shall pay me five per cent interest, but no share of the
profits."
On these terms we dissolved the
partnership and in a year they
had lost the ?00,000, for the slump came with a
vengeance. It
saved them, however, and to-day they are earning a reasonable
income. But I have never asked them for that ?00,000.
Chapter II
Bastin and Bickley
Behold me once more a man without an
occupation, but now the
possessor of about ?00,000. It was a very
considerable fortune,
if not a large one in England; nothing like the millions of which
I had dreamed, but still enough. To make the most of it and to
be sure that it remained, I invested it very well,
mostly in
large mortgages at four per cent which, if the
security is good,
do not depreciate in capital value. Never again did I touch a
single
speculative stock, who desired to think no more about
money. It was at this time that I bought the Fulcombe property.
It cost me about ?20,000 of my capital, or with alterations,
repairs, etc., say ?50,000, on which sum it may pay a net two
and a half per cent, not more.
This ?,700 odd I have always
devoted to the upkeep of the
place, which is
therefore in first-rate order. The rest I live
on, or save.
These arrangements, with the beautifying and furnishing of the
house and the
restoration of the church in memory of my father,
occupied and amused me for a year or so, but when they were
finished time began to hang heavy on my hands. What was the use
of possessing about ?0,000 a year when there was nothing upon
which it could be spent? For after all my own wants were few and
simple and the
acquisition of
valuable pictures and costly
furniture is
limited by space. Oh! in my small way I was like
the weary King Ecclesiast. For I too made me great works and had
possessions of great and small cattle (I tried farming and lost
money over it!) and gathered me silver and gold and the peculiar
treasure of kings, which I
presume means
whatever a man in
authority
chiefly desires, and so forth. But "behold all was
vanity and
vexation of spirit, and there was no profit under the
sun."
So,
notwithstanding my
wealth and health and the deference
which is the rich man's
portion, especially when the limit of his
riches is not known, it came about that I too "hated life," and
this when I was not much over thirty. I did not know what to do;
for Society as the word is generally understood, I had no taste;
it bored me; horse-racing and cards I loathed, who had already
gambled too much on a big scale. The killing of creatures under
the name of sport palled upon me, indeed I began to doubt if it
were right, while the office of a
junior county magistrate in a
place where there was no crime, only occupied me an hour or two a
month.
Lastly my neighbours were few and with all due deference to
them,
extremely dull. At least I could not understand them
because in them there did not seem to be anything to understand,
and I am quite certain that they did not understand me. More,
when they came to learn that I was
radical in my views and had
written certain "dreadful" and somewhat
socialistic books in the
form of
fiction, they both feared and mistrusted me as an enemy
to their particular section of the race. As I had not married and
showed no
inclination to do so, their womenkind also, out of
their
intimate knowledge, proclaimed that I led an immoral life,
though a little
reflection would have shown them that there was
no one in the neighbourhood which for a time I seldom left, who
could possibly have tempted an educated creature to such courses.
Terrible is the lot of a man who, while still young and
possessing the
intellect necessary to
achievement, is deprived of
all
ambition. And I had none at all. I did not even wish to
purchase a peerage or a baronetcy in this fashion or in that,
and, as in my father's case, my tastes were so many and so
catholic that I could not lose myself in any one of them. They
never became more than diversions to me. A hobby is only really
amusing when it becomes an obsession.
At length my
lonesomefriendliness oppressed me so much that I
took steps to mitigate it. In my college life I had two
particular friends whom I think I must have selected because they
were so
absolutely different from myself.
They were named Bastin and Bickley. Bastin--Basil was his
Christian name--was an
uncouth, shock-headed, flat-footed person
of large,
rugged frame and
equallyruggedhonesty, with a mind
almost
incredibly simple. Nothing surprised him because he lacked
the
faculty of surprise. He was like that kind of fish which lies
at the bottom of the sea and takes every kind of food into its
great maw without distinguishing its flavour. Metaphorically
speaking,
heavenly manna and decayed
cabbage were just the same
to Bastin. He was not fastidious and both were
mental pabulum--of
a sort--together with
whatever lay between these extremes. Yet he
was good, so
painfully good that one felt that without exertion
to himself he had booked a
first-class ticket straight to Heaven;
indeed that his
guardian angel had tied it round his neck at
birth lest he should lose it, already numbered and dated like an
identification disc.
I am bound to add that Bastin never went wrong because he never
felt the slightest
temptation to do so. This I suppose
constitutes real
virtue, since, in view of certain Bible
sayings,
the person who is tempted and would like to yield to the
temptation, is
equally a
sinner with the person who does yield.
To be truly good one should be too good to be tempted, or too
weak to make the effort worth the tempter's while--in short not
deserving of his powder and shot.
I need hardly add that Bastin went into the Church; indeed, he
could not have gone
anywhere else; it absorbed him naturally, as
doubtless Heaven will do in due course. Only I think it likely
that until they get to know him he will bore the angels so much
that they will
continually move him up higher. Also if they have
any susceptibilities left, probably he will tread upon their
toes--an art in which I never knew his equal. However, I always
loved Bastin, perhaps because no one else did, a fact of which he
remained
totallyunconscious, or perhaps because of his
brutalway of telling one what he conceived to be the truth, which, as
he had less
imagination than a dormouse, generally it was not.
For if the truth is a jewel, it is one coloured and veiled by
many different lights and atmospheres.
It only remains to add that he was
learned in his
theologicalfashion and that among his further peculiarities were the slow,
monotonous voice in which he uttered his views in long sentences,
and his total
indifference to
adverseargument however sound and
convincing.
My other friend, Bickley, was a person of a quite different
character. Like Bastin, he was
learned, but his tendencies faced
another way. If Bastin's omnivorous
throat could
swallow a camel,
especially a
theological camel, Bickley's would
strain at the
smallest gnat, especially a
theological gnat. The very best and
most
upright of men, yet he believed in nothing that he could not
taste, see or handle. He was convinced, for
instance, that man is
a brute-descended accident and no more, that what we call the
soul or the mind is produced by a certain action of the grey
matter of the brain; that everything
apparentlyinexplicable has
a
perfectly mundane
explanation, if only one could find it; that
miracles certainly never did happen, and never will; that all
religions are the fruit of human hopes and fears and the most
convincing proof of human
weakness; that
notwithstanding our
infinite variations we are the subjects of Nature's single law
and the victims of blind, black and
brutal chance.
Such was Bickley with his clever, well-cut face that always
reminded me of a cameo, and
thoughtful brow; his strong, capable
hands and his rather steely mouth, the mere set of which
suggested
controversy of an uncompromising kind. Naturally as the