and the
lesser report of its explosion.
==
And every now and then comes the bursting of a shell immediately
overhead,
and the
rattle of its fragments on the roof of the bomb-proof dug-out.
Think what it must have meant to this eager,
ardent, pleasure-loving spirit
to sit out, day after day, in a chill, sodden, verminous
trench,
a grand orchestral concert of this music of human madness!
The
solitude of sentry-duty
evidently comes to him as something of a relief.
"It may," he says, "be all that is
melancholy if the night is bad
and the winter wind moans through the pines"; but it also
"brings moments of exaltation, if the cloud-banks roll back,
if the
moonlight breaks over the windless hills, or the heavens blaze
with the beauty of the northern stars."
==
The
sentinel has ample time for
reflection. Alone under the stars,
war in its cosmic rather than its moral
aspect reveals itself to him. . . .
He thrills with the sense of filling an appointed, necessary place
in the
conflict of hosts, and, facing the enemy's crest,
above which the Great Bear wheels
upward to the
zenith, he feels,
with a sublimity of
enthusiasm that he has never before known,
a kind of
companionship with the stars.
==
Six days in the
trenches alternated with a three days'
interval of rest
"either billeted in the stables and haylofts of the village or encamped
in the woods and around the
chateau." Thus the winter of 1914-15 wore away,
with little to break its
monotony. The heaviest fighting
was all to the
northward. One gathers from his poem "The Aisne"
that at Craonne he took part in the
repulse of a serious enemy attack;
but there is no mention of this in the letters before me.
On March 12, 1915, he writes to his mother in
fierce indignation
over something that has appeared in an American paper as to life
in the Foreign Legion. The
writer of the "disgraceful article", he says,
"like many others of his type, was long ago eliminated from our ranks,
for a person buoyed up by no noble purpose is the first to succumb
to the hardships of the winter that we have been through. . . .
If his lies did nothing worse than belittle his comrades,
who are here for motives that he is
unable to conceive,
it would be only dishonourable. But when it comes to throwing discredit
on the French Government, that in all its
treatment of us
has been
generous beyond anything that one would think possible,
it is too
shameful for any words to characterize."
With the coming of spring, there was of course some mitigation of the trials
of the winter. Here is an almost idyllic passage from a letter to his sister,
written on the fly-leaves of `Les Confessions de J. J. Rousseau',
Geneve, MDCCLXXXII:
==
We put in a very pleasant week here -- nine hours of guard at night
in our outposts up on the
hillside; in the
daytime sleep, or foraging
in the ruined villages, loafing in the pretty garden of the
chateau,
or
reading up in the library. We have cleaned this up now,
and it is an
altogether curious
sensation to
recline here in an easy-chair,
reading some fine old book, and just
taking the precaution
not to stay in front of the glassless windows through which
the sharpshooters can snipe at you from their posts in the thickets
on the slopes of the
plateau, not six hundred metres away.
Sometimes our
artillery opens up and then you lay down your book for a while,
and, looking through a peek-hole, watch the 75's and 120's
throw up fountains of dirt and debris all along the line
of the enemy's
trenches.
==
"Spring has come here at last," so the letter closes, "and we are having
beautiful weather. I am going in swimming in the Aisne this afternoon
for the first time. In fine health and spirits."
During the summer, the Legion was moved about a good deal
from sector to sector, and Alan often found himself in pleasant places,
and got a good deal of
positiveenjoyment out of his life.
On June 18, 1915, he wrote to his mother: