"Do you call it honour?" - his host took him up with an intonation
that often comes back to him. "That's what I want YOU to go in
for. I mean the real thing. This is brummagem."
"Brummagem?" Paul ejaculated while his eyes wandered, by a movement
natural at the moment, over the
luxurious room.
"Ah they make it so well to-day - it's
wonderfully deceptive!"
Our friend thrilled with the interest and perhaps even more with
the pity of it. Yet he wasn't afraid to seem to patronise when he
could still so far envy. "Is it deceptive that I find you living
with every appearance of
domesticfelicity - blest with a devoted,
accomplished wife, with children whose
acquaintance I haven't yet
had the pleasure of making, but who MUST be
delightful young
people, from what I know of their parents?"
St. George smiled as for the
candour of his question. "It's all
excellent, my dear fellow - heaven
forbid I should deny it. I've
made a great deal of money; my wife has known how to take care of
it, to use it without
wasting it, to put a good bit of it by, to
make it fructify. I've got a loaf on the shelf; I've got
everything in fact but the great thing."
"The great thing?" Paul kept echoing.
"The sense of having done the best - the sense which is the real
life of the artist and the
absence of which is his death, of having
drawn from his
intellectualinstrument the finest music that nature
had
hidden in it, of having played it as it should be played. He
either does that or he doesn't - and if he doesn't he isn't worth
speaking of. Therefore,
precisely, those who really know DON'T
speak of him. He may still hear a great
chatter, but what he hears
most is the incorruptible silence of Fame. I've squared her, you
may say, for my little hour - but what's my little hour? Don't
imagine for a moment," the Master pursued, "that I'm such a cad as
to have brought you down here to abuse or to
complain of my wife to
you. She's a woman of
distinguished qualities, to whom my
obligations are
immense; so that, if you please, we'll say nothing
about her. My boys - my children are all boys - are straight and
strong, thank God, and have no
poverty of growth about them, no
penury of needs. I receive periodically the most satisfactory
attestation from Harrow, from Oxford, from Sandhurst - oh we've
done the best for them! - of their
eminence as living thriving
consuming organisms."
"It must be
delightful to feel that the son of one's loins is at
Sandhurst," Paul remarked enthusiastically.
"It is - it's
charming. Oh I'm a patriot!"
The young man then could but have the greater
tribute of questions
to pay. "Then what did you mean - the other night at Summersoft -
by
saying that children are a curse?"
"My dear youth, on what basis are we talking?" and St. George
dropped upon the sofa at a short distance from him. Sitting a
little sideways he leaned back against the opposite arm with his
hands raised and interlocked behind his head. "On the supposition
that a certain perfection's possible and even
desirable - isn't it
so? Well, all I say is that one's children
interfere with
perfection. One's wife
interferes. Marriage
interferes."
"You think then the artist shouldn't marry?"
"He does so at his peril - he does so at his cost."
"Not even when his wife's in
sympathy with his work?"
"She never is - she can't be! Women haven't a
conception of such
things."
"Surely they on occasion work themselves," Paul objected.
"Yes, very badly indeed. Oh of course, often, they think they
understand, they think they sympathise. Then it is they're most
dangerous. Their idea is that you shall do a great lot and get a
great lot of money. Their great nobleness and
virtue, their
exemplary conscientiousness as British females, is in keeping you
up to that. My wife makes all my bargains with my publishers for
me, and has done so for twenty years. She does it consummately
well - that's why I'm really pretty well off. Aren't you the
father of their
innocent babes, and will you
withhold from them
their natural sustenance? You asked me the other night if they're
not an
immenseincentive. Of course they are - there's no doubt of
that!"
Paul turned it over: it took, from eyes he had never felt open so
wide, so much looking at. "For myself I've an idea I need
incentives."
"Ah well then, n'en parlons plus!" his
companion handsomely smiled.
"YOU are an
incentive, I maintain," the young man went on. "You
don't
affect me in the way you'd
apparently like to. Your great
success is what I see - the pomp of Ennismore Gardens!"
"Success?" - St. George's eyes had a cold fine light. "Do you call
it success to be
spoken of as you'd speak of me if you were sitting
here with another artist - a young man
intelligent and
sincere like
yourself? Do you call it success to make you blush - as you would
blush! - if some foreign
critic (some fellow, of course I mean, who
should know what he was talking about and should have shown you he
did, as foreign
critics like to show it) were to say to you: 'He's
the one, in this country, whom they consider the most perfect,
isn't he?' Is it success to be the occasion of a young
Englishman's having to
stammer as you would have to
stammer at such
a moment for old England? No, no; success is to have made people
wriggle to another tune. Do try it!"
Paul continued all
gravely to glow. "Try what?"
"Try to do some really good work."
"Oh I want to, heaven knows!"
"Well, you can't do it without sacrifices - don't believe that for
a moment," the Master said. "I've made none. I've had everything.
In other words I've missed everything."
"You've had the full rich
masculine human general life, with all
the responsibilities and duties and burdens and sorrows and joys -
all the
domestic and social initiations and complications. They
must be
immensely
suggestive,
immensely amusing," Paul anxiously
submitted.
"Amusing?"
"For a strong man - yes."
"They've given me subjects without number, if that's what you mean;
but they've taken away at the same time the power to use them.
I've touched a thousand things, but which one of them have I turned
into gold? The artist has to do only with that - he knows nothing
of any baser metal. I've led the life of the world, with my wife
and my progeny; the
clumsyconventionalexpensive materialised
vulgarised brutalised life of London. We've got everything
handsome, even a
carriage - we're perfect Philistines and
prosperous
hospitableeminent people. But, my dear fellow, don't
try to stultify yourself and
pretend you don't know what we HAVEN'T
got. It's bigger than all the rest. Between artists - come!" the
Master wound up. "You know as well as you sit there that you'd put
a pistol-ball into your brain if you had written my books!"
It struck his
listener that the
tremendous talk promised by him at
Summersoft had indeed come off, and with a promptitude, a fulness,
with which the latter's young
imagination had scarcely reckoned.
His
impression fairly shook him and he throbbed with the excitement
of such deep soundings and such strange confidences. He throbbed
indeed with the
conflict of his feelings -
bewilderment and
recognition and alarm,
enjoyment and protest and
assent, all
commingled with
tenderness (and a kind of shame in the
participation) for the sores and bruises exhibited by so fine a
creature, and with a sense of the
tragic secret nursed under his
trappings. The idea of HIS, Paul Overt's, becoming the occasion of
such an act of
humility made him flush and pant, at the same time
that his
consciousness was in certain directions too much alive not
to
swallow - and not
intensely to taste - every offered spoonful
of the
revelation. It had been his odd fortune to blow upon the
deep waters, to make them surge and break in waves of strange
eloquence. But how couldn't he give out a
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