He spoke first. "Your friend has given his word to a lady; he must stand
by it like a gentleman.
"Lot of difference," I returned, still looking round the room, "between
spirit and letter. If his heart has broken the word, his lips can't make
him a gentleman."
John brought his fist down on the table. "He had no business to get
engaged to her! He must take the consequences."
That blow of the fist on the table brought my thoughts
wholly clear and
fixed on the one subject; my will had no longer to struggle with them,
they worked of themselves in just the way that I wanted them to do.
"If he's a gentleman, he must stand to his word," John
repeated, "unless
she releases him."
I fumbled again for my letter. "That's just about what he says himself,"
I rejoined, sitting down. "He thinks he ought to take the consequences."
"Of course!" John Mayrant's face was very stern as he sat in judgment on
himself.
"But why should she take the consequences?" I asked.
"What consequences?"
"Being married to a man who doesn't want her, all her life, until death
them do part. How's that? Having the daily
humiliation of his indif-
ference, and the world's knowledge of his
indifference. How's that?
Perhaps having the further
humiliation of
knowing that his heart belongs
to another woman. How's that? That's not what a girl bargains for. His
standing to his word is not an act of honor, but a
deception. And in
talking about '
taking the consequences,' he's patting his personal
sacrifice on the back and forgetting all about her and the sacrifice he's
putting her to. What's the brief
suffering of a broken
engagement to
that? No: the true consequences that a man should shoulder for making
such a mistake is the poor opinion that society holds of him for placing
a woman in such a position; and to free her is the most honorable thing
he can do. Her
dignity suffers less so than if she were a wife chained
down to
perpetual disregard."
John, after a silence, said: "That is a very curious view."
"That is the view I shall give my friend," I answered. "I shall tell him
that in keeping on he is not at bottom
honestly thinking of the girl and
her
welfare, but of himself and the public opinion he's afraid of, if he
breaks his
engagement. And I shall tell him that if I'm in church and
they come to the place where they ask if any man knows just cause or
impediment, I shall probably call out, 'He does! His heart's not in it.
This is not marriage that he's committing. You're pronouncing your
blessing upon a fraud.'"
John sat now a long time silent,
holding his
extinct cigar. The lamp was
almost burned dry; we had blown out the expiring candles some while
since. "That is a very curious view," he
repeated. "I should like to hear
what your friend says in answer."
This finished our late sitting. We opened the door and went out for a
brief space into the night to get its pure
breath into our lungs, and
look to the distant place where the moon had sailed. Then we went to bed,
or rather, I did; for the last thing that I remembered was John,
standingby the window of our bedroom still dressed, looking out into the forest.
XX: What She Wanted Him For
He was neither at the window, nor in his bed, nor
anywhere else to be
seen, when I opened my eyes upon the world next morning; nor did any
answer come when I called his name. I raised myself and saw outside the
great branches of the wood, bathed from top to trunk in a
sunshine that
was no early morning's light; and upon this, the silence of the house
spoke
plainly to me not of man still
sleeping, but of man long risen and
gone about his business. I stepped
barefoot across the
wooden floor to
where lay my watch, but it marked an unearthly hour, for I had neglected
to wind it at the end of our long and convivial evening--of which my head
was now giving me some news. And then I saw a note addressed to me from
John Mayrant.
"You are a good sleeper," it began, "but my
conscience is clear as to the
Bombo, called by some Kill-devil, about which I hope you will remember
that I warned you."
He hoped I should remember! Of course I remembered everything; why did he
say that? An
apology for his leaving me followed; he had been obliged to
take the early train because of the Custom House, where he was serving
his final days; they would give me breakfast when ever I should be ready
for it, and I was to make free of the place; I had better visit the old
church (they had orders about the keys) and drive myself into Kings Port
after lunch; the horses would know the way, if I did not. It was the
boy's closing
sentence which fixed my attention
wholly, took it away from
Kill-devil Bombo and my Aunt Carola's
commission, for the
execution of
which I now held the clue, and sent me puzzling for the right
interpretation of his words:--