Goethe schemes? Some day, out of their bitter need will be
thrown up their own light-bringer,--their Jean Paul, their
Cromwell, their Messiah."
"Bah!" was the Doctor's
inwardcriticism. However, in practice,
he adopted the theory; for, when, night and morning, afterwards,
he prayed that power might be given these degraded souls to
rise, he glowed at heart, recognizing an
accomplished duty.
Wolfe and the woman had stood in the shadow of the works as the
coach drove off. The Doctor had held out his hand in a frank,
generous way, telling him to "take care of himself, and to
remember it was his right to rise." Mitchell had simply touched
his hat, as to an equal, with a quiet look of thorough
recognition. Kirby had thrown Deborah some money, which she
found, and clutched
eagerly enough. They were gone now, all of
them. The man sat down on the cinder-road, looking up into the
murky sky.
"'T be late, Hugh. Wunnot hur come?"
He shook his head
doggedly, and the woman crouched out of his
sight against the wall. Do you remember rare moments when a
sudden light flashed over yourself, your world, God? when you
stood on a mountain-peak,
seeing your life as it might have
been, as it is? one quick
instant, when custom lost its force
and every-day usage? when your friend, wife, brother, stood in
a new light? your soul was bared, and the grave,--a foretaste
of the nakedness of the Judgment-Day? So it came before him,
his life, that night. The slow tides of pain he had borne
gathered themselves up and surged against his soul. His squalid
daily life, the
brutal coarseness eating into his brain, as the
ashes into his skin: before, these things had been a dull
aching into his
consciousness; to-night, they were
reality. He
griped the
filthy red shirt that clung, stiff with soot, about
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savagely from his arm. The flesh beneath was
muddy with
grease and ashes,--and the heart beneath that! And
the soul? God knows.
Then flashed before his vivid
poetic sense the man who had left
him,--the pure face, the
delicate, sinewy limbs, in
harmony with
all he knew of beauty or truth. In his cloudy fancy he had
pictured a Something like this. He had found it in this
Mitchell, even when he idly scoffed at his pain: a Man all-
knowing, all-
seeing, crowned by Nature, reigning,--the keen
glance of his eye falling like a sceptre on other men. And yet
his
instinct taught him that he too--He! He looked at himself
with sudden loathing, sick, wrung his hands With a cry, and then
was silent. With all the phantoms of his heated, ignorant
fancy, Wolfe had not been vague in his ambitions. They were
practical, slowly built up before him out of his knowledge of
what he could do. Through years he had day by day made this
hope a real thing to himself,--a clear, projected figure of
himself, as he might become.
Able to speak, to know what was best, to raise these men and
women
working at his side up with him: sometimes he forgot this
defined hope in the
franticanguish to escape, only to escape,--
out of the wet, the pain, the ashes, somewhere, anywhere,--only
for one moment of free air on a hill-side, to lie down and let
his sick soul throb itself out in the
sunshine. But to-night he
panted for life. The
savage strength of his nature was roused;
his cry was
fierce to God for justice.
"Look at me!" he said to Deborah, with a low, bitter laugh,
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savagely. "What am I worth, Deb? Is it
my fault that I am no better? My fault? My fault?"
He stopped, stung with a sudden
remorse,
seeing her hunchback
shape writhing with sobs. For Deborah was crying thankless
tears, according to the fashion of women.
"God forgi' me, woman! Things go harder Wi' you nor me. It's
a worse share."
He got up and helped her to rise; and they went
doggedly down
the muddy street, side by side.
"It's all wrong," he
muttered, slowly,--"all wrong! I dunnot
understan'. But it'll end some day."
"Come home, Hugh!" she said, coaxingly; for he had stopped,
looking around bewildered.
"Home,--and back to the mill!" He went on
saying this over to
himself, as if he would
mutter down every pain in this dull
despair.
She followed him through the fog, her blue lips chattering with