sees him, and thus never recognizes him when he appears again,
always as the flower of
chivalry and
guardian of ladies in distress.
I will never again travel
abroad without a man, even if I have to
hire one from a Feeble-Minded Asylum. We work like
galley slaves,
aunt Celia and I,
finding out about trains and things. Neither of
us can understand Bradshaw, and I can't even
grapple with the lesser
intricacies of the A B C railway guide. The trains, so far as I can
see, always arrive before they go out, and I can never tell whether
to read up the page or down. It is certainly very queer that the
stupidest man that breathes, one that
barely escapes idiocy, can
disentangle a railway guide, when the brightest woman fails. Even
the Boots at the inn in Wells took my book, and, rubbing his
frightfully dirty finger down the row of puzzling figures, found the
place in a minute, and said, "There ye are, miss." It is very
humiliating. All the time I have left from the study of routes and
hotels I spend on guide-books. Now I'm sure that if any one of the
men I know were here, he could tell me all that is necessary as we
walk along the streets. I don't say it in a
frivolous or
sentimental spirit in the least, but I do
affirm that there is
hardly any juncture in life where one isn't better off for having a
man about. I should never dare divulge this to aunt Celia, for she
doesn't think men very nice. She excludes them from conversation as
if they were indelicate subjects.
But, to go on, we were
standing at the door of Ye Olde Bell and
Horns, at Bath,
waiting for the fly which we had ordered to take us
to the station, when who should drive up in a four-wheeler but the
flower of
chivalry. Aunt Celia was
saying very audibly, "We shall
certainly miss the train if the man doesn't come at once."
"Pray take this fly," said the flower of
chivalry. "I am not
leaving till the next train."
Aunt Celia got in without a murmur; I sneaked in after her. I don't
think she looked at him, though she did
vouchsafe the remark that he
seemed to be a civil sort of person.
At Bristol, I was walking about by myself, and I espied a sign,
"Martha Huggins, Licensed Victualer." It was a nice, tidy little
shop, with a fire on the
hearth and flowers in the window, and, as
it was raining smartly, I thought no one would catch me if I stepped
inside to chat with Martha. I fancied it would be so
delightful and
Dickensy to talk quietly with a licensed victualer by the name of
Martha Huggins.
Just after I had settled myself, the flower of
chivalry came in and
ordered ale. I was disconcerted at being found in a dramshop alone,
for I thought, after the bag
episode, he might fancy us a family of
inebriates. But he didn't evince the slightest
astonishment; he
merely lifted his hat, and walked out after he had finished his ale.
He certainly has the loveliest manners!
And so it goes on, and we never get any further. I like his
politeness and his
evident feeling that I can't be flirted and
talked with like a forward boarding-school miss, but I must say I
don't think much of his
ingenuity. Of course one can't have all the
virtues, but, if I were he, I would part with my
distinguished air,
my
charming ease, in fact almost anything, if I could have in
exchange a few grains of common sense, just enough to guide me in
the practical affairs of life.
I wonder what he is? He might be an artist, but he doesn't seem
quite like an artist; or a dilettante, but he doesn't seem in the
least like a dilettante. Or he might be an
architect; I think that
is the most
probable guess of all. Perhaps he is only "going to be"
one of these things, for he can't be more than twenty-five or
twenty-six. Still he looks as if he were something already; that
is, he has a kind of self-reliance in his mien,--not self-assertion,
nor self-esteem, but
belief in self, as if he were able, and knew
that he was able, to
conquer circumstances.
HE
GLOUCESTER, June 10
The Bell.
Nothing
accomplished yet. Her aunt is a Van Tyck, and a stiff one,
too. I am a Copley, and that delays matters. Much depends upon the
manner of approach. A false move would be fatal. We have six more
towns (as per itinerary), and if their
thirst for
cathedrals isn't
slaked when these are finished we have the entire
continent to do.
If I could only succeed in making an
impression on the retina of
aunt Celia's eye! Though I have been under her feet for ten days,