'Nothing is easier than to understand her,' he replied contemptuously.
'She knows what has become of Ferrari; and she is confusing you
in a cloud of
nonsense, because she daren't own the truth.
Let her go!'
If a dog had been under one of the chairs, and had barked,
Lady Montbarry could not have proceeded more impenetrably
with the last words she had to say to Agnes.
'Advise your interesting Mrs. Ferrari to wait a little longer,'
she said. 'You will know what has become of her husband, and you
will tell her. There will be nothing to alarm you. Some
triflingevent will bring us together the next time--as
trifling, I dare say,
as the
engagement of Ferrari. Sad
nonsense, Mr. Westwick, is it not?
But you make allowances for women; we all talk
nonsense. Good morning,
Miss Lockwood.'
She opened the door--suddenly, as if she was afraid of being called
back for the second time--and left them.
CHAPTER XII
'Do you think she is mad?' Agnes asked.
'I think she is simply
wicked. False,
superstitious, inveterately cruel--
but not mad. I believe her main
motive in coming here was to enjoy
the
luxury of frightening you.'
'She has frightened me. I am
ashamed to own it--but so it is.'
Henry looked at her, hesitated for a moment, and seated himself
on the sofa by her side.
'I am very
anxious about you, Agnes,' he said. 'But for the fortunate
chance which led me to call here to-day--who knows what that vile
woman might not have said or done, if she had found you alone?
My dear, you are leading a sadly unprotected
solitary life.
I don't like to think of it; I want to see it changed--especially after
what has happened to-day. No! no! it is
useless to tell me that you
have your old nurse. She is too old; she is not in your rank
of life--there is no sufficient
protection in the companionship
of such a person for a lady in your position. Don't mistake me,
Agnes! what I say, I say in the
sincerity of my
devotion to you.'
He paused, and took her hand. She made a
feeble effort to
withdraw it--
and yielded. 'Will the day never come,' he pleaded, 'when the privilege
of protecting you may be mine? when you will be the pride and joy
of my life, as long as my life lasts?' He pressed her hand gently.
She made no reply. The colour came and went on her face; her eyes
were turned away from him. 'Have I been so
unhappy as to
offend you?'
he asked.
She answered that--she said, almost in a
whisper, 'No.'
'Have I distressed you?'
'You have made me think of the sad days that are gone.' She said no more;
she only tried to
withdraw her hand from his for the second time.
He still held it; he lifted it to his lips.
'Can I never make you think of other days than those--of the happier
days to come? Or, if you must think of the time that is passed,
can you not look back to the time when I first loved you?'
She sighed as he put the question. 'Spare me Henry,' she answered sadly.
'Say no more!'
The colour again rose in her cheeks; her hand trembled in his.
She looked lovely, with her eyes cast down and her bosom heaving gently.
At that moment he would have given everything he had in the world
to take her in his arms and kiss her. Some
mysterious sympathy,
passing from his hand to hers, seemed to tell her what was in his mind.
She snatched her hand away, and suddenly looked up at him.
The tears were in her eyes. She said nothing; she let her eyes
speak for her. They warned him--without anger, without unkindness--
but still they warned him to press her no further that day.
'Only tell me that I am forgiven,' he said, as he rose from the sofa.
'Yes,' she answered quietly, 'you are forgiven.'
'I have not lowered myself in your
estimation, Agnes?'
'Oh, no!'
'Do you wish me to leave you?'
She rose, in her turn, from the sofa, and walked to her
writing-table
before she replied. The
unfinished letter which she had been
writingwhen Lady Montbarry interrupted her, lay open on the blotting-book.
As she looked at the letter, and then looked at Henry, the smile
that charmed everybody showed itself in her face.
'You must not go just yet,' she said: 'I have something to tell you.
I hardly know how to express it. The shortest way perhaps will be to let
you find it out for yourself. You have been
speaking of my
lonelyunprotected life here. It is not a very happy life, Henry--I own that.'
She paused, observing the growing
anxiety of his expression
as he looked at her, with a shy
satisfaction that perplexed him.
'Do you know that I have anticipated your idea?' she went on.
'I am going to make a great change in my life--if your brother
Stephen and his wife will only consent to it.' She opened the desk
of the
writing-table while she spoke, took a letter out, and handed it
to Henry.
He received it from her
mechanically. Vague doubts, which he hardly
understood himself, kept him silent. It was impossible that the 'change
in her life' of which she had
spoken could mean that she was about
to be married--and yet he was
conscious of a
perfectly unreasonable
reluctance to open the letter. Their eyes met; she smiled again.
'Look at the address,' she said. 'You ought to know the hand
writing--
but I dare say you don't.'
He looked at the address. It was in the large, irregular,
uncertain
writing of a child. He opened the letter
instantly.
'Dear Aunt Agnes,--Our
governess is going away. She has had money
left to her, and a house of her own. We have had cake and wine
to drink her health. You promised to be our
governess if we
wanted another. We want you. Mamma knows nothing about this.
Please come before Mamma can get another
governess. Your
loving Lucy,
who writes this. Clara and Blanche have tried to write too.
But they are too young to do it. They blot the paper.'
'Your
eldest niece,' Agnes explained, as Henry looked at her in amazement.
'The children used to call me aunt when I was staying with their
mother in Ireland, in the autumn. The three girls were my
inseparable companions--they are the most
charming children I know.
It is quite true that I offered to be their
governess, if they
ever wanted one, on the day when I left them to return to London.
I was
writing to propose it to their mother, just before you came.'
'Not
seriously!' Henry exclaimed.
Agnes placed her
unfinished letter in his hand. Enough of it had been
written to show that she did
seriously propose to enter the household
of Mr. and Mrs. Stephen Westwick as
governess to their children!
Henry's
bewilderment was not to be expressed in words.
'They won't believe you are in earnest,' he said.
'Why not?' Agnes asked quietly.
'You are my brother Stephen's cousin; you are his wife's old friend.'
'All the more reason, Henry, for
trusting me with the charge
of their children.'
'But you are their equal; you are not obliged to get your living
by teaching. There is something
absurd in your entering their
service as a
governess!'
'What is there
absurd in it? The children love me; the mother loves me;
the father has shown me
innumerable instances of his true friendship
and regard. I am the very woman for the place--and, as to my education,
I must have completely forgotten it indeed, if I am not fit to teach
three children the
eldest of whom is only eleven years old.
You say I am their equal. Are there no other women who serve
as
governesses, and who are the equals of the persons whom
they serve? Besides, I don't know that I am their equal.