without feeling that the forest overpowered the mind of the builder,
and that his
chisel, his saw and plane, still reproduced its ferns,
its spikes of flowers, its
locust, elm, pine, and spruce."
Memoranda: Lincoln choir is an example of Early English or First
Pointed, which can generally be told from something else by bold
projecting buttresses and dog-tooth
moulding round the abacusses.
(The plural is my own, and it does not look right.) Lincoln Castle
was the scene of many prolonged sieges, and was once taken by Oliver
Cromwell.
HE
YORK, June 24
The Black Swan.
Kitty Schuyler is the concentrated
essence of
feminine witchery.
Intuition strong, logic weak, and the two qualities so balanced as
to produce an indefinable charm; will-power large, but docility
equal, if a man is clever enough to know how to manage her;
knowledge of facts
absolutely nil, but she is
exquisitelyintelligent in spite of it. She has a way of evading, escaping,
eluding, and then gives you an intoxicating hint of sudden and
complete
surrender. She is divinely
innocent, but roguishness saves
her from insipidity. Her looks? She looks as you would imagine a
person might look who possessed these graces; and she is worth
looking at, though every time I do it I have a rush of love to the
head. When you find a girl who combines all the qualities you have
imagined in the ideal, and who has added a dozen or two on her own
account, merely to
distract you past all hope, why stand up and try
to
resist her charm? Down on your knees like a man, say I!
* * *
I'm getting to adore aunt Celia. I didn't care for her at first,
but she is so deliciously blind! Anything more
exquisitelyunserviceable as a chaperon I can't imagine. Absorbed in antiquity,
she ignores the
babble of contemporaneous lovers. That any man
could look at Kitty when he could look at a
cathedral passes her
comprehension. I do not
presume too greatly on her absent-
mindedness, however, lest she should turn
unexpectedly and rend me.
I always remember that
inscription on the backs of the little
mechanical French toys,--"Quoiqu'elle soit tres solidement montee,
il faut ne pas brutaliser la machine."
And so my
courtship progresses under aunt Celia's very nose. I say
"progresses," but it is impossible to speak with any
certainty of
courting, for the
essence of that gentle craft is hope, rooted in
labor and trained by love.
I set out to propose to her during service this afternoon by writing
my feelings on the fly-leaf of the hymn-book, or something like
that; but I knew that aunt Celia would never
forgive such blasphemy,
and I thought that Kitty herself might consider it
wicked. Besides,
if she should chance to accept me, there was nothing I could do, in
a
cathedral, to
relieve my feelings. No; if she ever accepts me, I
wish it to be in a large,
vacant spot of the
universe, peopled by
two only, and those two so indistinguishably blended, as it were,
that they would appear as one to the
casualobserver. So I
practiced repression, though the wall of my reserve is worn to the
thinness of thread-paper, and I tried to keep my mind on the droning
minor canon, and not to look at her, "for that way
madness lies."
SHE
YORK, June 26
High Petersgate Street.
My taste is so bad! I just begin to realize it, and I am feeling my
"growing pains," like Gwendolen in "Daniel Deronda." I admired the
stained glass in the Lincoln Cathedral, especially the Nuremberg
window. I thought Mr. Copley looked pained, but he said nothing.
When I went to my room, I looked in a book and found that all the
glass in that
cathedral is very modern and very bad, and the
Nuremberg window is the worst of all. Aunt Celia says she hopes
that it will be a
warning to me to read before I speak; but Mr.
Copley says no, that the world would lose more in one way than it
would gain in the other. I tried my quotations this morning, and
stuck fast in the middle of the first.
Mr. Copley says that aunt Celia has been feeing the vergers
altogether too much, and I wrote a song about it called "The Ballad
of the Vergers and the Foolish Virgin," which I sang to my guitar.
Mr. Copley says it is cleverer than anything he ever did with his
pencil, but of course he says that only to be agreeable.
We all went to an evening service last night. Coming home, aunt