to dine with me, alas! only eight days before he died.
Motley was a singularly pleasant fellow. My friendship with
him began over a
volume of Sir W. Hamilton's Lectures. He
asked what I was
reading - I handed him the book.
'A-h,' said he, 'there's no
mental gymnastic like
metaphysics.'
Many a battle we afterwards had over them. When I was at
Cannes in 1877 I got a message from him one day
saying he was
ill, and asking me to come and see him. He did not say how
ill, so I put off going. Two days after I heard he was dead.
Merimee's cynicism rather alarmed one. He was a capital
caricaturist, though, to our
astonishment, he
assured us he
had never drawn, or used a colour-box, till late in life. He
had now
learnt to use it, in a way that did not invariably
give
satisfaction. Landseer always struck me as sensitive
and proud, a Diogenes-tempered individual who had been spoilt
by the toadyism of great people. He was
agreeable if made
much of, or almost
equally so if others were made little of.
But of all those named, surely John Lawrence was the
greatest. I wish I had read his life before it ended. Yet,
without
knowing anything more of him than that he was Chief
Commissioner of the Punjab, which did not
convey much to my
understanding, one felt the
greatness of the man beneath his
calm
simplicity. One day the party went out for a deer-
drive; I was instructed to place Sir John in the pass below
mine. To my disquietude he wore a black
overcoat. I
assuredhim that not a stag would come within a mile of us, unless he
covered himself with a grey plaid, or hid behind a large rock
there was, where I
assured him he would see nothing.
'Have the deer to pass me before they go on to you?' he
asked.
'Certainly they have,' said I; 'I shall be up there above
you.'
'Well then,' was his answer, 'I'll get behind the rock - it
will be more snug out of the wind.'
One might as well have asked the deer not to see him, as try
to
persuade John Lawrence not to sacrifice himself for
others. That he did so here was certain, for the deer came
within fifty yards of him, but he never fired a shot.
Another of the Indian viceroys was the
innocent occasion of
great
discomfort to me, or rather his wife was. Lady Elgin
had left behind her a
valuable diamond
necklace. I was going
back to my private tutor at Ely a few days after, and the
necklace was entrusted to me to deliver to its owner on my
way through London. There was no railway then further north
than Darlington, except that between Edinburgh and Glasgow.
When I reached Edinburgh by coach from Inverness, my
portmanteau was not to be found. The
necklace was in a
despatch-box in my portmanteau; and by an
unlucky oversight,
I had put my purse into my despatch-box. What was to be
done? I was a lad of seventeen, in a town where I did not
know a soul, with seven or eight shillings at most in my
pocket. I had to break my journey and to stop where I was
till I could get news of the
necklace; this alone was clear
to me, for the
necklace was the one thing I cared for.
At the coach office all the comfort I could get was that the
lost
luggage might have gone on to Glasgow; or, what was more
probable, might have gone
astray at Burntisland. It might
not have been put on board, or it might not have been taken
off the ferry-steamer. This could not be known for twenty-
four hours, as there was no boat to or from Burntisland till
the
morrow. I
decided to try Glasgow. A return third-class
ticket left me without a
copper. I went, found nothing, got
back to Edinburgh at 10 P.M., ravenously hungry, dead tired,
and so frightened about the
necklace that food, bed, means of
continuing my journey, were as mere death compared with
irreparable dishonour. What would they all think of me? How
could I prove that I had not
stolen the diamonds? Would Lord
Elgin
accuse me? How could I have been such an idiot as to
leave them in my portmanteau! Some
rascal might break it
open, and then, goodbye to my chance for ever! Chance? what
chance was there of
seeing that
luggage again? There were so
many 'mights.' I couldn't even swear that I had seen it on
the coach at Inverness. Oh dear! oh dear! What was to be
done? I walked about the streets; I glanced woefully at
door-steps,
whereon to pass the night; I gazed piteously
through the windows of a cheap cook's shop, where solid
wedges of baked
pudding, that would have stopped digestion
for a month, were advertised for a penny a block. How rich
should I have been if I had had a penny in my pocket! But I
had to turn away in despair.
At last the
inspiration came. I remembered
hearing Mr.
Ellice say that he always put up at Douglas' Hotel when he
stayed in Edinburgh. I had very little hope of success, but
I was too
miserable to
hesitate. It was very late, and
everybody might be gone to bed. I rang the bell. 'I want to
see the
landlord.'
'Any name?' the
porter asked.
'No.' The
landlord came, fat,
amiable looking. 'May I speak
to you in private?' He showed the way to an
unoccupied room.
'I think you know Mr. Ellice?'
'Glenquoich, do you mean?'
'Yes.'
'Oh, very well - he always stays here on his way through.'
'I am his step-son; I left Glenquoich
yesterday. I have lost
my
luggage, and am left without any money. Will you lend me
five pounds?' I believe if I were in the same
strait now,
and entered any strange hotel in the United Kingdom at half-
past ten at night, and asked the
landlord to give me five
pounds upon a similar
security, he would laugh in my face, or
perhaps give me in
charge of a policeman.
My host of Douglas' did neither; but opened both his heart
and his pocket-book, and with the greatest good
humour handed
me the requested sum. What good people there are in this
world, which that crusty old Sir Peter Teazle calls 'a d-d
wicked one.' I poured out all my trouble to the generous
man. He ordered me an excellent supper, and a very nice
room. And on the following day, after
taking a great deal of
trouble, he recovered my lost
luggage and the priceless
treasure it contained. It was a proud and happy moment when
I returned his loan, and convinced him, of what he did not
seem to doubt, that I was
positively not a swindler.
But the roofless night and the empty belly,
consequent on an
empty pocket, was a lesson which I trust was not thrown away
upon me. It did not occur to me to do so, but I certainly
might have picked a pocket, if - well, if I had been brought
up to it. Honesty, as I have often thought since, is dirt
cheap if only one can afford it.
Before departing from my
beloved Glenquoich, I must pay a
passing
tribute to the
remarkable qualities of Mrs. Edward
Ellice and of her youngest sister Mrs. Robert Ellice, the
mother of the present member for St. Andrews. It was, in a
great
measure, the bright
intelligence, the rare tact, and
social gifts of these two ladies that made this beautiful
Highland
resort so
attractive to all comers.
CHAPTER XXXVIII
THE winter of 1854-55 I spent in Rome. Here I made the
ac
quaintance of Leighton, then six-and-twenty. I saw a good
deal of him, as I lived almost entirely
amongst the artists,
taking lessons myself in water colours of Leitch. Music also
brought us into
contact. He had a beautiful voice, and used
to sing a good deal with Mrs. Sartoris - Adelaide Kemble -
whom he greatly admired, and whose
portrait is painted under
a monk's cowl, in the Cimabue procession.