stone he must have to
presume on my poor nerves!"
"Give me one minute more," I went on. "I propose to take you and
Alicia to-morrow morning to Scotland. Pray don't groan! I only
suggest the journey with a matrimonial object. In Scotland, Mrs.
Baggs, if a man and woman accept each other as husband and wife,
before one
witness, it is a
lawful marriage; and that kind of
wedding is, as you see
plainly enough, the only safe
refuge for a
bridegroom in my situation. If you consent to come with us to
Scotland, and serve as
witness to the marriage, I shall be
delighted to
acknowledge my sense of your kindness in the
eloquent language of the Bank of England, as expressed to the
world in general on the surface of a five-pound note."
I
cautiously snatched away the
brandy bottle as I spoke, and was
in the drawing-room with it in an
instant. As I suppose, Mrs.
Baggs tried to follow me, for I heard the door
rattle, as if she
had got out of her chair, and suddenly slipped back into it
again. I felt certain of her deciding to help us, if she was only
sober enough to
reflect on what I had said to her. The journey to
Scotland was a
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undertaking. But
I had no other
alternative to choose.
In those un
civilized days, the Marriage Act had not been passed,
and there was no
convenient hymeneal registrar in England to
change a
vagabondrunaway couple into a
respectable man and wife
at a moment's notice. The trouble and expense of
taking Mrs.
Baggs with us, I
encountered, of course,
solely out of regard for
Alicia's natural prejudices. She had led
precisely that kind of
life which makes any woman but a bad one morbidly
sensitive on
the subject of small proprieties. If she had been a girl with a
recognized position in society, I should have proposed to her to
run away with me alone. As it was, the very defenselessness of
her situation gave her, in my opinion, the right to expect from
me even the absurdest sacrifices to the narrowest
conventionalities. Mrs. Baggs was not quite so sober in her
habits, perhaps, as matrons in general are expected to be; but,
for my particular purpose, this was only a slight
blemish; it
takes so little, after all, to represent the
abstract principle
of
propriety in the short-sighted eye of the world.
As I reached the drawing-room door, I looked at my watch.
Nine o'clock! and nothing done yet to
facilitate our escaping
from Crickgelly to the regions of
civilized life the next
morning. I was pleased to hear, when I knocked at the door, that
Alicia's voice sounded firmer as she told me to come in. She was
more confused than astonished or frightened when I sat down by
her on the sofa, and
repeated the
principal topics of my
conversion with Mrs. Baggs.
"Now, my own love," I said, in conclusion--suiting my gestures,
it is unnecessary to say, to the
tenderness of my
language--"there is not the least doubt that Mrs. Baggs will end
by agreeing to my proposals. Nothing remains,
therefore, but for
you to give me the answer now, which I have been
waiting for ever
since that last day when we met by the
riverside. I did not know
then what the
motive was for your silence and
distress. I know
now, and I love you better after that knowledge than I did before
it."
Her head dropped into its former position on my bosom, and she
murmured a few words, but too
faintly for me to hear them.
"You knew more about your father, then, than I did?" I whispered.
"Less than you have told me since," she interposed quickly,
without raising her face.
"Enough to
convince you that he was breaking the laws," I
suggested; "and, to make you, as his daughter,
shrink from saying
'yes' to me when we sat together on the river bank?"
She did not answer. One of her arms, which was
hanging over my
shoulder, stole round my neck, and clasped it gently.
"Since that time," I went on, "your father has compromised me. I
am in some danger, not much, from the law. I have no
prospects
that are not of the most
doubtful kind; and I have no excuse for
asking you to share them, except that I have fallen into my
present
misfortune through
trying to discover the
obstacle that
kept us apart. If there is any
protection in the world that you
can turn to, less
doubtful than mine, I suppose I ought to say no
more, and leave the house. But if there should be none, surely I
am not so very
selfish in asking you to take your chance with me?
I
honestly believe that I shall have little difficulty, with
ordinary
caution, in escaping from
pursuit, and
finding a safe
home somewhere to begin life in again with new interests. Will
you share it with me, Alicia? I can try no fresh persuasions---I
have no right, perhaps, in my present situation to have addressed
so many to you already."
Her other arm stole round my neck; she laid her cheek against
mine, and whispered--
"Be kind to me, Frank--I have nobody in the world who loves me
but you!"
I felt her tears on my face; my own eyes moistened as I tried to
answer her. We sat for some minutes in perfect silence--without
moving, without a thought beyond the moment. The rising of the
wind, and the splashing of the rain outside were the first sounds
that stirred me into action again.
I summoned my
resolution, rose from the sofa, and in a few hasty
words told Alicia what I proposed for the next day, and mentioned
the hour at which I would come in the morning. As I had
anticipated, she seemed re lieved and reassured at the
prospecteven of such slight
sanction and
encouragement, on the part of
another woman, as would be implied by the
companionship of Mrs.
Baggs on the journey to Scotland.
The next and last difficulty I had to
encounter was necessarily
connected with her father. He had never been very
affectionate;
and he was now, for aught she or I knew to the
contrary, parted
from her forever. Still, the
instinctiverecognition of his
position made her
shrink, at the last moment, when she spoke of
him, and thought of the serious nature of her
engagement with me.
After some vain arguing and remonstrating, I contrived to quiet
her scruples, by
promising that an address should be left at
Crickgelly, to which any second letter that might arrive from the
doctor could be forwarded. When I saw that this
prospect of being
able to
communicate with him, if he wrote or wished to see her,
had
sufficientlycomposed her mind, I left the drawing-room. It
was vitally important that I should get back to the inn and make
the necessary arrangements for our
departure the next morning,
before the
primitive people of the place had
retired to bed.
As I passed the back
parlor door on my way out, I heard the voice
of Mrs. Baggs raised
indignantly. The words "bottle!" "audacity!"
and "nerves!" reached my ear disjointedly. I called out "Good-by!
till to-morrow;" heard a responsive groan of
disgust; then opened
the front door, and plunged out into the dark and rainy night.
It might have been the dropping of water from the
cottage roofs
while I passed through the village, or the groundless alarm of my
own
suspicious fancy, but I thought I was being followed as I
walked back to the inn. Two or three times I turned round
abruptly. If twenty men had been at my heels, it was too dark to
see them. I went on to the inn.
The people there were not gone to bed; and I sent for the
landlord to
consult with him about a
conveyance. Perhaps it was
my
suspicious fancy again; but I thought his manner was altered.
He seemed half distrustful, half afraid of me, when I asked him
if there had been any signs, during my
absence, of those two
gentlemen, for whom I had already inquired on arriving at his
door that evening. He gave an answer in the
negative, looking
away from me while he spoke.
Thinking it
advisable, on the whole, not to let him see that I
noticed a change in him, I proceeded at once to the question of
the
conveyance, and was told that I could hire the
landlord's
light cart, in which he was accustomed to drive to the market
town. I appointed an hour for starting the next day, and
retiredat once to my bedroom. There my thoughts were enough. I was
anxious about Screw and the Bow Street
runner. I was uncertain