the rapidly diminishing supply of hams. Fred said nothing,
but I saw by his look how this
trifling accident helped to
depress him. I was ready to cry with
vexation. My rifle was
my pride, the stag of my life - my ALTER EGO. It was never
out of my hands; every day I practised at
prairie dogs, at
sage hens, at a mark even if there was no game. A few days
before we got to Laramie I had killed, right and left, two
wild ducks, the second on the wing; and now, when so much
depended on it, I could not hit a thing as big as a donkey.
The fact is, I was the worse for
illness. I had constant
returns of fever, with bad shivering fits, which did not
improve the steadiness of one's hand. However, we managed to
get a supper. While we were examining the spot where the
antelope had stood, a leveret jumped up, and I knocked him
over with my remaining
barrel. We fried him in the one tin
plate we had brought with us, and thought it the most
delicious dish we had had for weeks.
As we lay side by side, smoke curling
peacefully from our
pipes, we chatted far into the night, of other days - of
Cambridge, of our college friends, of London, of the opera,
of balls, of women - the last a
fruitful subject - and of the
future. I was
vastly amused at his sudden
outburst as some
start of one of the horses picketed close to us reminded us
of the
actual present. 'If ever I get out of this d-d mess,'
he exclaimed, 'I'll never go
anywhere without my own French
cook.' He kept his word, to the end of his life, I believe.
It was a
delightfulrepose, a complete forgetting, for a
night at any rate, of all
impending care. Each was cheered
and strengthened for the work to come. The spirit of
enterprise, the love of adventure restored for the moment,
believed itself a match for come what would. The very
animals seemed invigorated by the rest and the
abundance of
rich grass spreading as far as we could see. The morning was
bright and cool. A
delicious bath in the Sweetwater, a
breakfast on fried ham and coffee, and once more in our
saddles on the way back to camp, we felt (or fancied that we
felt) prepared for anything.
That is just what we were not. Samson and the men, meeting
with no game where we had left them, had moved on that
afternoon in search of better
hunting grounds. The result
was that when we
overtook them, we found five mules up to
their necks in a muddy creek. The packs were sunk to the
bottom, and the animals nearly drowned or strangled. Fred
and I rushed to the
rescue. At once we cut the ropes which
tied them together; and,
setting the men to pull at tails or
heads, succeeded at last in extricating them.
Our new-born
vigour was nipped in the bud. We were all
drenched to the skin. Two packs containing the miserable
remains of our
wardrobe, Fred's and mine, were lost. The
catastrophe produced a good deal of bad language and bad
blood. Translated into English it came to this: 'They had
trusted to us,
taking it for granted we knew what we were
about. What business had we to "boss" the party if we were
as
ignorant as the mules? We had guaranteed to lead them
through to California [!] and had brought them into this
"almighty fix" to slave like niggers and to starve.' There
was just truth enough in the Jeremiad to make it sting. It
would not have been
prudent, nay, not very safe, to return
curse for curse. But the breaking point was reached at last.
That night I, for one, had not much sleep. I was soaked from
head to foot, and had not a dry rag for a change. Alternate
fits of fever and rigor would alone have kept me awake; but
renewed ponderings upon the situation and confirmed
convictions of the peremptory necessity of breaking up the
party, forced me to the
conclusion that this was the right,
the only, course to adopt.
For another twenty-four hours I brooded over my plans. Two
main difficulties confronted me: the
announcement to the