obtained me of her for a present. The scene was now totally
changed, and I had as much reason to be satisfied with my present
situation as I had to
lament my former. I was so
absolutely my
master's favorite, that the rest of the slaves paid me almost as
much regard as they showed to him, well
knowing that it was
entirely in my power to command and treat them as I pleased. I
was intrusted with all my master's secrets, and used to assist
him in
privately conveying away by night the sacrifices from the
altars, which the people believed the deities themselves
devoured. Upon these we feasted very elegantly, nor could
invention suggest a rarity which we did not pamper ourselves
with. Perhaps you may admire at the close union between this
priest and his slave, but we lived in an
intimacy which the
Christians thought
criminal; but my master, who knew the will of
the gods, with whom he told me he often conversed,
assured me it
was
perfectly innocent.
"This happy life continued about four years, when my master's
death, occasioned by a surfeit got by overfeeding on several
exquisite dainties, put an end to it.
"I now fell into the hands of one of a very different
disposition, and this was no other than the
celebrated St.
Chrysostom, who dieted me with sermons instead of sacrifices, and
filled my ears with good things, but not my belly. Instead of
high food to
fatten and pamper my flesh, I had receipts to
mortify and reduce it. With these I edified so well, that within
a few months I became a
skeleton. However, as he had converted
me to his faith, I was well enough satisfied with this new manner
of living, by which he taught me I might
insure myself an eternal
reward in a future state. The saint was a
good-natured man, and
never gave me an ill word but once, which was occasioned by my
neglecting to place Aristophanes, which was his constant
bedfellow, on his pillow. He was, indeed,
extremely fond of that
Greek poet, and frequently made me read his comedies to him.
When I came to any of the loose passages he would smile, and say,
'It was pity his matter was not as pure as his style;' of which
latter he was so immoderately fond that,
notwithstanding the
detestation he expressed for obscenity, he hath made me repeat
those passages ten times over. The
character of this good man
hath been very unjustly attacked by his
heathen contemporaries,
particularly with regard to women; but his
severe invectives
against that sex are his sufficient justification.
"From the service of this saint, from whom I received
manumission, I entered into the family of Timasius, a leader of
great
eminence in the
imperial army, into whose favor I so far
insinuated myself that he preferred me to a good command, and
soon made me partaker of both his company and his secrets. I
soon grew intoxicated with this preferment, and the more he
loaded me with benefits the more he raised my opinion of my own
merit, which, still outstripping the
rewards he conferred on me,
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dissatisfaction than
gratitude. And
thus, by preferring me beyond my merit or first
expectation, he
made me an
envious aspiring enemy, whom perhaps a more moderate
bounty would have preserved a dutiful servant.
"I fell now acquainted with one Lucilius, a creature of the prime
minister Eutropius, who had by his favor been raised to the post
of a
tribune; a man of low morals, and
eminent only in that
meanest of qualities,
cunning. This gentleman, imagining me a
fit tool for the
minister's purpose, having often sounded my
principles of honor and
honesty, both which he declared to me
were words without meaning, and
finding my ready concurrence in
his sentiments, recommended me to Eutropius as very proper to
execute some
wicked purposes he had contrived against my frend
Timasius. The
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recommendation, and I was
accordingly acquainted by Lucilius (after some
previous accounts
of the great
esteem Eutropius entertained of me, from the
testimony he had borne of my parts) that he would introduce me to
him; adding that he was a great encourager of merit, and that I
might depend upon his favor.
"I was with little difficulty prevailed on to accept of this
invitation. A late hour
therefore the next evening being
appointed, I attended my friend Lucilius to the
minister's house.
He received me with the
utmostcivility and
cheerfulness, and
affected so much regard to me, that I, who knew nothing of these
high scenes of life, concluded I had in him a most disinterested
friend, owing to the
favorable report which Lucilius had made of
me. I was however soon cured of this opinion; for immediately
after supper our
discourse turned on the
injustice which the
generality of the world were
guilty of in their conduct to great
men, expecting that they should
reward their private merit,
without ever endeavoring to apply it to their use. 'What avail,'
said Eutropius, 'the
learning, wit, courage, or any
virtue which
a man may be possessed of, to me, unless I receive some benefit
from them? Hath he not more merit to me who doth my business and
obeys my commands, without any of these qualities?' I gave such
entire
satisfaction in my answers on this head, that both the
minister and his creature grew bolder, and after some preface
began to
accuse Timasius. At last,
finding I did not attempt to
defend him, Lucilius swore a great oath that he was not fit to
live, and that he would destroy him. Eutropius answered that it
would be too dangerous a task: 'Indeed,' says he, 'his crimes
are of so black a dye, and so well known to the
emperor, that his
death must be a very
acceptable service, and could not fail
meeting a proper
reward: but I question whether you are capable
of executing it.' 'If he is not,' cried I, 'I am; and surely no
man can have greater motives to destroy him than myself: for,
besides his disloyalty to my
prince, for whom I have so perfect a
duty, I have private disobligations to him. I have had fellows
put over my head, to the great
scandal of the service in general,
and to my own
prejudice and
disappointment in particular.' I
will not repeat you my whole speech; but, to be as
concise as
possible, when we parted that evening the
minister squeezed me
heartily by the hand, and with great
commendation of my
honestyand assurances of his favor, he appointed me the next evening to
come to him alone; when,
finding me, after a little more
scrutiny, ready for his purpose, he proposed to me to
accuseTimasius of high
treason,
promising me the highest
rewards if I
would
undertake it. The
consequence to him, I suppose you know,
was ruin; but what was it to me? Why, truly, when I waited on
Eutropius for the fulfilling his promises, received me with great
distance and
coldness; and, on my dropping some hints of my
expectations from him, he
affected not to understand me; saying
he thought
impunity was the
utmost I could hope for on
discovering my accomplice, whose
offense was only greater than
mine, as he was in a higher station; and telling me he had great
difficulty to
obtain a
pardon for me from the
emperor, which he
said, he had struggled very hardly for, as he had worked the
discovery out of me. He turned away, and addressed himself to
another person.
"I was so incensed at this
treatment, that I
resolvedrevenge,
and should certainly have pursued it, had he not cautiously
prevented me by
taking effectual means to
despatch me soon after
out of the world.
"You will, I believe, now think I had a second good chance for
the bottomless pit, and indeed Minos seemed inclined to tumble me
in, till he was informed of the
revenge taken on me by Roderic,
and my seven years'
subsequentservitude to the widow; which he
thought sufficient to make atonement for all the crimes a single
life could admit of, and so sent me back to try my fortune a
third time."
CHAPTER XI
In which Julian relates his adventures in the
character of an
avaricious Jew.
"The next
character in which I was destined to appear in the
flesh was that of an avaricious Jew. I was born in Alexandria in
Egypt. My name was Balthazar. Nothing very
remarkable happened