A wheezy consumptive
invalid would insist on a closed one.
Everybody's legs were in their own, and in every other
body's, way. So that when the distance was great and time
precious, people avoided coaching, and remained where they
were.
For this reason, if a short
holiday was given - less than a
week say - Norfolk was too far off; and I was not permitted
to spend it at Holkham. I generally went to Charles Fox's at
Addison Road, or to Holland House. Lord Holland was a great
friend of my father's; but, if Creevey is to be trusted -
which, as a rule, my
recollection of him would permit me to
doubt, though perhaps not in this
instance - Lord Holland did
not go to Holkham because of my father's
dislike to Lady
Holland.
I speak here of my
introduction to Holland House, for
although Lady Holland was then in the
zenith of her
ascendency, (it was she who was the Cabinet Minister, not her
too
amiable husband,) although Holland House was then the
resort of all the potentates of Whig statecraft, and Whig
literature, and Whig wit, in the persons of Lord Grey,
Brougham, Jeffrey, Macaulay, Sydney Smith, and others, it was
not till eight or ten years later that I knew, when I met
them there, who and what her Ladyship's
brilliant satellites
were. I shall not return to Lady Holland, so I will say a
parting word of her forthwith.
The woman who corresponded with Buonaparte, and consoled the
prisoner of St. Helena with black
currant jam, was no
ordinary
personage. Most people, I fancy, were afraid of
her. Her
stature, her voice, her beard, were obtrusive marks
of her
masculine attributes. It is
questionable whether her
amity or her
enmity was most to be dreaded. She liked those
best whom she could most easily tyrannise over. Those in the
other
category might possibly keep aloof. For my part I
feared her
patronage. I remember when I was about seventeen
- a self-conscious hobbledehoy - Mr. Ellice took me to one of
her large receptions. She received her guests from a sort of
elevated dais. When I came up - very shy - to make my
salute, she asked me how old I was. 'Seventeen,' was the
answer. 'That means next birthday,' she grunted. 'Come and
give me a kiss, my dear.' I, a man! - a man whose voice was
(sometimes) as gruff as hers! - a man who was
beginning to
shave for a moustache! Oh! the indignity of it!
But it was not Lady Holland, or her court, that
concerned me
in my school days, it was Holland Park, or the
extensivegrounds about Charles Fox's house (there were no other houses
at Addison Road then), that I loved to roam in. It was the
birds'-nesting; it was the golden carp I used to fish for on
the sly with a pin; the shying at the swans, the hunt for
cockchafers, the freedom of
mischief generally, and the
excellent food - which I was so much in need of - that made
the
holiday delightful.
Some years later, when dining at Holland House, I happened to
sit near the
hostess. It was a large dinner party. Lord
Holland, in his bath-chair (he nearly always had the gout),
sat at the far end of the table a long way off. But my lady
kept an eye on him, for she had caught him drinking
champagne. She beckoned to the groom of the chambers, who
stood behind her; and in a gruff and angry voice shouted:
'Go to my Lord. Take away his wine, and tell him if he
drinks any more you have my orders to wheel him into the next
room.' If this was a joke it was certainly a practical one.
And yet
affection was behind it. There's a tender place in
every heart.
Like all despots, she was subject to fits of
cowardice -
especially, it was said, with regard to a future state, which
she professed to disbelieve in. Mr. Ellice told me that
once, in some country house, while a
fearful storm was
raging, and the claps of
thunder made the windows rattle,
Lady Holland was so terrified that she changed dresses with