the
valley in the tone of my own thoughts. The fields were bare, the
leaves of the poplars falling, the few that remained were rusty, the
vine-stalks were burned, the tops of the trees were tan-colored, like
the robes in which
royalty once clothed itself as if to hide the
purple of its power beneath the brown of grief. Still in
harmony with
my thoughts, the
valley, where the yellow rays of the
setting sun were
coldly dying, seemed to me a living image of my heart.
To leave a
beloved woman is terrible or natural, according as the mind
takes it. For my part, I found myself suddenly in a strange land of
which I knew not the language. I was
unable to lay hold of things to
which my soul no longer felt
attachment" target="_blank" title="n.附着;附件;爱慕">
attachment. Then it was that the height
and the
breadth of my love came before me; my Henriette rose in all
her
majesty in this desert where I existed only through thoughts of
her. That form so worshipped made me vow to keep myself spotless
before my soul's
divinity, to wear ideally the white robe of the
Levite, like Petrarch, who never entered Laura's presence unless
clothed in white. With what
impatience I awaited the first night of my
return to my father's roof, when I could read the letter which I felt
of during the journey as a miser fingers the bank-bills he carries
about him. During the night I kissed the paper on which my Henriette
had manifested her will; I sought to gather the
mysterious emanations
of her hand, to recover the intonations of her voice in the hush of my
being. Since then I have never read her letters except as I read that
first letter; in bed, amid total silence. I cannot understand how the
letters of our
beloved can be read in any other way; yet there are
men,
worthy" target="_blank" title="a.不值得的;不足道的">
unworthy to be loved, who read such letters in the
turmoil of the
day, laying them aside and
taking them up again with
odious composure.
Here, Natalie, is the voice which echoed through the silence of that
night. Behold the noble figure which stood before me and
pointed to
the right path among the cross-ways at which I stood.
To Monsieur le Vicomte Felix de Vandenesse:
What happiness for me, dear friend, to gather the scattered
elements of my experience that I may arm you against the dangers
of the world, through which I pray that you pass scatheless. I
have felt the highest pleasures of
maternal love as night after
night I have thought of these things. While
writing this letter,
sentence by
sentence, projecting my thoughts into the life you are
about to lead, I went often to my window. Looking at the towers of
Frapesle,
visible in the
moonlight, I said to myself, "He sleeps,
I wake for him." Delightful feelings! which recall the happiest of
my life, when I watched Jacques
sleeping in his
cradle and waited
till he wakened, to feed him with my milk. You are the man-child
whose soul must now be strengthened by precepts never taught in
schools, but which we women have the
privilege of inculcating.
These precepts will influence your success; they prepare the way
for it, they will secure it. Am I not exercising a spiritual
motherhood in giving you a standard by which to judge the actions
of your life; a motherhood comprehended, is it not, by the child?
Dear Felix, let me, even though I may make a few mistakes, let me
give to our friendship a proof of the disinterestedness which
sanctifies it.
In yielding you to the world I am renouncing you; but I love you
too well not to sacrifice my happiness to your
welfare. For the
last four months you have made me
reflect deeply on the laws and
customs which
regulate our epoch. The conversations I have had
with my aunt,
well-known to you who have replaced her, the events
of Monsieur de Mortsauf's life, which he has told me, the tales
related by my father, to whom society and the court are familiar
in their greatest as well as in their smallest aspects, all these
have risen in my memory for the benefit of my adopted child at the
moment when he is about to be launched, well-nigh alone, among
men; about to act without
adviser in a world where many are
wrecked by their own best qualities thoughtlessly displayed, while
others succeed through a
judicious use of their worst.
I ask you to
ponder this statement of my opinion of society as a
whole; it is
concise, for to you a few words are sufficient.
I do not know whether societies are of
divineorigin or whether
they were invented by man. I am
equallyignorant of the direction
in which they tend. What I do know certainly is the fact of their
existence. No sooner
therefore do you enter society, instead of
living a life apart, than you are bound to consider its conditions
binding; a contract is signed between you. Does society in these
days gain more from a man than it returns to him? I think so; but
as to whether the individual man finds more cost than profit, or
buys too dear the advantages he obtains, concerns the legislator
only; I have nothing to say to that. In my judgment you are bound
to obey in all things the general law, without
discussion, whether
it injures or benefits your personal interests. This principle may
seem to you a very simple one, but it is difficult of
application;
it is like sap, which must infiltrate the smallest of the
capillary tubes to stir the tree, renew its verdure, develop its
flowers, and ripen fruit. Dear, the laws of society are not all
written in a book; manners and customs create laws, the more
important of which are often the least known. Believe me, there
are neither teachers, nor schools, nor text-books for the laws
that are now to
regulate your actions, your language, your
visiblelife, the manner of your
presentation to the world, and your quest
of fortune. Neglect those secret laws or fail to understand them,
and you stay at the foot of the social
system instead of looking
down upon it. Even though this letter may seem to you diffuse,
telling you much that you have already thought, let me
confide to
you a woman's ethics.
To explain society on the theory of individual happiness adroitly
won at the cost of the greater number is a
monstrousdoctrine,
which in its
strictapplication leads men to believe that all they
can
secretly lay hold of before the law or society or other
individuals
condemn it as a wrong is
honestly and fairly theirs.
Once admit that claim and the clever thief goes free; the woman
who violates her marriage vow without the knowledge of the world
is
virtuous and happy; kill a man, leaving no proof for justice,
and if, like Macbeth, you win a crown you have done
wisely; your
selfish interests become the higher law; the only question then is
how to evade, without witnesses or proof, the obstacles which law
and
morality place between you and your self-indulgence. To those
who hold this view of society, the problem of making their
fortune, my dear friend, resolves itself into playing a game where
the stakes are millions or the galleys, political
triumphs or
dishonor. Still, the green cloth is not long enough for all the
players, and a certain kind of
genius is required to play the
game. I say nothing of religious beliefs, nor yet of feelings;
what concerns us now is the running-gear of the great machine of
gold and iron, and its practical results with which men's lives
are occupied. Dear child of my heart, if you share my
horror at
this
criminal theory of the world, society will present to your
mind, as it does to all sane minds, the opposite theory of duty.
Yes, you will see that man owes himself to man in a thousand
differing ways. To my mind, the duke and peer owe far more to the
workman and the pauper than the pauper and the
workman owe to the
duke. The obligations of duty
enlarge in
proportion to the
benefits which society
bestows on men; in
accordance with the
maxim, as true in social
politics as in business, that the burden
of care and
vigilance is everywhere in
proportion to profits. Each
man pays his debt in his own way. When our poor toiler at the
Rhetoriere comes home weary with his day's work has he not done
his duty? Assuredly he has done it better than many in the ranks
above him.
If you take this view of society, in which you are about to seek a
place in keeping with your
intellect and your faculties, you must
set before you as a generating principle and mainspring, this
maxim: never permit yourself to act against either your own
conscience or the public
conscience. Though my
entreaty" target="_blank" title="n.恳求,哀求">
entreaty may seem
to you
superfluous, yet I
entreat, yes, your Henriette implores
you to
ponder the meaning of that rule. It seems simple but, dear,
it means that
integrity,
loyalty, honor, and
courtesy are the
safest and surest instruments for your success. In this selfish
world you will find many to tell you that a man cannot make his
way by sentiments, that too much respect for moral considerations
will
hinder his advance. It is not so; you will see men ill-
trained, ill-taught,
incapable of measuring the future, who are
rough to a child, rude to an old woman,
willing" target="_blank" title="a.不愿意的;不情愿的">
unwilling to be irked by
some
worthy old man on the ground that they can do nothing for