part of the Mediterranean.
Lisbon was
presently fixed on in its room. The air here, as it
was near four degrees to the south of Aix, must be more mild and
warm, and the winter shorter and less piercing.
It was not difficult to find a ship bound to a place with which
we carry on so
immense a trade. Accordingly, my brother soon
informed me of the excellent accommodations for passengers which
were to be found on board a ship that was obliged to sail for
Lisbon in three days. I
eagerly embraced the offer,
notwithstanding the shortness of the time; and, having given my
brother full power to contract for our passage, I began to
prepare my family for the
voyage with the
utmost expedition.
But our great haste was
needless; for the captain having twice
put off his sailing, I at length invited him to dinner with me at
Fordhook, a full week after the time on which he had declared,
and that with many asseverations, he must and would weigh
anchor.
He dined with me according to his appointment; and when all
matters were settled between us, left me with
positive orders to
be on board the Wednesday following, when he declared he would
fall down the river to Gravesend, and would not stay a moment for
the greatest man in the world. He advised me to go to Gravesend
by land, and there wait the
arrival of his ship, assigning many
reasons for this, every one of which was, as I well remember,
among those that had before determined me to go on board near the Tower.
THE VOYAGE
WEDNESDAY, June 26, 1754.--On this day the most
melancholy sun I
had ever
beheld arose, and found me awake at my house at
Fordhook. By the light of this sun I was, in my own opinion,
last to behold and take leave of some of those creatures on whom
I doted with a mother-like
fondness, guided by nature and
passion, and uncured and unhardened by all the
doctrine of that
philosophical school where I had
learned to bear pains and to
despise death. In this situation, as I could not
conquer Nature,
I submitted entirely to her, and she made as great a fool of me
as she had ever done of any woman
whatsoever; under pretense of
giving me leave to enjoy, she drew me in to suffer, the company
of my little ones during eight hours; and I doubt not whether, in
that time, I did not
undergo more than in all my distemper.
At twelve
precisely my coach was at the door, which was no sooner
told me than I kissed my children round, and went into it with
some little
resolution. My wife, who behaved more like a heroine
and
philosopher, though at the same time the tenderest mother in
the world, and my
eldest daughter, followed me; some friends went
with us, and others here took their leave; and I heard my
behavior applauded, with many murmurs and praises to which I well
knew I had no title; as all other such
philosophers may, if they
have any
modesty,
confess on the like occasions.
In two hours we arrived in Rotherhithe, and immediately went on
board, and were to have sailed the next morning; but, as this was
the king's proclamation-day, and
consequently a
holiday at the
custom-house, the captain could not clear his
vessel till the
Thursday; for these
holidays are as
strictly observed as those in
the popish
calendar, and are almost as numerous. I might add
that both are opposite to the
genius of trade, and
consequentlycontra bonum publicum.
To go on board the ship it was necessary first to go into a boat;
a matter of no small difficulty, as I had no use of my limbs, and
was to be carried by men who, though
sufficiently strong for
their burden, were, like Archimedes, puzzled to find a steady
footing. Of this, as few of my readers have not gone into
wherries on the Thames, they will easily be able to form to
themselves an idea. However, by the
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assistance of my friend, Mr.
Welch, whom I never think or speak of but with love and
esteem, I
conquered this difficulty, as I did afterwards that of ascending
the ship, into which I was hoisted with more ease by a chair
lifted with pulleys. I was soon seated in a great chair in the
cabin, to
refresh myself after a
fatigue which had been more
intolerable, in a quarter of a mile's passage from my coach to
the ship, than I had before
undergone in a land-journey of twelve
miles, which I had
traveled with the
utmost expedition.
This latter
fatigue was, perhaps, somewhat heightened by an
indignation which I could not prevent arising in my mind. I
think, upon my entrance into the boat, I presented a
spectacle of
the highest
horror. The total loss of limbs was
apparent to all
who saw me, and my face contained marks of a most
diseased state,
if not of death itself. Indeed, so
ghastly was my countenance,
that timorous women with child had abstained from my house, for
fear of the ill consequences of looking at me. In this condition
I ran the gauntlope (so I think I may
justly call it) through
rows of sailors and watermen, few of whom failed of paying their
compliments to me by all manner of insults and jests on my
misery. No man who knew me will think I conceived any personal
resentment at this
behavior; but it was a
lively picture of that
cruelty and inhumanity in the nature of men which I have often
contemplated with concern, and which leads the mind into a train
of very
uncomfortable and
melancholy thoughts. It may be said
that this
barbarous custom is
peculiar to the English, and of
them only to the lowest degree; that it is an excrescence of an
uncontrolled licentiousness
mistaken for liberty, and never shows
itself in men who are polished and
refined in such manner as
human nature requires to produce that
perfection of which it is
susceptible, and to purge away that malevolence of
disposition of
which, at our birth, we
partake in common with the savage
creation. This may be said, and this is all that can be said;
and it is, I am afraid, but little
satisfactory to
account for
the inhumanity of those who, while they boast of being made after
God's own image, seem to bear in their minds a
resemblance of the
vilest
species of brutes; or rather, indeed, of our idea of
devils; for I don't know that any brutes can be taxed with such
malevolence. A sirloin of beef was now placed on the table, for
which, though little better than carrion, as much was charged by
the master of the little paltry ale-house who dressed it as would
have been demanded for all the
elegance of the King's Arms, or
any other
politetavern or eating-house! for, indeed, the
difference between the best house and the worst is, that at the
former you pay largely for
luxury, at the latter for nothing.
Thursday, June 27.--This morning the captain, who lay on shore at
his own house, paid us a visit in the cabin, and behaved like an
angry bashaw, declaring that, had he known we were not to be
pleased, he would not have carried us for five hundred pounds.
He added many asseverations that he was a gentleman, and despised
money; not forgetting several hints of the presents which had
been made him for his cabin, of twenty, thirty, and forty
guineas, by several gentlemen, over and above the sum for which
they had
contracted. This
behavior greatly surprised me, as I
knew not how to
account for it, nothing having happened since we
parted from the captain the evening before in perfect good humor;
and all this broke forth on the first moment of his
arrival this
morning. He did not, however, suffer my
amazement to have any
long
continuance before he clearly showed me that all this was
meant only as an
apology to introduce another procrastination
(being the fifth) of his weighing
anchor, which was now postponed
till Saturday, for such was his will and pleasure.
Besides the
disagreeable situation in which we then lay, in the
confines of Wapping and Rotherhithe, tasting a
delicious mixture
of the air of both these sweet places, and enjoying the concord
of sweet sounds of seamen, watermen, fish-women, oyster-women,
and of all the vociferous inhabitants of both shores, composing
altogether a greater
variety of
harmony than Hogarth's
imagination hath brought together in that print of his, which is
enough to make a man deaf to look at--I had a more
urgent cause
to press our
departure, which was, that the dropsy, for which I
had
undergone three tappings, seemed to
threaten me with a fourth
discharge before I should reach Lisbon, and when I should have
nobody on board
capable of performing the operation; but I was
obliged to
hearken to the voice of reason, if I may use the
captain's own words, and to rest myself
contented. Indeed, there
was no
alternative within my reach but what would have cost me
much too dear. There are many evils in society from which people
of the highest rank are so entirely
exempt, that they have not