independence, what
assured, what perfect conditions! Oh for a lone
isle in a tepid sea!"
"Isn't this practically a lone isle, and aren't you, as an
encircling
medium, tepid enough?" he asked, alluding with a laugh
to the wonder of my young
admiration and the narrow limits of his
little
provincial home. "Time isn't what I've lacked hitherto:
the question hasn't been to find it, but to use it. Of course my
illness made, while it lasted, a great hole - but I dare say there
would have been a hole at any rate. The earth we tread has more
pockets than a billiard-table. The great thing is now to keep on
my feet."
"That's exactly what I mean."
Neil Paraday looked at me with eyes - such pleasant eyes as he had
- in which, as I now recall their expression, I seem to have seen a
dim
imagination of his fate. He was fifty years old, and his
illness had been cruel, his convalescence slow. "It isn't as if I
weren't all right."
"Oh if you weren't all right I wouldn't look at you!" I tenderly
said.
We had both got up, quickened as by this clearer air, and he had
lighted a cigarette. I had taken a fresh one, which with an
intenser smile, by way of answer to my
exclamation, he
applied to
the flame of his match. "If I weren't better I shouldn't have
thought of THAT!" He flourished his
script in his hand.
"I don't want to be discouraging, but that's not true," I returned.
"I'm sure that during the months you lay here in pain you had
visitations
sublime. You thought of a thousand things. You think
of more and more all the while. That's what makes you, if you'll
pardon my
familiarity, so
respectable. At a time when so many
people are spent you come into your second wind. But, thank God,
all the same, you're better! Thank God, too, you're not, as you
were telling me
yesterday, 'successful.' If YOU weren't a failure
what would be the use of
trying? That's my one reserve on the
subject of your
recovery - that it makes you 'score,' as the
newspapers say. It looks well in the newspapers, and almost
anything that does that's
horrible. 'We are happy to announce that
Mr. Paraday, the
celebrated author, is again in the
enjoyment of
excellent health.' Somehow I shouldn't like to see it."
"You won't see it; I'm not in the least
celebrated - my obscurity
protects me. But couldn't you bear even to see I was dying or
dead?" my host enquired.
"Dead - passe encore; there's nothing so safe. One never knows
what a living artist may do - one has mourned so many. However,
one must make the worst of it. You must be as dead as you can."
"Don't I meet that condition in having just published a book?"
"Adequately, let us hope; for the book's
verily a masterpiece."
At this moment the parlour-maid appeared in the door that opened
from the garden: Paraday lived at no great cost, and the frisk of
petticoats, with a timorous "Sherry, sir?" was about his modest
mahogany. He allowed half his
income to his wife, from whom he had
succeeded in separating without redundancy of legend. I had a
general faith in his having behaved well, and I had once, in
London, taken Mrs. Paraday down to dinner. He now turned to speak
to the maid, who offered him, on a tray, some card or note, while,
agitated, excited, I wandered to the end of the
precinct. The idea
of his
security became supremely dear to me, and I asked myself if
I were the same young man who had come down a few days before to
scatter him to the four winds. When I retraced my steps he had
gone into the house, and the woman - the second London post had
come in - had placed my letters and a newspaper on a bench. I sat
down there to the letters, which were a brief business, and then,
without heeding the address, took the paper from its
envelope. It
was the
journal of highest
renown, THE EMPIRE of that morning. It
regularly came to Paraday, but I remembered that neither of us had
yet looked at the copy already delivered. This one had a great
mark on the "editorial" page, and, uncrumpling the wrapper, I saw
it to be directed to my host and stamped with the name of his
publishers. I
instantly divined that THE EMPIRE had
spoken of him,
and I've not forgotten the odd little shock of the circumstance.
It checked all
eagerness and made me drop the paper a moment. As I
sat there
conscious of a palpitation I think I had a
vision of what
was to be. I had also a
vision of the letter I would
presentlyaddress to Mr. Pinhorn, breaking, as it were, with Mr. Pinhorn. Of
course, however, the next minute the voice of THE EMPIRE was in my
ears.
The article wasn't, I thanked heaven, a
review; it was a "leader,"
the last of three, presenting Neil Paraday to the human race. His
new book, the fifth from his hand, had been but a day or two out,
and THE EMPIRE, already aware of it, fired, as if on the birth of a
prince, a
salute of a whole
column. The guns had been booming
these three hours in the house without our suspecting them. The
big blundering newspaper had discovered him, and now he was
proclaimed and anointed and crowned. His place was assigned him as
publicly as if a fat usher with a wand had
pointed to the topmost
chair; he was to pass up and still up, higher and higher, between
the watching faces and the
envious sounds - away up to the dais and
the
throne. The article was "epoch-making," a
landmark in his
life; he had taken rank at a bound, waked up a national glory. A
national glory was needed, and it was an
immenseconvenience he was
there. What all this meant rolled over me, and I fear I grew a
little faint - it meant so much more than I could say "yea" to on
the spot. In a flash, somehow, all was different; the tremendous
wave I speak of had swept something away. It had knocked down, I
suppose, my little
customary altar, my twinkling tapers and my
flowers, and had reared itself into the
likeness of a
temple vast
and bare. When Neil Paraday should come out of the house he would
come out a
contemporary. That was what had happened: the poor man
was to be squeezed into his
horrible age. I felt as if he had been
overtaken on the crest of the hill and brought back to the city. A
little more and he would have dipped down the short cut to
posterity and escaped.
CHAPTER IV.
WHEN he came out it was exactly as if he had been in
custody, for
beside him walked a stout man with a big black beard, who, save
that he wore spectacles, might have been a
policeman, and in whom
at a second glance I recognised the highest
contemporaryenterprise.
"This is Mr. Morrow," said Paraday, looking, I thought, rather
white: "he wants to publish heaven knows what about me."
I winced as I remembered that this was exactly what I myself had
wanted. "Already?" I cried with a sort of sense that my friend had
fled to me for protection.
Mr. Morrow glared, agreeably, through his glasses: they suggested
the electric headlights of some
monstrous modem ship, and I felt as
if Paraday and I were tossing terrified under his bows. I saw his
momentum was
irresistible. "I was
confident that I should be the
first in the field. A great interest is naturally felt in Mr.
Paraday's surroundings," he heavily observed.
"I hadn't the least idea of it," said Paraday, as if he had been
told he had been snoring.
"I find he hasn't read the article in THE EMPIRE," Mr. Morrow
remarked to me. "That's so very interesting - it's something to
start with," he smiled. He had begun to pull off his gloves, which
were
violently new, and to look encouragingly round the little
garden. As a "surrounding" I felt how I myself had already been
taken in; I was a little fish in the
stomach of a bigger one. "I
represent," our
visitor continued, "a
syndicate of influential
journals, no less than thirty-seven, whose public - whose publics,
I may say - are in
peculiarsympathy with Mr. Paraday's line of
thought. They would greatly
appreciate any expression of his views
on the subject of the art he so nobly exemplifies. In
addition to