As my husband drove us back to my parent's house, I kept thinking about how I had just left Dad, alive, not more than thirty minutes past. One of the ironies of death is even when you are expecting it, it comes as a surprise.
Seven years have passed since we buried Dad. I've only just begun to forgive Mom for her final outburst(感情等的爆发) during my last talk with him. I've been less forgiving myself. Each day I'm ridiculed(嘲笑) by my own thoughts. How could I have left Dad disappointed knowing he had a want? What was wrong with me to have not done something? Whenever I'm at a restaurant and hear children asking their parents for fries to go with their hamburgers, I fight not to interfere. I want to say let them have fries. I'd offer to pay for them myself, too. But that would call for some kind of explanation and I'm not ready to share this with strangers.
There will be a time for an explanation when I am visited(遭…的报应) by the only principle of
fairness. If those gates of Heaven are really there and a short pause exists while the records are reviewed, I'll tell my story then. Before I am judged, I'll bargain, would it be too much to ask if I might be awarded with time to prepare a plate of French fried potatoes? And if you could, would you
graciously have them delivered to my father? I know he is here and he'll know who sent them. If you could allow me this small favor I think I'll be all right no matter where I might go from here.
I hate February... it is the most
desolate time of a year.
Unit 16 When Shadows Fall
暮色降临时
写作是需要充分的安静的。喜欢安静,又有点怪癖﹑固执的作家埃姆莉太太讨厌无聊声音的烦扰,乐意享受夜间静谧的环境……
Cobwebs(蜘蛛网) hang
lazily from the
crackedplaster ceilings. Dust has piled
thickly on the paper. Books are placed everywhere, on tall
shelves and low
shelves, in unsteady(不稳定的) stacks on floor, coffee table,
lounge and piano, in boxes, cupboards and
wardrobes(大衣柜).
A reading lamp casts a single bright circle on the green cloth of the dining table, and a woman's head bent low over them. Her hair crinkles(成波浪状) like tarnished(失去光泽的) metal. As she writes, her brown arm moves slowly across the circle of light, the faint scratching of her pen is the only sound in the room.
Loud strikes at the front door shatters(打碎) the calm. The writer sighs, starts to lay down her pen, but with a shake of her head resumes writing. The over-enthusiastic knocking at the door is
repeated. The house is vibrated: millions of tiny dust particles shiver and twirl(旋转) chaotically(无秩序地) through the air, fragments of
plaster tremble along the cracks, spiders hurry to their corners. She hears footsteps pass the curtained window in front of her, the frail and dusted back gate opens with only a brief creak(吱吱的响声).
Pushing back her chair, she stands
rigidly, revealing the red glow of a heater in the dark cave under the table, and walks slowly through the cold kitchen to the back door.
As she opens the back door, she finds there stands a young man on her
threshold, who is from the flats across the road. He's storing things in her
garage.
"Hi, Mrs Embley. I just want to ask if you'd mind if I put up a few
shelves in the shed?"
Shelves... timber... nails... hammering... noise!
"Uh, no, I don't think that's a good idea: Donald wouldn't like it. "
"Oh, Donald is back, isn't he? "
"Of course. I told you he has just gone up the street. "
"Yeah, haven't seen him, but OK. It doesn't matter. See you. "
"Wait! It really would be best if you didn't disturb us in the house. Donald needs peace and quiet for his work, you see. Just come and go to the
garage, as you want, no need to ask. A1right? "
"Fair enough, " he nods, and disappears down the side path. She shivers a little, glancing briefly at the
vaguely familiar wildness of the yard before shutting and bolting the door. Donald used to look after it, but she no longer remembers how long since he went,
nowhere he said he was going. Last winter? Or the one before?
A cup of tea, she thinks, then on to that troublesome chapter five. Searching
vainly for biscuits, she curses gently. Such a waste of time, shopping. Perhaps she'll just go to the petrol station on the corner again;they have a few things, and they certainly have biscuits.
She fetches her coat from the
wardrobe. The hat she wears on her head is an old gardening one, but the mirror door,
hanging by a hinge, shows only a haggard(憔悴的) and lanky(瘦长的) sight of her figure, and she leaves the house.
Returning ten minutes later with her stopgap (权宜的) shopping, she remembers to clear the mailbox. She skims(快速浏览) through the pile of letters and finds that most are sent to her for manuscripts. These publishers can be so pushy(热心的). She'll deal with them later.
Now for chapter five! Tea and biscuits at her hand, the heater at her feet, silence and the night screen like a
protective curtain all around her. She turns to the beginning to reread what she has finished and
regain the imagined world.
The first paragraph is only a working one, but it has, she feels, a good title to it: When Shadows Fall, by Donald Embley.
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考研英语生词表:
- simultaneously [,siməl´teinjəsli] ad.同时,一起 四级词汇
- stimulus [´stimjuləs] n.刺激(物);促进因素 四级词汇
- make-up [´meikʌp] n.构成;性格;虚构 四级词汇
- assimilate [ə´simileit] v.同化;吸收;消化 六级词汇
- undermine [,ʌndə´main] vt.在…下面掘地道 六级词汇
- conventional [kən´venʃənəl] a.常规的;协定的 四级词汇
- participation [pɑ:,tisi´peiʃən] n.参加,参与 六级词汇
- constructive [kən´strʌktiv] a.建设性的;推断的 四级词汇
- intact [in´tækt] a.未动过的,完整的 六级词汇
- socially [´səuʃəli] ad.社交上;社会上 六级词汇
- traditional [trə´diʃənəl] a.传统的,习惯的 四级词汇
- indirectly [,indi´rektli] a.间接地;迂回地 六级词汇
- northwestern [,nɔ:θ´westən] a.西北的;自西北的 四级词汇
- eastward [´i:stwəd] a.&ad.向东(的) 四级词汇
- dominant [´dɔminənt] a.统治的;占优势的 四级词汇
- respective [ri´spektiv] a.各自的,各个的 四级词汇
- vehicle [´vi:ikəl] n.车辆;媒介物 四级词汇
- obstruction [əb´strʌkʃən] n.阻塞;妨碍;障碍物 六级词汇
- untouched [ʌn´tʌtʃt] a.原样的;未触动过的 六级词汇
- biological [,baiə´lɔdʒikəl] a.生物学(上)的 六级词汇
- superiority [su:piəri´ɔriti, sju:-] n.优越,卓越 四级词汇
- impact [´impækt] n.影响,作用;冲击 六级词汇
- prevailing [pri´veiliŋ] a.占优势的;主要的 六级词汇
- indirect [,indi´rekt] a.间接的;迂回的 四级词汇
- good-looking [] a.漂亮的,美貌的 六级词汇
- trying [´traiiŋ] a.难堪的;费劲的 四级词汇
- intimacy [´intiməsi] n.亲密;熟悉;秘密 四级词汇
- exceptional [ik´sepʃənəl] a.异常的,特别的 四级词汇
- monotonous [mə´nɔtənəs] a.单(音)调的 四级词汇
- unused [,ʌn´ju:zd] a.不用的;未消耗的 六级词汇
- sorrowful [´sɔrəuful] a.悲伤的,使人伤心的 四级词汇
- bankrupt [´bæŋkrʌpt] n.破产者 a.破产了的 四级词汇
- anniversary [,æni´və:səri] n.周年纪念(日) 四级词汇
- lottery [´lɔtəri] n.抽彩,抓阄,彩票 六级词汇
- suburban [sə´bə:bən] a.郊区的 n.郊区居民 六级词汇
- busily [´bizili] ad.忙碌地 四级词汇
- aluminum [,ælju´miniəm, ,ælə´miniəm] n.铝 四级词汇
- intricate [´intrikit] a.错综复杂的;难懂的 四级词汇
- vertical [´və:tikəl] a.垂直的 n.垂直线 四级词汇
- librarian [lai´breəriən] n.图书馆管理员,馆长 六级词汇
- hardware [´hɑ:dweə] n.五金器皿 四级词汇
- blackness [´blæknis] n.黑色;阴险 四级词汇
- toothpaste [´tu:θpeist] n.牙膏 六级词汇
- robbery [´rɔbəri] n.抢劫(案);盗取 四级词汇
- urgent [´ə:dʒənt] a.急迫的,紧急的 四级词汇
- retired [ri´taiəd] a.退休的;通职的 六级词汇
- anonymous [ə´nɔniməs] a.不具名的;匿名的 六级词汇
- unlikely [ʌn´laikli] a.不像的;未必可能的 六级词汇
- taking [´teikiŋ] a.迷人的 n.捕获物 六级词汇
- imperative [im´perətiv] a.紧急的 n.命令式 四级词汇
- perspective [pə´spektiv] n.望远镜 a.透视的 六级词汇
- liability [,laiə´biliti] n.责任 负债 四级词汇
- happening [´hæpəniŋ] n.事件,偶然发生的事 四级词汇
- inviting [in´vaitiŋ] a.动人的 六级词汇
- surgery [´sə:dʒəri] n.外科;外科手术 四级词汇
- setting [´setiŋ] n.安装;排字;布景 四级词汇
- eventually [i´ventʃuəli] ad.最后,终于 四级词汇
- beating [´bi:tiŋ] n.敲;搅打;失败 六级词汇
- pneumonia [nju:´məuniə] n.肺炎 六级词汇
- snowstorm [´snəustɔ:m] n.暴风雪;雪暴 六级词汇
- repeatedly [ri´pi:tidli] ad.反复地;再三地 四级词汇
- attachment [ə´tætʃmənt] n.附着;附件;爱慕 四级词汇
- officially [ə´fiʃəli] ad.以职员身份;正式 四级词汇
- physically [´fizikəli] ad.按照自然规律 四级词汇
- indescribable [,indis´kraibəbəl] a.难以形容的 六级词汇
- virtually [´və:tʃuəli] ad.实际上,实质上 四级词汇
- segment [´segmənt] n.部分;段;弓形 六级词汇
- satellite [´sætəlait] n.(人造)卫星;随从 六级词汇
- transmission [trænz´miʃən, træns-] n.传送;播送;发射 六级词汇
- network [´netwə:k] n.网状物 vt.联播 四级词汇
- privacy [´praivəsi, -pri] n.隐退;独处;秘密 四级词汇
- terminal [´tə:minəl] n.终点(站) a.末端的 四级词汇
- psychological [,saikə´lɔdʒikəl] a.心理学(上)的 四级词汇
- transmit [trænz´mit, træns-] vt.传送;播送;发射 四级词汇
- widespread [´waidspred] a.广布的;普遍的 四级词汇
- varied [´veərid] a.各种各样的 四级词汇
- vacuum [´vækjuəm] n.真空;空间 六级词汇
- advancement [əd´vɑ:nsmənt] n.前进;促进;提升 四级词汇
- prevalent [´prevələnt] a.流行的;普遍的 四级词汇
- misunderstand [,misʌndə´stænd] vt.误会 六级词汇
- feasible [´fi:zibəl] a.可行的,可实行的 六级词汇
- outcome [´autkʌm] n.结果;后果;成果 四级词汇
- denial [di´naiəl] n.否认;拒绝 六级词汇
- departed [di´pɑ:tid] a.已往的;已故的 六级词汇
- vitality [vai´tæliti] n.活力;生命力;效力 四级词汇
- hopelessly [´həuplisli] ad.无希望地,绝望地 四级词汇
- porcelain [´pɔ:slin] n.瓷 a.瓷的;精美的 四级词汇
- fullness [´fulnis] n.满;充实;彻底 四级词汇
- fairness [´fɛənis] n.公正;晴朗 六级词汇
- magnitude [´mægnitju:d] n.宏大;重要性;大小 四级词汇
- frustration [frʌs´treiʃən] n.挫折,阻挠 六级词汇
- fragile [´frædʒail] a.易碎的;虚弱的 四级词汇
- leisurely [´leʒəli] a.从容地,慢慢地 四级词汇
- shrank [ʃræŋk] shrink的过去式 六级词汇
- bathroom [´bɑ:θrum, -ru:m] n.浴室;盥洗室 四级词汇
- graciously [´greiʃəsli] ad.仁慈地,和蔼庄重地 四级词汇
- lazily [´leizili] ad.懒惰地,慢吞吞地 六级词汇
- cracked [krækt] a.有裂缝的;碎的;粗哑 六级词汇
- lounge [laundʒ] n.懒洋洋的姿势;闲逛 四级词汇
- rigidly [´ridʒidli] ad.坚硬地;不易弯地 六级词汇
- vaguely [´veigli] ad.含糊地,暖昧地 四级词汇
- wardrobe [´wɔ:drəub] n.衣柜;全部服装 四级词汇
- protective [prə´tektiv] a.防护的;保护贸易的 四级词汇