
JOHN NICHOLSON.'
The coins abstracted and the missive written, he could not be
gone too soon from the scene of these transgressions; and
remembering how his father had once returned from church, on
some slight
illness, in the middle of the second psalm, he
durst not even make a
packet of a change of clothes. Attired
as he was, he slipped from the
paternal doors, and found
himself in the cool spring air, the thin spring
sunshine, and
the great Sabbath quiet of the city, which was now only
pointed by the cawing of the rooks. There was not a soul in
Randolph Crescent, nor a soul in Queensferry Street; in this
outdoor
privacy and the sense of escape, John took heart
again; and with a
pathetic sense of leave-taking, he even
ventured up the lane and stood
awhile, a strange peri at the
gates of a
quaintparadise, by the west end of St. George's
Church. They were singing within; and by a strange chance,
the tune was 'St. George's, Edinburgh,' which bears the name,
and was first sung in the choir of that church. 'Who is this
King of Glory?' went the voices from within; and, to John,
this was like the end of all Christian observances, for he
was now to be a wild man like Ishmael, and his life was to be
cast in
homeless places and with godless people.
It was thus, with no rising sense of the
adventurous, but in
mere
desolation and
despair, that he turned his back on his
native city, and set out on foot for California, with a more
immediate eye to Glasgow.
CHAPTER IV - THE SECOND SOWING
IT is no part of mine to narrate the adventures of John
Nicholson, which were many, but simply his more momentous
misadventures, which were more than he desired, and, by human
standards, more than he deserved; how he reached California,
how he was rooked, and robbed, and
beaten, and starved; how
he was at last taken up by
charitable folk, restored to some
degree of self-complacency, and installed as a clerk in a
bank in San Francisco, it would take too long to tell; nor in
these episodes were there any marks of the peculiar
Nicholsonic
destiny, for they were just such matters as
befell some thousands of other young adventurers in the same
days and places. But once posted in the bank, he fell for a
time into a high degree of good fortune, which, as it was
only a longer way about to fresh
disaster, it behooves me to
explain.
It was his luck to meet a young man in what is technically
called a 'dive,' and thanks to his
monthly wages, to
extricate this new ac
quaintance from a position of present
disgrace and possible danger in the future. This young man
was the
nephew of one of the Nob Hill magnates, who run the
San Francisco Stock Exchange, much as more humble
adventurers, in the corner of some public park at home, may
be seen to perform the simple artifice of pea and
thimble: